god, there is never any time to recover from the world

It’s too hot in my room

your absence haunts me

Sorry, I thought I was ready but I wasn’t

Well I was doing okay today and now I’m spiraling down a hole again, I love this. Can I be done with it already?

You are extremely ultra lovable. That’s just truth, not arrogance

Somebody take my phone away from me please, for fucks sake

There’s nothing like making yourself feel sad

I need to get serious about finding the gold, velvet quilt I want for my bed. When the sun shines into my room everything will turn that warm shade of gold that feels like happy memories, nostalgia and a warm hug. I need more of that in my life.

Loot that drops after defeating me: ✨my broken heart ✨unused healing potions ✨hopes ✨dreams ✨a mysterious thank you note

btw i love Rachel sm she owns like a lot of my heart

If you don’t heart all of my posts do you even love me?

my attention deficit is also high definition

okay, enough being normalish, back to wallowing

I've been on bluesky for over a year and I still don't know what shitposting is

Confirmed I’m the problem… of course I am 😭

whatever pfp you start bluesky with, you're stuck with forever. I don't make the rules

I live for the bullshit and pretty women calling me beautiful

daydreaming about all the ways we’d be perfect together

Feeling empty and exhausted tonight

No one tells you how much you end up crying in your car and then have to put on a happy face and go back to work as an adult. It would’ve been nice to mentally prepare for this in childhood

Reminiscing on events that never occurred.

fries on top of salad kinda day

Would love a tight squeeze right now... maybe hard enough to suffocate me to death

I had a dream last night that I lived in a cute little cottage by the ocean with the love of my life. We puttered around our little garden and collected shells on the beach all day The I woke up and got ready for work

I wish I could sleep forever in a non dying way

if the vibes are off, i’m not gas lighting myself out of feeling it anymore

I have a prescription for hormones to hopefully stabilize my mood 🤞

That sinking feeling you get when your feet are bound to a couple of cinder blocks and the dinghy drops you off somewhere deep in the middle of the ocean.

Warm are the eyes of trust, those gleaming stars under sway of human tides. To feel, to know, to let go of the rising dark of doubts with her smirk, his grin, twin fireflies sparking in the cave of scars. Old dreams under new moons, the stars burn warm with trust again, if only for a look.

I think there's a part of me that has broken recently and I just have to learn to live with that inside of me

Fuck ICE, and fuck anyone who won't say Fuck ICE.

This could never happen in a matriarchy

F☆U☆C☆K I☆C☆E

This week I'm going to work on forgiving myself

Speaking of crying… my appointment at the menopause clinic is today and I’m terrified I’m about to waste $250 for them to tell me nothing or make me come back again before they do any tests

The sky, clouds and mountains made me cry this morning, but when am I not crying these days

I don’t want to be an adult anymore. It’s hard.

women😍

february fucking sucks, skip it. next

If my eyes open but it’s dark did they even open at all?

Picked open the fresh wound again Let my tears burn inside it Because I feel like I deserve the hurt Or maybe because I don’t But you think I do So it must be true Or maybe I think that you think I do And you can’t convince me otherwise

I yearn for that gentle unquiet

What we had mattered — please don’t let it be replaceable

The anxiety is creeping in

Thank fuck January is over.

When you’ve gone to work and cried every day for the last month and now your body associates work with being devastated… I might have to find a new job 😭

Today… sigh…

I miss feeling ok.

If I disappear for 2 days I’m either thriving or spiraling