the men's restroom in pike place market has a bunch of "XY"s printed in the tiles which is easily one of the funniest possible things you can do to a seattle bathroom. peeing there was transcendent.

they are also not allowed to confuse being scared of the fact that they are or might be a man and that this means that their only chance at happiness involves or might involve flipping their life upside down with manhood being inherently evil anymore

learning that you are not a man and choosing to love yourself by no longer pretending to be one: cool and good learning that you are not a man and deciding that this is because manhood is inherently evil: lolwhat

the official surrogate corpse guide to Music To Fuck To

thinking about the beautiful woman i watched step directly in front of a car (not at a crossing—in the middle of the road) and flip it off

I like how everything will turn out alright in the end

best albums of 2025, 1: 1. Yan Jun & Taku Unami - Old Tales Retold Dudes Rock: the album. Yan Jun and Taku Unami spend three hours trapped in a space, making what sounds they can with their feet, hands, mouths, stomachs (?), with the walls and the floor.

2026: be proud of something

sometimes cishet couples do things with gender that in reality are most likely just them being silly goofy guys having fun but in practice are difficult not to Analyze. my marine friend is dating a navy guy. his fellow navy guy friend got him a shirt that says "Proud Marine Wife" for Christmas

I'm a single-issue voter for giving mothman a gun

5’7” rounds up to 6’ so i’m basically 6’

- hit my one year testostiversary - switched from they/them to he/they to he/him - came out to my extended family - got a divorce - started dating two amazing women - did a drug for the first time - got drunk for the first time - learned how to touch people without being scared - wrote 74 poems

just me and my dick and balls against the world

aaaaAAAAHHHHHH I NEED TOP SURGERY

anyway if you need a poetic treatment on quintuplets in biological taxonomy, pick up yellow dusk by Rose Novick today !

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please incorporate this Truth into your gender essentialism

occasionally reminded of how hungry I am, and how other people can sometimes see that. not sure how to feel about what it might mean to be seen. hungry still. hungry regardless. beautiful to be terrified by wanting.

my *guess* is that part of the media's fascination with "look at these girlish womanly afabs taking T" stories is that one of the most common transphobic narratives about trans men is that we're all girlish womanly afabs taking T

I was gonna type a well thought out response to the "cis women taking T to fuck better" article but instead I'm saying this: common misconception that T make you fuck better because T is the fucking better hormone. T makes you more autistic, and autism makes you fuck better. hope this helps 🥰

if one of your fears of going on T is "no one will be attracted to me anymore," i can assure you that that's not even a little bit true. like at all. like it's almost comical.

They’re contextualizing me

will you be a fucking man and have floor time with me

shoutout to everyone who's been standing in the splash zone while I unabridge myself

paul bunyan is a he/him lesbian

really excited to keep being myself until I am finally healed enough to fall off the bone like a tender potroast

Thank you 👊 for liking Ren 👊 this year too!

desire the seething blood; fear the bounding heart

honking my own beak

being the one (1) openly queer person in a very large extended family is a wild ride b/c statistically speaking I know we got some others in here who could reclaim a slur. but instead of doing that they're pretending to be cishet. 90 y/o uncle who never married should go to a gay bar with me.

every poem I've ever written can be reliably plotted on this graph

man who found 6 chicken feet wrapped with various christmas presents (intended to be gifted to family members with dogs) and took it upon himself to unwrap these presents in the middle of the night and eat the chicken feet (along with wrapping paper) smells 7th chicken foot in his stocking

I fear I like the vaguely fruit flavored unsweetened sparkling water now. I fear this has happened to me.

difficult to be driving past giant trump signs while visiting family in the rural south. difficult to be misgendered more in the past 4 days than I have in the past 4 months. difficult to be told by my brother that he's sad we aren't close anymore. difficult to not know how to explain why we aren't.

Twas the night before dicksmis

whispering affirmations to my dick so it grows more

all pants should be required by law to have pockets and we should all say uplifting things to one another until we pass away peacefully in our sleep from old age

my brother asked if I packed my "transgender insulin" (testosterone) and then asked to see it and then wimped out when I offered to give him an injection. we used to be a proper country.

a santa claus is a type of weasel

I get to see roughly 20 of my ultra conservative appalachian extended family members for the first time since starting T on christmas eve and the plan is just to be obnoxiously exceedingly friendly while they squirm because they're all chronically conflict avoidant 😌

So on I went.

extended my footrest in hopes of acquiring a Footrest Companion and behold

we should all have Discourse about whether or not getting called "boss" means you passed (as male)

trans guy getting a suitcase together for a trip call that a packer

I hope this email finds you enigmatic and unfurled

if you have enough sex with a butch she'll replace your shower head for you. sort of a punch card type situation.

"why is all your music about being an evil man?"

had a dream that I got phallo. probably means nothing.