Okay. Today we’re looking for a day that *doesn’t* end feeling like we smacked into a wall face-first at a bizarre & concerning angle. Shaky start already, but not hopeless yet! And we’re gonna try to *not* to use other people’s issues as a distraction from facing our own, also. Okay. Bye again! ✌️

I’m fine btw! Y’all reading this & I are cool; hopefully also vice-versa. Just, not gonna blast my face with internet today. IDK how that’d help anyone @penguinpopup.dev @progesteronipizza.bsky.social @maddiegreenheart.bsky.social @catherinecat.bsky.social, thank you for helping w/my unclear post 😅

Inferring from @kaye.zone @emoria.bsky.social @maddiegreenheart.bsky.social & @missymoo.myatproto.social that something horrible has happened and from @progesteronipizza.bsky.social & @popeyeotaku.bsky.social that it’s about US military action in Venezuela? Instantly enough internet today, cool ✌️

Dear Mister Jacques, I know posting it will make it not come true but I have to speak my truth: I needs this to be the year that Roko and Yay finally fuck. Your Fan, Jen

wow, today was a pretty rattly roller-coaster of emotions… period, let alone for the day after shot day. Wonder what’s up with that. Well. We had some fun, and hopefully we didn’t go *utterly* Rachel Leigh Cook PSA on our first off-Bsky egg (🥚💥🍳😬😓) We did what we did; we gotta let it be the past 😮‍💨

"i'm grateful for what coming out did for me and i want it to spread damn it" - @penguinpopup.dev

🦋 This post is your sign

one of my old college friends told me this afternoon that she thinks this is the year to start her transition and I am already about to track her down with a bamboo shoot & a dart full of estradiol with feathers on it 🙃

It should be clear now but I love these two more than anything

this is how I looked that day, btw 💖 (I did look good! I frequently do! 😊 getting an open-mouthed-smile pic of myself that I like is a little bit of a rarer occurrence… so far 😉)

been meaning to write smth long-ish about 1st Xmas Eve/Day of OJE but 🤷🏻‍♀️ lady (lonely, older) from parents’ church often does holiday dinners w/fam. She said something interesting re: me=🏳️‍⚧️🚺🤷🏻‍♀️… “I had heard about this, of course, but I wasn’t expecting how good you look!” That one’s sitting with me.

today’s easy win for Project J-GYST: offloading my pre-transition office-wear. Mom says she has a specific place to give them, so, sure 🤷🏻‍♀️. Better than those yellow bins that just end up in a landfill in Africa 🤷🏻‍♀️ Bye-bye, button-downs. So long, suits. Thank you for protecting me while I needed it 💙👋

only the real gamers have experience with this bad boy

thinking fondly of the time @tallgirlpetunia.bsky.social dragged me for absolute *filth* with a complete cold read on my, like, entire late teenage years lmao 😂💜🩷🩵

🏳️‍⚧️💉3️⃣9️⃣☑️ just now. I was surprised by the alert from the Health app, bc I didn’t remember seeing my usual day-before alert from the Reminders app… but it sure is five days since I last did my shot, yep 🤷🏻‍♀️ First shot of all-new all-openly-Jen 2026! Next year I gotta sync up shot night & New Year’s Eve…

Hmm, now this… this is interesting 🤔 I’ve honestly never thought much about getting a Pokémon tattoo—this despite two of my dearest friends having at least one each, and despite (gestures at her life) the everything If I were to ink a corporate intellectual property on my body, that’d be the one 😅

short version? In replies of a mutual friend on 2019 Twitter, lol. Started with late-night DM convos about gender stuff; COVID lockdowns turned that into video chatting all the time… ups & downs & a 100-mile move later, we built a relationship we're proud of. Shorter version? I'm a very lucky gal 💖

“When you punish a person for dreaming their dream, don’t expect them to thank or forgive you The best-ever death metal band out of Denton will in time both outpace and outlive you Hail Satan” lives rent-free in my mind.

feels like this New Year’s I’m hearing less of the Mountain Goats song about “I am gonna make it through this year if it kills me” and more of the Mountain Goats song about “you are going down with me, hand in unlovable hand” Probably fine. 😬

Hmmm, “very hot.” I feel like trans women are more likely to have a certain kind of “I know I’m hot, I made myself hot and I did it on purpose” variety of hotness. Because all of us made ourselves, on purpose, right? Sort of a prerequisite, «n’est-ce pas»? Anyway that’s a VERY hot kind of hotness.

Worried these were a little heavy on the cinnamon, but a small bit of salted butter in the middle woke ‘em right up so I think just a skosh more oil & a pinch more salt next time, instead 👍

for every first of the month/first of the year chore I get done today, I will indulge myself in one (1) NGL reply. ngl.link/transducer

I've done so much work on myself the last few years. So now my New Year's resolution is to become much, much worse in ways that are fun for all parties involved

was prevailed upon by @tallgirlpetunia.bsky.social to pick up Cassette Beasts for Switch after I showed her this 👇 and she was like “YES EXACTLY THAT'S THE GAME EXACTLY. But with cute British bisexual girls” so, that is how you make a sale to Jen 🤷🏻‍♀️

I didn’t get to the new Bechdel *or* the new Ostertag this past year, who *am* I even (a girl who, in February/March, had a visceral packed-every-single-book-into-boxes-and-carried-every-single-box-herself reckoning with how many comics she owns ALREADY that she hasn’t even read 🫠)

So weird to see my “I came out as trans this year & it’s so much better” post on Facebook… well, period, but especially weird to see it getting “👍” reacts from high school classmates. Do those MFs know how *terrified* I was that they’d find this out about me? Like, for literally ALL of 1996-2003? 🤯🫠

What was the last movie or TV show you watched in 2025?

can any new yorkers ask the mayor if his wife is single for me

It’s not about the book. It’s about releasing the 2002 version of me who needed a horrible author to bind my (dead)name to a book my father approved of. Thank you for protecting me so I could get here, kid. Your work is done. You’re free now. It’s 2026 — all-new, all-openly-Jen. Happy New Year. ❤️‍🔥🐦‍🔥

A review of “I Saw the TV Glow,” social media posts, COVID lockdowns, Against Me!, unsupervised internet access in high school, Pokémon manga with Viz house ads for “Ranma 1/2,” juvenile fiction from the public library, a problematic episode of “Saved by the Bell,” and a 1989 Swamp Thing playset.

The bourgeoisie doesn't want you to know how soft your skin gets on estrogen Moreover, ICE must be destroyed

I probably won’t answer ‘till the new year, but if you’re bored waiting for the champagne-and-smooches part to happen and/or there’s anything you want to ask or tell me, have a go 😉🩷

Just made a big sappy NYE post on the sites my pre-openly-Jen ppl follow, now it’s y’all’s turn 😉💖 I can’t overstate how glad I am to be friends with you all. Thank you so much for being with me on the journey here. It’s made my life better to know you, and I can’t wait to do that more in 2026. 🫂❤️

only ever had extremely normal feelings about this song, ofc

forgot to show off my Christmas gift from my brother (“the Yu-Gi-Oh one”; search my posts for that context): nerdy-ass earrings! My ears won’t be healed enough to wear most of them until at least this coming June, but I’m very excited about the lightning-bolt ones!

“This was my scariest audiobook experience to date, bar none. The audiobook is a work of art” Me, a ‘fraidy-cat who LOVES audiobooks-as-art:

speaking of “one last mention in 2025”: go listen to this album. (Whole thing’s a banger but the first & last tracks are most key. Also “Context Drift” a real high point in the middle)

I can't believe i got citizenship but it was the best decision of my life to live in 🏳️‍⚧️

yeah this is pretty good lol

Greetings from my posting lair.

Here-a we go

Man, what a year.

ok enough discourse good night

Did a bunch of cleaning & life admin today under the umbrella of the resurgent Project J-GYST*. Now I want to do some journaling or something. But I should probably just sleep… to do more cleaning tomorrow. 😓🤷🏻‍♀️ *(“Jen, Get Your Shit Together. Pronounced “jay” like blue jay, “geist” like zeitgeist).

I had like two or three years scattered among my 20s when I was in fact kinda crushing it as a simulacrum of a youthful adult man human. Still sucked lol

Btw… guess what I found at the storage unit the other day (c. 1997ish; signed 2002ish) Burning the whole book seems like a hassle from a “don’t involve the fire department” standpoint… but I think ripping out just the title page with his signature & burning that might be a nice way to ring in 2026

Millennia in the future when archaeologists dig up my bones, they'll be able to tell exactly what I was from my hip ratio and shoulder width and brow structure: "Another soldier from the Skeleton Wars" they'll say with a shiver, and they'll seal the tomb back up as they shake their heads in fear

me, with the suspicious glowing jolly rancher in my mouth: "so where's the uranium?"

New heights in “weird prog dreams” last night. Also I think somewhere in the middle of all this it was a train? And a bit that was definitely just “Bob’s Burgers” mashed up with “Rocko’s Modern Life”… cripes. In the immortal words of Stanley Ipkiss… “I gotta lay off the cartoons.” 😬😓