sorry i havent been active its . tiring lately

periods are actually evil i was planning on being productive today

have to learn how to bleach my hair because the cost to get it done professionally is something i do not and will not ever have 🧎‍➡️

i finally got my new glasses today . crazy how everybody in my life recommended me tiny lenses in rectangled shape im convinced they wanted me to look so ugly . i got some big lenses with frames this time and i look much better

i need to stop crying and be happier around my online friends . i cant change anything about why i feel sad anyway .

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i have cried every day of the new year . cry every day 2026 💯💯

i wish being alone didnt feel like a death sentence . i also wish that meeting people didnt feel like actually awful either especially when you join school clubs ?? people say to join them and " find your people " but . everyone already knows each other in them and it just feels like an intrusion 💔

fasting is so difficult for me . id rather space out small meals are people who fast regularly busy people .. maybe thats my problem

anyone elses new year feel so depressing

actually getting through your to-do list is a godly feeling

glue is starting to look quite appetizing this quiet night

losing weight feels like an endless cycle of self sabotage trying to get there

did anyone else decide on a full day fast to start the new year off

i hate when ive had so much food and yet the mental panic of " i need food " is still there

i forgot its almost christmas

i hate when my brain suddenly wants me to sit down and do nothing when i am clearly in doing-stuff mode

another absence from this app i got back into fasting in the past few days , though .

the holidays approach and i am yet again reminded of how lonely i am and that i am the last option in every social circle i find myself in

i miss the life app 💔

have to go back to school and i cant sleep . wonderful just fuck my shit up

brain hunger is actually torturous

most healing thing in the universe is garlic bread . and then youre panicking because you actually ate the garlic bread

i hate being short and i hate having boobs i would be less ugly if i was taller and had no boobs

finally finished

dizzy because no food , low iron , or adderall . asking the big questions /j

i may grow my hair out actually .. cant believe it it hasnt been long in . 7 years maybe

woke up and i was freezing . somehow that feels quite lonely and i cant place my finger on why

i hate sitting just wide awake in my bed when im exhausted

i feel like just merely existing is so exhausting

I used to be able to OMAD, WHILE going to school, WHILE going to labs after school, WHILE spending time with friends, WHILE being around family and now I’m just a fat fuck

wish my body wasnt a sensitive baby because my arches are great for ballet .. wasted potential and the high arches are causing me everyday pain anyway

thanksgiving feels so lonely because i forget a lot of people have even semi functioning families that get together for the whole day while i just stare at a computer screen all day . i dont know how to find comfort in being alone

i have done 0 reading today and played a dating sim for 4 hours . nothing can describe how lonely i feel but also how overstimulating my actual family is to be around

i woke up late but i played todays connections , wordle , and strands only the strands was thanksgiving theme

couldnt sleep and proceeded to clean for three hours . still cant sleep

managed to get through the waiting mode feeling somehow and finished my reading for today 8 chapters for tomorrow and then im free 🫠

i hate when i get in waiting mode and cant do anything besides waiting mode trying to read to pass the time but the waiting mode . its there

th4nksg1v1ng is going to be so scary we have pumpkin pie ... fucj

ending the day off at 96.1 .. havent been that low in awhile and thats kind of embarrassing but at least the progress is being made

finally finished my reading for today . only took 5 hours for 7 chapters 🫩

If I didn’t have such a feminine figure my life would be great thanks for coming to my tEDtalk

i feel like such a slow reader because i sit there and i get into a tempo of how dialogue would actually sound instead of speed reading makes me feel so dumb in class 💔

so sour i almost thought it was a granny apple flavour but i kind of taste the fuji somewhere in there . definitely wont be a daily thing because of the 41g of sugar but its a nice treat for a break .. planning to not eat basically anything else today anyway

I miss fasting I miss aching from hunger and feeling lighter on my feet

well i learned that my constant hip and joint pain is likely because of my high arches .. nobody wanted to suggest this before

got the monster bad apple juice to try tomorrow .. i dont usually drink them because the kcal feels like death but . i will try it

took me around 4 hours with breaks to get through like 4-5 chapters in the book i have to read i dont know why i feel so adverse to reading today just cant concentrate

every day i feel even worse and it will never get better . its been almost a decade of having an ed and im not even good at having one

i hate that i actually have to start doing things tomorrow . i want to do nothing on my break actually