no clue the cals we ate but hopefully we can sleep tonight. it feels weird digesting and i don't like it. but im tired.

think neighbour heard our music on repeat, or the timing is funny cos they're bumping some bass now lol it's 1234

TMI 💩 idk why but a couple hrs ago we randomly and urgently had to shit like 5x within 90 mins. maybe it's cos we chugged water? felt confident enough it wouldn't come up cos we haven't rly been heaving much at all today, which is nice...was happily confused tho. slightly worried but seems over now.

done with the puzzle! will post pic tomorrow...need to clear space before moving and photographing it...rn gonna try to go to bed i think...breath on skin is now only uncomfy, not painful, and idk if it's just cos we're So Tired but laying down isn't completely awful rn. certain scars need help tho.

okay ugh finishing omad then finishing puzzle.

B got us a bunch of food today at gregor's request which is like...super nice...but now we're...eating.

we've been in major power saving mode today hence the silence. we might finish this 513 pc puzzle tonight which would i think set a personal record of 3 days.

we're fine unless we move or touch anything or breathe

tw//numbers . . . dude im so fucking confused lmao so with our pb mistake last week we got up to 51.35 - we checked on the 21st. was just curious today thinking it'd be similar. nope. 49.5. im apparently so bloated still, idk wtf is happening but i was so fuckin happy to see it start with a 4 again!

i don't think we'd ever be able to perform beIIydance (not that we're even good at it lmao) it just makes us burp SO much, like it's wild how much air leaves our body when we do this. it's FANTASTIC. im annoyed my clothes still hurt, it's still like sandpaper but maybe like half the grit

guess we're gonna try to do PT. was gonna take shower but as was brushing hair someone else jumped in 🙃 let's hope we still have the drive later cos it took a lot to even decide we could try. my hair still feels sharp against skin but now spiders have pizza cutter roller blades instead of ice skates

we have upgraded from being hot and cold at the same time to switching between them so that's fun

tmi kinda gross maybe idk 😂 idk if it's just this shirt material or something but i smell like my arm did when a burn was borderline infected lolol is it bad that i think it smells kinda good? (burn was over a decade ago and this shirt was a common one for us to wear then, we rarely wear it now tho)

Y'ALL. we figured out how to deal with caterpillar blanket!! when the happy bass music plays then we just imagine the caterpillars are dancing on the sound waves. still not great but Better. like, we did Not expect to sleep multiple hours. we're still on fire but at least we kept more ga+°®ad€ down.

i know we're in pain when we wake up in Exactly the same position as we went to sleep lol the oiI in my pen was still level 😆 also we noticed like 5 mins after getting into sleeping position that the cup on the shelf was hanging off a tiny bit but because it had taken literal hours to get "comfy" we

GOOD NEWS today at work we got called "my good sir" lmao guess that's one benefit to not having met the person we were chatting with, and work lets me use my preferred masc name so anyone behind the screen *assumes* 😎

it's stupid that i already feel so much more than everyone else i know, but suddenly when im sick (with anything rly but Esp ¢°v) or sleep deprived or dehydrated we feel Everything EVEN MORE it's kinda nuts how it can be amplified this fuckin much okay sry we've been s¶amming the tl so much

crazy how this house is so small and yet when everyone's in their room nobody can hear me or my music so i can workout sing breakdown whatever and it's GREAT. neighbour at old apt would blare the bass and drive me nuts cos i couldn't hear anything else but ppl here said they can't hear Anything so 🎉

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beIIydancing in super slow mo is actually helping a bit FUCK YES my gut feels super extra weird now tho ig that's what i get for not doing PT properly for a day or three 😬

i feel like i'd be great at posing for art cIass rn cos it fuckin hurts to move lmao in my room doing the fuckin mann€qu¡n challenge cos we had to change shirts like 7 times before realising we don't have a good shirt for this and settled for the 2nd one we tried 😭 big meltdown but had to get out of

ooh just realised since we won't be driving prob til Mon or later we could just fast til then. stomach might make us anyway lol having trouble just keeping this ga+°®ad€ down

if i could stop breathing on myself that'd be fuckin great

so we use old pb jars to put trash in before throwing them away (yes ik better to ®€¢¥¢£€ but we don't have the energy to clean them as required, so using less trash bags is next best) and unscrewing the cap to throw away a tissue caused us to cry LMFAO I HATE THIS SHIT can someone come sh°°+ me pls

gonna attempt to do any stretches that aren't utterly hellish idk what to do im in such a jam rn fuck

sound waves feel so much better than the dehumidifier fan

listening to horror 🎶 in other languages cos the bass is surprisingly helpful but been listening to lots of music today and brain tired and now we just need Neat Noise

guess we're fasting today 😎 wouldn't it be funny if ¢°v¡d gave me my gw

desperately need a shower but that would prob feel like when we went to niagara and there was a portion of the walkway thingy that went under one of the falls...went as far under it as we could stand, but it felt like nails and actually ripped our poncho lol i feel like a shower would remove my skin

what if i just...relapsed? then THAT pain could distract me instead...right? (no plans to it's just sounding really good cos im rly fuckin losin it over here)

I NEED ANTl GRAVlTY

can't even do most of the PT stuff it's just too much but also so is not doing it omfg im going insane how do i Pause i need to fucking BREATHE

can't stop shaking how TF are we still cold and hot

just tried to lay down and WAY too much sensory input holey shit what the fuck are we gonna do my back is so fuckin tired and im sick of heaving for nothing we're def skipping meds tonight (not dangerous dw)

if we never had to drive anywhere we could prob get back to lw, but we have definitely gathered enough data to know we can't do that if we're gonna be confident about avoiding accidents (due to dizzy/fasting fog/etc.)...dear 14.6 i miss youuu

Multiple being the key word.

I miss it

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worked 9 hrs rather than the normal 5 cos keeping busy and sitting in the same position helped distract us from some things but now idk what to do everything is driving me absolutely nuts every time my clothes touch me it burns im not hungry been spitting up all day but there's nothing fucking there

nothing like the irony of The New Nameless Little being afraid of puking, as if we weren't bulimic for over a decade WTF

need an antigravity room so we can exist without touching anything at all omfg i need to jump out of this skin.

can't stand feeling my hair when it's down it feels like spiders wearing ice skates but my scalp is so tense

apparently we threw up a little last night so that's fun

homesick and missing friends so much. RIP C, A, L, T, B, B, M, E, R, R, F, G, and G. holey shit my heart is swiss cheese.

at the "laughing manically" stage of "my skin is on fire"

hm...something tells me having random red spots sporadically pop into vision is...not great?? lol we're fiine it's fiiine...

gonna stop pacing and start doing nerve gIides. or anything really to make existence more tolerable. room is kinda dark cos of rain, and the darkness-triggered PTSD isn't acting up which is nice. maybe we can finally rest eyes. maybe we can nap. gonna leave food situation in denial for another day 😇

loved that part of homeschooling included making dinner. mum had excellent recipes and we were damn good at it but they were usually pretty complex, prob why she recruited us kids to help lol but it's annoying now to know i Can be GREAT in the kitchen but chronic health and trauma has made us Simple

it's been grey all day and now it is finally beginning to rain 💧