i cant even write with a pen because of my arm <///3 guess i'll burn cals and suffer instead of studying (im 100% taking advantage of having a real reason to not study)

i hope its not something neurological because it keeps happening and my dumbass hospital lost my records so until they find them i just cant go to a neurologist

not falling asleep and i need to bash my head in with a crowbar im so fucking frustrated i hate this body

WHY IS MY TT FYP FULL OF SUICIDE AND DYING ANIMALS SPRINKLED WITH THE FAILING STATE OF THE COUNTRY I HAVE NOT CHOICE BUT TO LIVE IN I FUCKING HATE EVERYTHING

Why does my reflection make me look like the shirtless guy from no I'm not a human

losing my mind actually cus my arm keeps spasming like this every time i flex it it gets worse STOOOP why does this keep happening its freaking me out ahhh

i really really need to study guys

this is hard RAHHHHHH cursed to be a frame by frame artist cus i do not have the patience

might fuck around and learn tweening... it looks so much funner than frame by frame

Spider i took outside earlier🙏🏻🙏🏻 the pattern was so weird and its front legs were above its head kind of when it walked because I think they were so long

i need a more animation friendly art style smh

I wanna kill myself, but not like, die. I wanna die but at the same time I dont idk. I don’t wanna be here and do stuff but I don’t wanna be dead. I just don’t wanna exist. I don’t make sense if but oh well im just journalling

"I was ashamed of myself, when I realized life was a costume party; and I attended with my real face" - Franz Kafka

sorry if this spams ur tl thread of all my music stuff just cuz

What I’ve got so far in my lil song

seven hours deep in thisd ;-; its 3am again also this is the first ever walk cycle ive done ts so ass

i need to draw fan art NOOWWWW

i'm gonna kms over this math in a minute omg im LOSING it

i keep having to say this and its so beyond me??? im a PERSON not a live in maid. my mom is a PERSON not a robot the boys in my family are ridiculous

"you saw it first why dont you clean it" ITS NOT MY FUCKING JOB TO CLEAN UP AFTER A GROWN ASS MAN AND TWO TEENAGE BOYS KYYSSS

i go so quickly from loving all of our collective innovations and ideas to praying and begging to die because i can’t carry on in a world with so much fucking hurt. every good thing is so infinitely drowned out by the abuse and the war and the rape and the neglect. i feel safer dead.

whys my mechanics score so fucking high 😭 ???? how??

FUCKING FUCK

starts tweaking

really into these little demons for wearing human faces and having complicated relationships with humans

getting re ready to be deployed in ww3

your hips your thighs...

how do you stop gaining and losing the same 5lbs

took a mock asvab and it immediately put me in engineering and mechanics <///3

gonna start trying to wake up at 5am and sleep by ten (this is impossible)

idk how people are getting 20k+ steps o-o i just did a mile run and walked back two miles with barely 8k and my feet are so swollen. my hip is trying to kill me

thats do silly but i understand i used to eat celery sticks while hi ty gh just for no reason

its 3am i need to fix my sleep schedule so badly goodness.

got a sweater with the exact patterns of my theriotype rahhh

"we have lost the plot" i love saying this sm shout out to slang

damn i really wish i was smart enough for university and a useful degree that would actually get me somewhere in life

holy shiz im gonna be 17 o-o WHATTT IM 13 TF YOU MEAN guys thats scary guys if i dont do something w my life i fr have to join the military

theres a massive bruise on my leg in a perfect straight line ?

i have no idea what i was trying to say here omg im sorry sleepy 😭 love u too pookiee

I CABT SLEEP

iv been trying to open a can and just realisd i for got thr can and wastrying to open my sink foceant

my heart is beat in my stomec

it feels like my head is goingto explode

ive been drinking maybe a little bit

i took an edible way over my limit my heart is about to be in my balls oh my gad pray for me im gen tweaking rn