I miss fasting I miss aching from hunger and feeling lighter on my feet

well i learned that my constant hip and joint pain is likely because of my high arches .. nobody wanted to suggest this before

got the monster bad apple juice to try tomorrow .. i dont usually drink them because the kcal feels like death but . i will try it

took me around 4 hours with breaks to get through like 4-5 chapters in the book i have to read i dont know why i feel so adverse to reading today just cant concentrate

every day i feel even worse and it will never get better . its been almost a decade of having an ed and im not even good at having one

i hate that i actually have to start doing things tomorrow . i want to do nothing on my break actually

how do you get past bmi 19 jail ive been imprisoned for over a year let me out

do you ever wait until all your things are falling apart ( and they all fall apart basically at one time ) and feel guilty about spending so much to replace them because how dare you be this needy

when does the dizziness end i cannot stop being dizzy

when do you start feeling proportionately older to the amount of responsibility you have

everyone in my house says its not cold when it is in fact cold in the house

do you guys have any easy vegetable recipes ? .. my diet has been pretty bad lately and is catching up with me 😣

finally on break ... have to read and annotate an entire book in a week

i wish i wasnt such a loser . that i had friends at school that didnt immediately ditch me and actually care like i do about them i feel like such an idiot all the time

found a photo when i was ~40lbs heavier ... i dont know what to feel

how do you learn to love yourself when yourself looks so ugly

if i lost 7lbs id be much happier in life

the st@rbucks overconsumption cup things keep making me so mad every time i hear about it

my brain feels like its at a full stop . i still have work to do when do i ever stop being busy

my headphones keep trying to fall apart on me . brother hold yourself together

i hate when i get so dizzy when i have work to do please just let me work

how do you stop gaining and losing the same 5lbs

by the time i have time to myself my brain is fried and cant do anything . when does this end just let me out

i hate how much i feel like i need food during my period 🚶

i come back every few days . life is way too busy 🫠

ive had no time to myself and im too tired to do anything but type this and go to bed for tonight

coming home from vacation and if i weigh what i think i do im going to scream

sorry for all the silence for the past few days . lots of sleep deprivation and lots of working .. but i get to go on vacation now the only downside is is that i have to work during vacation too .. 😣

why is 67 on life 360 now ??

i may just go to bed early and fail a few assignments . life doesnt really matter to me anymore

why does it never get better ?

all my classmates have plans today . i will be sitting in my bed working all night because i have so much to do and i have no friends to do anything with . i am reminded how much of a loser i am every year and the pain it brings never dulls

im going to cry this project my groupmate is so stupid i have to fix all of this its taken me hours and i have to rewrite an entire slide

i overindulged today and i really hate that . i will try and not anything tomorrow good night edsky . im super tired tonight

group projects always end bad . why have you literally done nothing are you joking . and where is your sources ??

just got assigned my third project at once . why are they all right now

never solved connections so fast than today

good night edsky . perhaps tomorrow will be a better day

sheep and snails are so wonderful . my favourite animals

so cold in my house jeez

night edsky

weeping . the suffering will never end and im tired of living— not just this way— any way .

heart is pounding and im so nauseous . need to eat but why would i do that house only has binge food that makes me feel worse and too dizzy to get something that will help it hurts

i feel so physically awful . dizzy and my heart racing when does it ever end . its been years living like this

morning . todays connections had me stuck on green for an embarrassing amount of time despite me looking over it and seeing and saying the quote in my head .. also a little mad about purple including starling .. but i do get why its there ! if we have work today , work hard . rest if you need to .

like NO, just bc i post about my symptoms for like minded people to understand and provide support for does not mean im "glamorizing" it or making it out to be something thats nice. if you got any of that from me bitching about how miserable i am then ur INSANE actually, so fuck off thanks

taking a counselling course for credit and they just talked eds . get me out of here

what a friday . what a week cannot believe i still have so much to do during the weekend i dont have the energy to cry about it

staring at the late clock while my eyes burn and i still have work to do

sorry for no posts lately . why is life so busy and tiring just to get nothing in return