really thought that moving out of the country would stop the nightmares about my family showing up at my house and it did, but now i just have much more bizarre dreams involving my family and childhood it’s honestly worse?

If you're confused about exactly how decentralised/decentralisable Bluesky is and what that means, here's a great not-too-long-or-intense article about it (it's not decentralised) azhdarchid.com/delusions-of...

✨ just been me for like two weeks basically it’s getting old, hate singletmoding

i can order hormones on uber eats with no prescription now i love it so much

cacique guaro 👍🏻

the thing about homophobia is that only the dolls know how to do it RIGHT !

FUNNEL. A BUTT FUNNEL. A BUTT FUNNEL. JON TAFFER FROM BAR RESCUE SO BAD BUT THERES NO PLACE TO DO DRUGS BECAUSE IM TRYING TO LOOK HOT THERE ARE RAN THROUGH MEN WHO TAKE GOOD SELFIES BC WOMEN HAVE TAUGHT THEM THINGS

a girl who is sometimes a boy who has neither a penis or a vagina hi

people I fuck posting online like

got our first parking ticket 🤭 it was $19 and easily paid via an app, could be worse hah

✨ i’ve run my head into this shelf in our apartment three times and it’s been less than 24 hours help white on white decor is going to kill me literally

✨ tentatively back, no longer in the united states thank fucking god

most likely going back to posting on my website primarily, and i backed up all my bluesky posts there also: skylar.cc/notes/

the fact that a human being was paid to copy and paste this into an email to scold her is exceedingly hilarious, can’t lie

i miss ethan so much

a major downside of basically losing my plurality for the moment is that i am unmotivated to work on the system tracking app i was daily driving not to mention one of the others enjoyed development work more than me. i'd rather read or write things. but it was really getting good! bummer.

just did an estrogen injection thinking it was shot day and i did one on sunday… whoops this’ll be fun 🙃

i’ve managed to get sucked into a novel for the first time in years (i’m generally a nonfiction girlie) and it’s nice to know my ability to visualize environments i read about in detail hasn’t gone away. it’s like a whole ass movie in my head still

sort of wild that i just convinced the other alters to go away and they did? like i haven’t switched in 2 days? it feels so fucking weird? mental health fixed?

anthropic scraping libgen is a billion dollar industry taking advantage of a public good for personal gain. if some dipshit puts an entire library book through a copier and sells printouts, it is the dipshit you get mad at. not the library for giving him the book.

oh you mean trueshit therian vs furcel suitmoder

i’ve changed a lot about how i’m looking at my plurality, and figured it best to elaborate for y’all’s sake:

it’s actually super cool to get sick like two weeks before i move that won’t be inconvenient for me at all 🙃

i'd rather set my internal world on fire than continue to exist in an external one that has no room for who i really am

cut my balls off to spite my parents

you’re welcome 🤭

"Gender and sex are two different things, but transgender and transsexual is the same thing" is the worst brainrot.

⚫️ so afraid of being perceived as a detransitioner if i take our presentation too masculine, don’t really know what to do about it other than try to explain the nuances of our experience bleh

⚫️ people who are too scared to self-actualize blaming it on those who have the gall to do so, what else is new

✨ omg a friend from our outpatient program is in our DBT group this is so lovelyy i am so excited to go turn off my brain with some reality television though

⚫️ my gender keeps circling around to "muscle femboy" and i am scared and excited by this

⚫️ who the fuck let us schedule two hours of therapy, an hour with our psychiatrist, and an hour of DBT group in the same day we are so tireddddd

⚫️ been wearing my binder more lately and feeling good about myself 🥰

✨ TRANSPHOBIC I KNOW THATS RIGHT 😤

iPadOS: floating windows with a menu bar, full keyboard and trackpad support, literally running on a M3 also iPadOS: cannot play a TV show and a video on Bluesky at the same time

✨ "i wanna come over and play dress up together" i just look like a woman all the time actually on account of being one, thanks

Subbing is an art form and I’m Jackson Pollock

⚫️ help our tiktok for you page has decided we have bpd now apparently

satellite. miniature gouache painting on paper

⚫️ spent the day ignoring social media and building a lil place to track what books we're reading, have read, and want to read – with ratings and optional reviews! we don't have all our physical books with us so we can't add all of them, but added the hits. take a look: skylar.cc/books/

i don't care if your lines end in CRLF or LF love is love

✨ what if i was just like, not debilitatingly mentally ill that would be so cool actually

✨ we've spent so much time working on an iOS/macOS app and are this close to scrapping it and building a PWA instead because holy FUCK is CloudKit a pain in the fucking ass and if I'm using something else for encrypted storage I may as well make it cross-platform at that point

✨ out of curiosity fed some of our recent journal entries into an "ai detector" and most of them said 0% but one of them said 40% AI written, and nope, those were just our words lol

✨ thinking about the cis woman who asked me if i'd had a tracheal shave because she couldn't see an adam's apple lmao

✨ i was forced to transition because i’m too good at shopping on instacart and doordash and we all know men aren’t capable of that

I think my discomfort comes from the way the discourse is at the expense of the people involved, instead of being directed at the societal conditions that push them toward feeling like AI is their only hope for companionship, in the same way we shouldn't attack drug addicts when society fails them

Happy Saturday 🥰

✨ apropos of nothing, we really don't have a clitoris