wait til I get my paws on some more weed..

the private property we always smoke on finally got shut off prompting an even more epic adventure to an unbelievable spot that I might have to gatekeep forever

lifemaxxing by excusing my alcoholism with a healthy social life

hahaha got very drunk with boyfriends band and played our song last at a gig we were not even invited to be a part of, wonderful way to end a very busy year at our favourite venue, absolute pisstake gig

life is a bit too overwhelming right now i feel ill

the day I stop surrounding myself by alcoholics is the day I lose weight

I didmt realise how much dairy I consumed today oh good lord im gonna explode

i lend equiptment to ONE bassist and its already lost wtf never trust these guys.......

oh man all i want is a cheese

would it be really funny to lose my virgininty on the night of a annual festival hosted to celebrate women and queer people in music that I AM PLAYING at beacause......

nooooooooo dont cancel band practice this is all i dream of all i want ever

yesterday i found a letter i wrote to my dad from the roughest spot this year and fell victim to relistening to an album with heavy associations from this time, mum told me recently to throw out all my blades and even though i will never cut again i dont want to change so firmly

do not get me wrong i think im pretty happy right now but without any warning i suddenly cant stop thinking about my life. i feel so bad for myself and everyone around me, it makes me miserable to think how my family has forever damaged me as a person and i dont even recognise until it fell apart

locking in threeeead wieiad!!!!!!! kill me if i dont post one of these per day <3

todyayyy after the most downbad night i picked up a hefty dose of THE pill so manifesting not a single negative side effect and no weight gain and only happiness and no babies

happy two monthes to my delicious boyfriend zooweemama

one disgustingly morally gray person in my local music scene right now is the ugliest mfer ever bro looks like emo logan paul and cheats on and lies to every partner and cant keep a friend fuck you wannabe furry emo baddie

if I ever complain about gym boyfriend dont listen to me this is actually the best thing ever and good for me andd oohhhweeeemamaa🤤🤤🤤

I miss fasting I miss aching from hunger and feeling lighter on my feet

I slept horribly kept rolling over dreaming he was with me in my empty bed

he asked me last night for approval to eat one cookie, 52cals, told me all the disgustingly clean shit he ate that day, and then asked again for one more cookie. hes better than me and so triggering but its all for the good of both of us, I just need to keep up

does anyone else strongly believe that the only way they could die is of their own doing? my passive suicide plan goes waayyyy back

wooow we are going on a real date today guys unfortunately dates involve eating so im gonna try do as little of that as possible

goodmorning tummyache

everyone gather around for a show, watch as this man disappears as we know. /lyr

was okayness she is getting antibiotics and will be fine!!

noooo come back i want to bite your shoulders more

oh wowwweee me oh my what a healthy relationship with the most gorgeous perfect funny and motivated person i know who love me and i love and i wish to be with everyday and will be with forever beacuse we are perfect together and good for eachother and a very hot couple and everyone knows it

im getting into a good routine these holidays, im going to be better and look better and feel better and its gonna be great

my cats eyeball is a little bit funny we are taking her to the vet, manifesting okayness

i was so fucked i shouldnt remember anything but last night was so memorable how is it even possible to fall more in love

having a day to do nothing has never sounded better I need to rot in my bed so bad

and with that I put an end to my week long bender its time to lock the fuck in

never felt more affection than lasts nights adventures, getting bf high for the first time at a complete hippy gathering and laying by a huge bonfire sharing straight jagermeister

holy fucking sidequest

his bestfriend said we were cool and my best friends like him and i had multiple conversations with both of his parents and he said he wants to be with me for a long time guuys IM IN!!

moderate eating disorder realtionship so funny because we bought 2 bags of chips and cookies between us to share during movienight and ate none of it, then in the morning us offering for the other to take them all home becuase neither of us wanted to break our diets

everytime i sleepover with my boyfriend i am just more in love and more down bad

my tummy hurts and i haven't had a break in days but i reckon I could go to one last party this weekend, i can never say no to a function ever

I dyed my hair im all stripey now

boyfriend looked very beautiful tonight and he thought the same of me

i have never abused so many substances and felt so mentally drained in my life but iam so happy :D

it might be physically impossible to lose weight as fast as I need to

i think I havent lost enough weight to sleepover with bf there is a high likely hood of being seen very vulnerably

today might be the best most exciting gig we have ever played, and tommorow we play a shitty fest in a park and get fucked up with the coolest people ever before I sleepover with BOYFRIEND LOVE OML this is peak I cant wait

life is so overwhelmingly busy with the best things ever right now I might be suffering from success

in that time i accumulated 3.7K posts holy locked in

i finally changed my intro from exactly 1 year and 2 days ago

[ draculette's edsky intro ] 18, they/she, ednos goth furry stonerexic of ur nightmares - stats: - 169cm sw: 62kg　 lw: 52.9kg gw: 50kg content warning for my life

i dont even eat that much right now i think im only so fat because i go on a bender every weekend