Just watching Taskmaster and loving the enthusiasm of Rose Ayling-Ellis

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2025 was very shit. An arbitrary number change may not change much

Can I make being Cat part-time work? No. Tried that. I bloody hate my mind and good riddance to 2025

Dysphoric episides and low mood have made me question whether to carry on with my transition. Too old, too ugly, too bald, not strong enough

Battery was flat when I came to the car after shopping, so (dressed inappropriately for the cold weather) I had to flag someone down to jump-start my car. They were lovely people. Need a new battery tomorrow though.

*Sigh* waking up to another UK paper calling for the end of trans people... it's just so tiring. Does anyone have something nice trans-related to balance things out?

When I'm not feeling great, it's harder to ignore things like I can't hold my neck at certain angles without causing issues swallowing/breathing. Eagle syndrome sucks. 6 years ago so many things were better. Will snap out of it - just hoping for anything good to happen at some point

Sometimes things feel good in general and other times it feels like I've had enough. Now is the latter.

At Halfords buying a new bike helmet for my daughter and they have a progress pride flag saying everyone is welcome here. Love it!

Merry Christmas to those that celebrate and hugs to those that can find it a difficult time. Keep shining!

Trying to stay positive... depression came back, but tomorrow is a new day

Morning.

Worked hard to get this into Guardian Oz & big props to @fiercemum.bsky.social for setting it up & Melissa Davey for publishing it. She will doubtless get loads of hassle from transphobes for it, but it needs to be out there. Puberty Blocker bans harm trans kids, no-one should pretend they don’t.

So, now not dissociating, I appear to have emotions. Just cried watching Muppets Christmas Carol 😁

I'm skinny and 46, so should have limited boob growth on hrt. My body has other ideas - after only 14 weeks they're perky. This may get harder to hide.

Coming out my brother has lifted a big weight. Still not sure quite where my trans journey will take me, but it's slightly less scary now.

Wide awake at 5am so my brain is whirring away, but knowing the only close relative I have left reacted okay to me coming out is such a weight lifted from my shoulders. Yayyyy!!!!!

May be telling my brother about stuff today and it isn't likely to go well at all. Wish me luck

Seem to be good at annoying people today. It's a particular skill when I'm trying to help people/putting in long hours at work. Reset and start again tomorrow

Spoke to the head of the clinic and she said it's all good to lower my dose for 4-6 weeks and see how I feel. This is good as it gives me time to work on things.

Anniversary of losing my dad today, followed all too soon by my mum. I'd just love to just be able to talk to them one last time, to show them how their grandchild is doing, and to ask their advice. Be good to people - tell them you love them

2/2 Now is when my boobs decided would be the best time to grow quite a bit - coming off an already low dose. I'd have big b👀bs on a full dose!!

1/2 So, started cutting down on estrogen with plan to stop soon. Either I'll come to realise this is a mistake and fully commit, or I'll have to just deal with (bury deep down) my dysphoria.

I know I'm a broken record, but I may have to call my 3 months on hrt a failure. It doesn't feel different and I need some positivity to have the strength to deal with the fallout if I carried on. Sh*t

Politician who fanned anti-LGBT sentiment stunned to find rising levels of anti-LGBT sentiment

Snapchat randomly genders me at the moment

Looks likely my transition wasn't meant to be. GP won't do shared care, hair transplant results are depressingly crap and no consistent happy or calm feeling. Bugger.

Going to balance out negative posts with positive/cute ones, so here goes...

Updated my profile photo to a more natural look (apart from the hair obvs)

Transgender awareness week. I am aware.

Happy for one day yesterday, then back to depression about having a brain that doesn't match my body. I want to post happy stuff, but am just so, so tired of everything.

HRT 9 weeks... No change in emotions Sore nipples Tiredness Slightly tingling mouth

Did something today to try and lift my mood

It's oddly jarring seeing everyone going about their lives normally when you're in a bleak place and questioning everything. No energy left

I've had enough - work is stressful, I'm too bald, hrt isn't helping depression - I'm just deluding myself that any of this will improve.

Did anyone else have really supportive friends who said 'people should be able to live how they want', only for them to go really quiet when you start hrt?

Thought I'd been feeling light-headed for a few weeks... Blood pressure of 105 over 63 might explain it

I want to turn the clock back 8 years and just pretend none of this shit happened. My parents would still be alive, my health would be better, and I could convince myself that occasionally dressing up would be enough. I appreciate this is a crossroads point, but life shouldn't be this hard!!

Still not getting the 'this just feels right' feeling from hrt. It doesn't feel wrong, but maybe not right enough to carry on with it. Shame, was hoping for happiness

Sorry for doom posting lately. Went to an LGBTQ paint and sip event and took an amazing ally with me. It was nice

Highlight of today will be falling asleep in the bath. I miss dissociating

So... happiness was fleeting again. 6 weeks in and still randomly getting the crushing feeling that I should just stop everything. Why is this so hard!?

Never particularly wanted pierced ears, but seeing Christmas earrings today I thought they'd be cool. Odd

So, as someone who's not totally out at work, but definitely not 'in' either... would a red dress be too much for a Christmas meal?

A question for the trans ladies... When picking a name, was it one you always liked or did you find a name just suited your upgrade part way through transitioning?

6 weeks on hrt. Chest is a bit sensitive, but not really noticed much else. When do emotions kick in? 😊

In a bit of a better place now, so looking ahead. I know timings vary, but trying to think of nice things. So... how long were you on hrt before you noticed facial changes?

So, after burning-out and not feeling any happier on hrt, I had decided I'd stop this week. Ever late to the party, I feel slightly better today, but b👀bs are starting. So it's a game of chicken now to see if I feel better enough to stick on hrt before they reach the point of no return.

It sucks that I would have to put credit card details into dodgy software to access my DMs (stupid UK), so if I've not replied to anyone it's because I can't access DMs