i hate having responsibilities i wish i could just stay home and cut myself forever

Everyone always says its an opportunity to learn, but what do you do when you never fucking learn???? Maybe I am getting better, maybe i have learned, but it doesnt feel like it. I feel like i keep making the same mistakes in the same situations. My mind is an eternal prison that I will never escape

I hate myself every single day more and more for my indescribably dumb actions. If I hadn't been irresponsible and drinken those 6 shots in a row then maybe he would still be healthy and fine. If I didnt decline his offer to go with them, maybe I could've avoided the car that hit them. If, if, if.

Literally just 5 more lbs and ill be 100 and then 5 more and ill be 95 omfg im so excited I once again stopped counting cals cuz now im just lazy but my relationship with food has steadily gotten worse and worse so im eating a lot less than usual but instead if forcing it, its just instinct

I saw them again today and mentioned the car and ride thing before I left... I didnt have much time to talk with them and forgot to ask for their name or tell them mine so whoops We have the same testing room next week so thats when ill see them and have more of a real conversation

Pretty accurate unfortunately, though half the questions made luke no sense to me

My fantasies be like imagining when I get my car back from the mechanic and driving to testing next week and seeing the same girl who talked to me after testing today and offering her a ride if she mentions that she has to wait until her mom gets off work again hmmmm I wonder if thats weird

State mandated testing in person at 7 fucking am kms kms kms kms

Every single day its always "were gonna move it to tomorrow" over snd over again jfc JUST DO WHAT YOU PROMISED ME YOUD DO WHY IS IT TAKING WEEEEEEEEEKS

shit posting

Ily Simon ily rawnie ily Finn ily smigs ily draculette ily dew ily nemi ily kitty ily Linda ily nova ily Benji ily Marley ily Linus ily Spencer ily sleepy ily 𐂂𐂂𐂂 ily bryor ily darby ily Cassandra ily Dave ily orbit ily cereopsis ily ALL MOOTS!!!!!

second attempt at drawing teeths ? idk how to it looks weird

Idk this is so far

i wish people cared about me as much as i do them

My heart rate is 130 bpm after beating a boss in silksong I cannot make this shit up 😭😭

Honestly the only reason im even worried about a surgery in the first place is because I just really dont think there's enough room in my mouth for another tooth ive stared at it for like 20 minutes now Ill just have to wait and see if it causes any pain or discomfort I hate waiting

There is a large-ish amount of time between this possible surgery, meaning something could happen to me that would require a surgery within that time frame... I get too worked up over completely theoretical situations, its just the fact it COULD happen and I wont know until it does that scares me

NOOOOOOOOOOOOO I CAN FEEL ONE OF MY WISDOM TEETH COMING IN NOOOOO ARE YOU KIDDINGGGGG THIS CANNOT BE MY FIRST SURGERY EVER OMFG DIEEEEEEEEEEEEE

dni wilbur soot supporters omg, if i dont fw the crybaby girl why would i fw an abuser??? idc if you think they are hot or cute. also vivzi supporters get OUTT

First phase is literally such a walk in the park, too but the second phase feels fucking impossible her attacks get 20x faster and also a completely different attack patern omfg

Getting absolutely OBLITERATED by Widow for the 50th time in a row is starting to chip away at my sanity

My head hurts 🥀

Imagine being 101 inches wide.... another fatty.....

Everything i own and everything i do each day is a privilege that could be taken away from me at any waking moment and that fact keeps me up most nights. I have a roof over my head, clothes on my back, food in my stomach, a car, and many unnecessary items that could all be lost at a moments notice

Banana bread mmmmmmmmm 🤤

Really need to meal prep some breakfast cuz every morning now i get lazier and lazier to cook something from scratch cuz its all we have rn so im just eating saltines for breakfast today, at least they're fucking delicious

105 lbs, almost in the bmi 19 range Haven't been this skinny in years wow

ts took me five hours to make bruh 🥹

i want to be under 100 pounds on my birthday

its almost my birthday im so stressed

If I posted a picture of every time ive eaten pancakes/french toast with sausage in the last 6 months on here, that would be ALL that im known for its like an actual issue I just cant stop eating it for every single meal

Why does my shadow against my bedroom wall look 10x prettier and skinnier than ill literally ever be

I realize now the miso soup looks very unappetizing in this image, I think partly due to both the lighting and the white bowl

Wait its 9pm that just means going to bed

My adrenaline gets so bad whenever I play video games I just start shaking uncontrollably and sweating and idk why I get so worked up over pixels but jfc does it wear me out I need a nap

Are the bruises on my thighs from bashing my ps controller with them repeatedly due to raging at silksong aesthetic or am I just psycho

Lunch ft. my wife

First day home alone since my step parents left for Texas for a week, it feels weird to be taking care of a house alone again it used to be my every day life

Literally wanna cry ily all sm I wish I could've been your parents or siblings or whoever and I would've protected you all sm better if I was ilysm all of you even non moots ily

Ngl idk how i lost weight cuz i havent been counting cals for like two weeks but im 106 now yippee only a few pounds away from the double digits

Can a 17 year old ever just be a 17 year old guys or is this just my life now

AND on the way to said friend, I was stuck behind some crazy lunatic who was swerving in and out of the lane and I was literally babysitting them the whole way honking my horn every time they swerved omfg I should've totally gotten their license number and reported them I was just so tired

And then, after spending a few hours trying to figure that out, my friend asked to go out to dinner (her treat) and have a cig together so I just couldnt possibly say no to that and our conversation consisted of taxes, college, and how were working towards healing from our past traumas.

Today was WAYYY too adult-like for my liking. After having a nice day with my dad yesterday, I drove an hour from my friends house that I stay at while visiting my dad (2 hours away from me, 1 hour from my friend) and stopped by my mom's house on the way because I had to file my fucking taxes.

I fucking hate celebrities omfg fuck off sabrina and taylor yall are literally the most insufferable privileged white women ive ever fucking seen can we all stop supporting these invalid fucks already

Yesterday my dad turned 57 and, for a few months, I never thought id be able to say that. I took him out of the rehab that hes been stuck in for over half a year to take a walk, pick out a plant, and get a bite to eat as celebration. Was planning on taking him to a mall, but we dont have the time

I have so much hate inside of me Im so tired