been almost a year since i was at my lw i miss it so bad🙏

honestly jst gnna rant abt ts on here bc idk who to talk to and i need to say this somehow. i’m so fucking confused i know i don’t want to get back together with him because he made me feel like shit and he scared me. i’m self aware enough to know he’s prbly manipulating me and that he was in the -

breaking up did fucking nothing. he’s still making me feel like shit and touching me without my consent and got me involved with a whole bunch of drama. i want to completely cut him off but i cant

i was doing so well then i got high and binged so bad i don’t even wanna know how much i actually ate and i haven’t been able to stop binging since. i want to kms

UPDATE: WE BROKE UP

chat i am proper locked in atm (🙌🙌) but i’m pretty sure me and my bf are breaking up so what if he thinks that i “relapsed” because of him IT IS NOT he just thinks the world revolves around him I DONT WANT PEOPLE THINKING I GOT SKINNY BECAUSE OF A MAN

i’m so disgustingly fat

miss my honeymoon phase so bad it’s not even funny

i hate leaving the house knowing i could be so much thinner

my bf is pissing me off he’s getting on my back abt not relapsing and everything then says the most triggering stuff in the world???? i swear to fuck this boy never said anything like it before i told him abt my ed and sh

Anyone else take bodychecks to discourage yourself from eating? Like ew I look like that..

honestly kinda relapsing to spite my bf. he goes on abt how he doesn’t want me to get skinny bc it’s unattractive and then always complains about weight and calories in-front of me which he never did until he new i had an ed. he also thinks he’s helping me by constantly sexualizing my body.

WHY AM I WASTING MY TEEN YEARS BEING FAT

my mum just pointed out my scars as i was leaving the house to go to my friends i really cannot wait to deal with her when i’m home tmrw!!! 🤗

i’m back again!! tried recovering, got a bf, got fat.

does alcohol break a fast i don’t normally count drinks during my fasts but it’s so high cal idk

i need to kill myself i can feel the fat clumping up under my skin

Me when my disability actually disables me

dude i kinda wanted to eat dinner but i wasted all my fucking calories on vodka

like i feel embarrassed being around her bc i prbly look massive compared to her

i hate that i get so triggered by my bsf they used to be bigger then me but now they’re skinnier and genuinely have never really cared about how they look n stuff. i feel bad for even like thinking abt their body weight n shit but idk i can’t help it at least it helps me stay locked in i guess

Irl thinspo is so triggering omg I'm never going to eat again

whoever sent me on the semi recovery train im going to fucking get you . you ruined everything for me

my bluesky awakening happens every few weeks when everything starts getting bad again . how cool

i’m having a day out w my friend and staying the night at hers. I overate yesterday so i really wanted to fast today but idk if i’ll be able to. i genuinely feel like i might throw up if i eat anything today i really can’t do this

i just want to starve and starve and rot until im dead

IVE STILL GOT THEM THEU WOMT STOP

i’ve had really bad hiccups for 6 hours now i’m in pain

oh my gosh i was so cringe 2021-2024 ew ew ew ew

i'm so used to being the youngest wdym people are younger then me now

why hasn’t a 0 kcal alcohol been created yet 😟

i’m back with an omad to break a 50 hour fast <3 ~ 511 cals

pls tell me i’m not the only one who goes from one extreme to another w their ed like i go from losing 20kg in 2 months to binging every single day i actually can’t do this anymore

I am not leaving 2025 the weight I am now. I will get to my ugw this year.

I DONT UNDERSTAND FATSPO genuinely how does it help anyone???? i don’t get it

me tryna get my steps in at 23:59

no better thinspo than my own old lw bodychecks

why tf did i let myself get this big. fuck binging omg

lossing weight you’ve already lost is so annoying

I actually have so much potential if I lost weight my body would be so good

IM BACK FEELING A TAD LESS DEPRESSED AND HAVE BEEN LOCKED IN AGAIN FOR OVER A WEEK RN AFTER LIKE 2 MONTHS OF BINGING HOPING IT LASTS

being alive is humiliating

everybody is pissing me off im gonna kms

looking back on my lw bc makes me genuinely suicidal

starting drinking energy drinks again and omg i remember why i was so addicted it makes fasting sm easier wtaf did i stop drinking them????

fml

why do i have to have a reason for being upset why can’t i just be mind numbingly depressed for no reason i don’t wanna have to explain myself omg