I didn't manage to sleep last night at all 😓 at least I got a start on my part of the report thing, I'll have to do it all properly later tonight, but I'm thinking I'll nap for a few hours first and then take stimulants and stay up all night

wouldn't it be dope if we weren't addicted to destroying ourselves 🤣😭

I agreed to work on the discussion section of the group report, and I know I could do a good job if I could only get myself to start and be properly focused I think I'll have to just stay up all night tomorrow (it's due at noon on Friday)

I want GAMES made by PEOPLE who are PAID to WORK and I'm not kidding just lowering my expectations in light of recent industry trends don't mind me

can I please stop coughing oh my god 😭 I'm so tired of it no medicine is helping at all, like I was taking opiates and dxm anyway (like even if I wasn't sick I'd still be taking them), at much higher doses than the medicinal ones, but it's still barely suppressing the coughing at all!

I caught a cold at the competition in Galway, so that was over two weeks ago (the 10th-12th) and it's still going on, I still have a cough and feel generally awful like it's mostly just a cough with some mucus and pain/irritation in my throat/airway so mostly just annoying

Terrified to be in charge of myself who let this happen i m going ti get me killed

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upper level manager actually just sent me like a passive aggressive smiley face I think 😭 "I would expect you'd notice if the API response didn't include an expected value :)"

I'm not sure if I'll go to trampolining today I think I should since I don't want to get out of practice, and I think this might be the last week of regular training sessions, but also I think I'm still not fully recovered from the cold I had

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My landlord has recently asked for Benji's up to date shot records, which I need to keep my housing. His appt is on the 6th but I'm having trouble saving with being on SSI. If anyone can help me, I'd be grateful.reciepts will be shared as always . $115 goal C/A $duvaldeviant PayPal.me/904deviant

Seeing all of these damaging things over the past few days has made me feel desperate. Please don’t start doing drugs to lose weight, please, please everyone, it never ends well and it’s effectively a pitch black road you can’t find the end of, it’s a hole to the core of the earth

I forget if I said this already but when I was talking to my therapist again on Friday, one of the things she said was like "it sounds like part of the problem is acting on impulses without resisting them, so try practicing resisting impulses in other contexts"

there's mid-air photos from my synchro routines yesterday, and it's like it does look really cool to see myself doing shapes etc like 3 feet in the air, but also I look awful, especially doing twists 😭 I saved some of the good ones and the bad ones

I'm down 0.2lbs from yesterday but like that's barely anything 😭

I pissed some people off when I said I don't care for most classic girl's literature (Pollyanna, Anne of Green Gables, Rebecca of Sunnybrook Farm), so, since I don't know when to quit, let's dig deeper. I always resented that the girls had to imagine adventure while the boys got to do it.

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Writing “made with real potatoes“ on your bag of potato chips raises more questions than it answers

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I messed up my individual routines well, I remembered all the moves, and my shape jumps were fine, but for both of them, some of my twists didn't get fully around, and so didn't count 😓 so I was scored out of 3 for the first routine and out of 6 for the second

my weight is fluctuating again, I was like 197lbs on Monday and closer to 194 now, but like I said before it's been in this range for months 😭

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I've heard of writers and similar people collecting the rejection letters they get it's not quite the same at all, but I have inadvertently ended up with a collection of all the times I've been told I can't compete in intermediate (it's usually via text and I generally screenshot them)

"wow it's almost like I feel even more unwell than yesterday, as though I got worse somehow, that's weird" *remembers how long and exhausting yesterday was* oh I see 😓

I need to start counting calories again I need to lose weight so bad

i simply find it a little hard to believe that shortly after every website implemented ai code and fired a bunch of engineers they all started breaking constantly every single day but its not related to the ai code or the skeleton crew

for some reason I only get notifications from here on my old phone, not my new one I have the notifications switched on so idk what's going on with that

oh did I mention they put me back down to novice again? after all this time, all the struggling, and I was allowed to sign up for intermediate for the last competition but then didn't even get to do the routine, and now I won't get to!

I feel like I need to be hurt, almost like I'm craving a certain kind of bad feeling? I haven't felt like this in a while, I guess it makes sense though

okay so at the discussion at trampolining, I feel like I got very little information? the club captain was like "this is the information they've given to us, this is all we know, I'm confused too, basically nothing's happening right now but potentially it could, but we don't know"

bluesky: we are pivoting to AI [site catches on fire] bluesky: this was not the fault of AI

Bsky is about as stable as I am right now 🫠

at the gender clinic, I thought I was relatively early but it seems like I will be stuck here for a good few hours 😓 good thing I did come straight from the laser appointment, like if I'd gotten the next bus an hour later, who knows how long I'd be here

the internet is truly the festering cesspool of hell born from modern society but even so, i have nowhere else to turn to coz i have trouble getting out of bed in the morning! i dont want to go out! i dont want to get a proper job! im scared of other people! adults piss me off! and im stupid!

I may never truly be likeable or pretty, but maybe someday I can at least be skinny

maybe I should go to aldi since we need more wet wipes and possibly other things, but on the other hand I am still Sick™ but I don't think my mom is gonna go out either so idk

so my therapist was actually like weirdly trying to find ways to be on my side when I told her everything, she was like "if you were that drunk then maybe you don't have all the information?"

I just realised a while ago I didn't take any opiates basically all day, like the last would've been at 3 or 4am? I guess it was easy not to notice since I already felt like shit anyway, lol

there's literally three different phone numbers for this, like they're all like "to discuss student or education loans, call this number" and they're three completely different numbers all for the same bank 😭

did I already talk about the performance review I had at work? I think probably not since all that's been on my mind is other stuff but so yesterday I finally had the proper meeting with my manager, and he was like so much more lenient than I expected? 😭

okay so the timetable came out for the competition on Saturday and I'm not on it, so that may answer that I'll see for sure tomorrow though since one of the people they said need to talk to me is the competitions officer

I need like some kind of eupthemistic/indirect way to talk about [thing I've mentioned, reason I was removed from the competition] that isn't like giving full details but also doesn't take responsibility away from me or downplay the seriousness, by just saying "the incident", "the events", etc

literally been thinking of possibly making my therapist appointments longer or just more frequent. like idk I'll see how tomorrow goes and depending then I might be like "yeah can we also do this Friday, too?" I can afford it right now anyway

on Saturday night I got a cheeseburger from supermacs, but then just put it in my backpack and never ate it 😭 I found it yesterday though and it seemed basically fine, just dried out

I rescheduled my therapist appointment to be tomorrow, not realizing I had a maths test but also I'm sick anyway and they're pretty nice about just not including the grade for that particular test if you can't attend, so I'll just say I can't attend

I saw a post on tumblr that was like "am I too old to be posting on edblr? I'm 20" and okay to be fair I probably also felt that way about myself back then too, but now 20 just sounds like such a young age to me? 😭