i need him hes so pretty

"mental heath matters" until ive genuinely done evil disgusting shit in the past that i can never talk about or you will never see me the same again

A coincidentally fish themed dinner tonight

wip

Two scenes with Dustin and Steve, a scene with will and Joyce, and I think multiple scenes with El and Hopper made me cry a little but the beginning of the season just kinda sucked it didn't get good until later idk I think the story is wrapped up pretty well, most of it makes sense to me at least

I just finished str@nger th!ngs season 5 and I really wasnt happy with like most of the season and I was expecting to HATE the finally but I actually kinda really liked it??? Idk maybe its just cuz my expectations were really low, but I really liked Henry's character especially in the ending

All i wanna do is eat my taiyaki I only took like three bites before I gagged

Me and twin were reminiscing on 2023-2024 bsdshedtwt era I miss it more than anything especially cutting every week and being 98lbs

Ran out of weed yesterday so guess who's nauseous asf cuz they couldnt have their morning smoke god damn it i need to stop forming dependency on shit like this but its fine im getting more tonight

Twin yaps to me about her streamers all the time and I only have two that I watch consistently but neither of them have streamed in months but one of them finally fucking streamed and im like entering a state of mind rn that I NEVER wish to leave

Me and twin have been reaching flow state lately with our face times, we have a morning and night call where we just yap about out hyperfixations and anything else happening in our lives and the afternoon is usually for playing videos games together or another call idk how healthy this is but idc

when someone brings up a topic im even slightly interested in so i go insane

all roads lead back to yaoi/yuri

I really need to stop eating so much dawg...

I always look so obese on camera I swear you can see my Individual ribs irl the lighting it just shit

Me and both my my only two friends all wanted to relapse yesterday for different reasons and we all only found out today lol I havent yet but im really considering it, especially if they decide to as well

used you for rendering practice

A drawing i did awhile ago but I just found again and i still kinda like it

first art of 2026 yayayaya

how to draw curly hair <//3

It blows my mind a little each and every time my siblings acknowledge my existence by their own free will and actually take time out of their day to speak real words to me, it almost makes me feel normal

Happy new year guys, I woke up this morning in a puddle of my own blood and the worst cramps you could ever imagine+im still sick.

Cant take cough syrup without being violently nauseous for about 15 minutes after omfg end me now its not that bad yet but ik its gonna get sm worse in the next few days

Sick on new years is my last fucking straw

Literally everyone around me is sick and guess who woke up with a sore throat and congestion.

Kinda mid bcs ngl

I'd also like to point out how all my safe foods are breakfast foods though I have and will continue to eat them for any other meal as well

I think my safe foods have finally shifted from cereal, yogurt, and oatmeal and are now pancakes, french toast, and sausage for some odd fucking reason and im really not ready to accept this though I have been eating either pancakes or french toast every single morning for the past like three months

im so tired of revolving my entire life around food and being fat but the second my body changes even slightly i freak out. why cant i just naturally be skinny :( not even skinny, a semi flat stomach would be enough

silly timelaps of me drawing nanami

Finally have a day to just lay around and be lazy omfg ive been running non stop the past week it feels like an eternity since I could just lay in bed with no worries about going anywhere or doing anything

Hi guys christmas haul time Im very grateful and what not for everything, especially considering my current life circumstances I hope all my moots and anyone else seeing this had an amazing christmas, im so lucky to be able to still spend it with my family after almost losing two of them ❤️

Do anything of my moots wanna see a christmas haul... this is the first year someone didn't give up and just ask me to make a list of items for them to get me and I was actually surprised with multiple really thoughtful gifts

My step dad called me an angsty teen and made me into a christmas card wtf atleast my face card saved me

happy

spending money is the bane of my existence i hate the holidays 💔

I spent most of yesterday and today with my mom and I really havent been able to do that in months. It was kind of bitter sweet, we were moving some of my dad's things out of his house thats being sold and had to pick and choose what was most important. I miss when things were normal :/

Happy to say I beat my wife.

Ughhhhh ive been out driving and doing shit all fucking day, ive been out since 9:30am and only just got home at 8:30pm. My feet are absolutely killing me I feel like a 40 year old woman omfg kill me now

Absolutely CRASHING out over Hollow Knight rn 💔💔💔 Hornet ily why do you have to be like this I dont wanna beat you up why cant we all just hug and be a happy family

I went to goodwill today to get hiking boots and warm clothes and my bsf randomly shows up saying that she was in the area and stalked my location to come say hi and then proceeded to say that she was also shopping for hiking boots. It was nice to see her though, and pretty funny ngl

There's something about playing videos games that have the dame weather as outside my window that just brings me so much joy like yes I'd love to run around in the snow on a horse while it snows outside irl

It's snowing yippee

Fantasizing about taking her to a jazz club and having the time of our lives together grrrrrrrrr I yearn for young love again

How can I be so down bad for someone ive never really met 💔💔💔💔💔

This is some middle school ass shit of me omfg

SHE CALLED ME SHE CALLED ME FOR THE FIRST TIME EVER WEVE NEVER SPOKEN ON CALL TOGERHER BEFORE OMFG SHE CALLED ME IM LITERALLY SHAKING SO BAD RN AND SWEATING OMFGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG

It's been half a year now since both my parents have been stuck in the hospital and ive been left to be cared for by my half and step singlings's parents. I really have no clue how I got here literally one day everything was normal and the next this shit happened.

Grrrrrr I love u weed, nothing could ever replace u 💔