I hate when a guy asks if he can suck me off. Buddy, I don't even let women suck me off

Italicus my beloved

oh, did you finally get comfortable? did you finally think you could get some rest and have a little fun? you stupid bitch? whiny-ass ho? did you have trouble tanking the agony of 20+ years of unlife straight into years of misery and crisis, you fucking baby?

i am so fucking sick of every space i go to collapsing around my ears or throwing me away. i just fucking want to find my people and stay with them. is that too fucking much to ask? am i the problem?

had a dream where i was fully conscious for my orchiectomy, which was strangely totally fine, but they found out my insurance wasn't going to pay for it because the authorization fell through, so they reattached the testes like some kind of reverse repossession. i was absolutely fuming.

AI art seeks to remove humanity from art not just by removing the human touch but by removing anyone who might have human objections to creating it, featuring in it, or delivering its message. what better boon to rapacious fascists than a painter, an actor, a writer that never says no.

not loving having to avoid a specific street corner near my apartment because the owner of a restaurant there will always hit on me if he's ever on the patio

Or lets say actually it's synecdoche for political resistance—since when is indulging in flowchart mockery and contempt for meaningless and inert objects political resistance? every fascist behavior starts with a comfortable and playful hatred which then justifies hatred against those who take issue

being racist to the machines (ironically or not) somewhat ironically empersons them. direct your anger somewhere more productive if they're so inanimate.

getting bottom surgery mostly because having to clean out for anal sucks so hard

someone is having a real basic bitch Pabst Blue Ribbon party on our apartment roof and i think whoever is in charge of the music just looked up "2010 pop hits to play in Sharper Image" on Spotify. a real tour de force of music nobody liked the first time that got played on the radio for 15 years

"can we circle back on this" i ask the doctor who's going to be removing my balls

rise and grind types have no interiority and thusly are most at peace when fully and utterly occupied. which would be fine if they didn't insist on forcing this bullshit on everyone else with a human soul.

i'm going to throw up and die i think

looks like that Windows 7 Ultimate license i splurged on in 2010 is going to pay some dividends

a lot of you would benefit from being in international corporate work or politics. you really have no idea what's going on in the heads of CEOs or Senators and it shows in the way you talk about them and to them, in the sense that you don't internalize how pathetic you and your concerns are to them.

reminding trans people to not fucking talk to cops, or the cop-ensouled. meaning: do not talk to doctors, nurses, mandatory reporters. do not talk to any journalists, researchers, or research institutions that have not been thoroughly, publicly vetted.

just think, you could grind like me, make some inroads, play your cards right, and have it all (a mediocre salary for a 45-80 hour a week job, no social life, and extreme levels of suicide ideation for 4-8 months of the year)

heartbreaking: the gambeson you wanted is out of stock and now you will never don your armor as a proper knightess

“I’m strong and I want to have like fifty kids and a farm” of course you do. You’re twelve. “I don’t want to eat vegetables I think steak and French fries is the only meal” hell yeah homie you’re twelve. “Maybe if there’s crime we should just send the army” bless your heart my twelve year old buddy

i DEEPLY hate the term. it's patronizing, it's a stupid euphemism, it plays into the transphobic notion that cis people are humoring us, it's epistemological oppression to avoid saying the word trans, 90% of the shit cis people do isn't called "gender affirming", etc it's fucking trans healthcare.

I hate that trans people have to continually relitigate the “poll-friendliness” of their existence. Even if you buy the idea that Trump won because of anti-trans messaging, the Kamala they/them ad would have been worthless if she had a more substantive message than “hey at least I’m not those guys”

setting "overworked and underfucked" as my Teams status message as an informal letter of resignation

i can't tell if i'm actually physically ill or just severely psychosomatically so, but severe headaches and the urge to vomit haven't left me for weeks now

one of the through-lines of this administration is that it is ideologically pro-rape

The endgame for all of this is constructing a military that will obey orders when ordered to fire on citizens. That's the throughline to half of what Trump is doing.

yeah, this is hegseth straightforwardly announcing that it is free play time for bigots in the ranks. and together with his comments on standards, he clearly wants to purge as many women, black and brown people as he can from the armed services. a white man's military.

"you've spent a really long time and a lot of money getting your skin to look even half as good as it does" is currently the only sentiment standing between me and carving crude and crooked trenches in my face with my fingernails from the unbelievable stress of managing 15 different clients at work

self serving horseshit woe is me pity posting hours. who cares.

call me old yeller the way I'm a fucking dog and I want someone to shoot a hot load in me

People talk about Mary's little lamb like it's hot shit as if the Argonauts hadn't absolutely crushed the fleece game over two millennia ago

"Between Scylla and Charybdis" is an idiom derived from the eponymous mythological sea monsters that terrorized opposite sides of the Strait of Messina. Colloquially, it means one is being Eiffel Tower'd by two hot monster ladies.

cis people don’t understand trans people have been living with a gun to our head for nine months and every so often the guy holding it yells BANG and we’re expected to go on as normal

cis folks don't really, *truly* grasp how this ever-present specter affects our ability to do other things i've tried explaining to my mgr at work how it's difficult to focus when i'm constantly planning my escape and the reaction i mostly get is "well, don't follow the news" GEE, I WISH I COULD 🙃

time to get out of Ohio i guess

If Democrats cave on this, I will never, ever, ever, ever vote for them ever again. Ever.

the cool thing about growing up with little else but trauma is that I am functionally immune to nostalgia-bait about "a better time." the 90s and 2000s blew ass for me! i don't want to revisit it just because they had Dexter's Lab on TV or whatever the fuck!

my milkshake brings all the boys to riyadh

So considering he reposted that AI medbed thing last night there's a nonzero chance his own advisors have been showing him AI Fox News clips in the oval office and he thinks they're real

i'm just saying that China has the opportunity to do something really funny at Quantico next week

ultimately the way this world treats trans women as utterly disposable even despite so often sounding the alarm early for abuse done, and people not listening or mocking it, is why my politics are so concerned with their wellbeing and political subjectivity

i would not choose to be a cis woman but i would choose to be an even hotter trans woman

good god girl

busy season and also depression, so i'm in low-posting mode for now. not dead, though.

Can I get uuuuuuuuuuuu

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every day is a ne w opportunity to get so anxious that you throw up

the potion seller is hondosing me

Too late, Batman. Once this Tylenol floods the city's water supply, my wiki won't run out of editors ever again