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at least the denial was fast as fuck i guess so i didnt have to get my hopes up

nvm on the top surgery thing LOL wow they got back to me almost immediately to say they've actually discontinued offering it AT ALL going forward and will not offer surgeries for any trans procedures so i missed my window i guess. i cannot physically get to any other surgeons, so. yay.

the estranged parents article making the rounds is so bad for obvious reasons, is this like lowkey a form of rage-marketing for that outlet or does that journalist really just not have a brain

dude so like when they went in thru my bellybutton to do surgery they had to reseal it on the way out so my bellybutton is all different than it used to be. could they have just removed it instead? i wouldnt want that but was keeping it bellybuttonlike a stylistic choice or a practical one.

im thinking about the parental estrangement forums and shit and it feels like such a natural thing to come from a culture that doesn't see children as full human beings with agency, to extend the status of problem child past the age of majority and allow publishing and media to be complicit in abuse

Another Relativo-Whorfist errandrunner in the pocket of Big Lang trying to trick me into disclosing my beautiful horde of linguistic secrets! I can see em coming a mile away. By the time you read this, I’ll have burned all my electronics & clothes and be halfway to my safehouse. Won’t b taken alive!

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Imagine if just once a story like this actually bothered to like, actually understand why some people work to be estranged from abusive families. Instead no, we're just dunking on folks like me. I'm a domestic abuse survivor and lemme say with my full chest: Fuck reporting like this.

"this post is giving reddit" "you're posting tumblrslop" "this is discord cringe" god forbid anyone surf the web

i wish i could talk to my irl friends about how deeply fucked the ptsd left me without it being oversharing. like genuinely will anyone i befriend ever again actually Know Me or am i going to have to just pretend to be normal for the rest of my life

anyway i habitually scroll ftm vent spaces to try to offer words of support to people and i ended up seeing a guy whose life story is almost identical to mine and thats genuinely The First Time Ive Ever Seen That and it has me feeling kind of fucked up. idk. im fine but Damn.

sorry i excessively trans post here and then delete it afterwards. i just dont really feel like i can talk about it anywhere else lol. i feel like im at the point where people expect me to be ""over it"" (as if you can just... Do That after losing half of your life thus far to transphobia) and it's

i don't think reality is going to survive it's merging with the astral realm of online

you tell someone not to download the free wizard game and they immediately start posting like sephiroth

Hey Millennials, you should congratulate Gen Alpha on their first successful kill

dude. last night i had a dream one of my teenage siblings came out as trans, and that my dad was similarly shitty about it, so i kicked his ass. and then i encountered him again later in the dream and kicked his ass a second time.

doing this to startle my cat

trying to feel inspired again, flipping through the spirited away concept art book. these never get old.

the extended bot-tan responses always catch me so off guard

when i was like 9 i saw some conspiracy shit about technology causing infertility so i started piling as many running electronics on my stomach as i could for extended periods of time for a couple years. so like, it cracks me up that i DID end up infertile for unrelated reasons.

im like a premature release of the consequences of millennial parenting

hot tub garden soon............

Cannot believe I saw this irl

Socialization theory has been so utterly mangled that people don't fundamentally understanding it's not Girl or Boy Programming, it's absorbing the dominant cultural values we grow up with. If you grow up in a patriarchal society, you are socialized patriarchal.

If "female socialization" is your shorthand for being treated like whipped dogs who never learn to act right, that is something that applies to queer kids pretty intensely! Heck, call it "queer socialization". The universial experience of society attempting to beat us into the closet or the grave.

holy fucking shit, a vacant unit diagonal from us had a hot water pipe burst yesterday (? or overnight) and they didnt notice until this morning. hot water was coming out under the front door. they opened the door and it's so steamy it looks like a sauna. dude. what the FUCK do you even do.

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as its relevant again today, from what im seeing it seems like most people are still convinced tyler was right wing...? i wonder what's going to happen when that inevitably is shown to not be the case.

i have a mini candle advent calendar and yesterday's candle was... milk scented....

how to stop worrying about job while taking time off

not only would this not facilitate communication with my dead nana, it would slowly rewire the way my brain engages with my memories of her, destroying both the peace she believed in & my real actual connection to her. you may as well take a front-end loader to her gravesite

scary meeting in 5 minutes and then 4 day weekend..... i must endure.....

every website has absolutely deranged trans discourse going on rn and it's all wildly different. like. i know this shit waxes and wanes naturally, but what the helllllll is up

someone asked in the city sub if the hot tub garden is any good and every comment is just "yes it's awesome. i love sucking and fucking there. 10/10. don't worry about the cum, the cleaning chemicals get it". real. anyway they had a sale on gift cards so guess what i'm doing for my day off.

what if you blame yourself for everything because that at least gives you the illusion of control over it?

received permission to resolve like 60 tasks i've had pending for literal months

Turn on the TV. Doesn’t matter what channel.

the reason the kamala is for they/them ads worked so well isn't because the average person actively hates trans people, but because transition is seen as a privileged luxury, despite the increased rates of poverty and unemployment that we face as a result of our transness

when i started my prev position i told my boss i wanted to be a training coordinator someday & she was like "omg youre gonna LOVE talking to the one we have rn" so then i met her and as soon as we were alone she asked if i had a dick and then started talking at length about her phobic relatives

i hoard my pto and then december hits and i remember half of it expires eoy and im forced to fuck my schedule up to cram as much of it in as i can

no idea

some significant part of this is just catch-all fear for “this is not the child I ordered” I think

nothing to lose because the legs are fucked so im sitting under a solid red light im going to color it and then see what ive done afterwards

almost accidentally included my naked ass legs in that sketch photo. bro.

drawing in the dark in the living room. trying to line it w marker to stop caring about mistakes but ouuuuuuuuuugh i fucked up the legs so bad