don't yell at me for walking on the eggshells you placed in this house

dont even have 35 dollars for my first infusion but at least there's snow out :))

still here, just in a meh relationship with technology rn

thinking about the random off color comment the gi doctor made me starting testosterone 5 years ago might be related to my chrons that I started experiencing this past year yes YES because that makes sense. that makes soo much sense. who knew testosterone gave you different dna 🥰

I got a chrons diagnosis lame

in the mental place where everytime I feel bad about being fat I want to eat more food I hate it when this shit happens, I should have known it would control yourself control yourself con trol

got to meet and pet a cat :> that was pretty cool

thanks for fucking with my head, come again soon!

fighting the urges

some of my moots post the most beautiful pics of food, and my dinner tonight is laughable: taco meat eaten by the spoonful with a few hot cheetos eaten as a chaser 😂

re-reading my old d@nny phantøm fanfic from when i was 16 like "ok ok i like it picasso" i didn't remember my comment responses 😂 or what i wrote, so that was a trip to go through if anyone wants to see into the mind of a mentally ill t33n, lmk and i'll send the link lol

we're all fractals of each other everything that exists is a piece of each other and a piece of itself, everything is reflected within itself and each other magnified, microscopic everything reflects and echoes on a scale unimaginable

I used to cut my ankles when I was a kid and I'm trying not to go do it

you're an angel, i'm a dog.

Me watching people call me

things to do to help me get back in a starving mood for winter: -watch ssvsss and other shows -read my stockpile of ed books I've had downloaded -gather more winter spo -listen to holiday music and think of a time that wasn't real

I fucking got back to 200lbs. I was 188 and now I'm 200. God I'm fucking fat fat fat I got too comfortable again Get your head back in the fucking game man

i keep forgetting i pierced my own ear today i dont remember why i did it

oh i hate candy i need to practice some self control fr

found so many cool vintage cameras that I was thinking my brother would like for Christmas,, and then I remember nothing I do for him is ever good enough

just because you are soft doesn't mean you are not a force. honey and wildfire are both the color gold.

i binge ate so much i gained ten pounds this past week i hate myself, ive felt sick and awful

been having too much fashion fun in pokez 🥺

I need an entire lifetime of being 9 years old or i will never recover

okay so its either the flu or my appendix, he told me to keep a close eye on a pain spoy and go to the ER if it gets really bad

seems like everyone is sick rn 😢 i'm at the doctor rn because my wife made me go, i get pizza after if im good

we have multiple ghosts in the home and normally we hang out and listen to music or just exist together in the early morning but today I really can feel I'm not alone!! I walked downstairs and it was like a blast of energy, I love my little ghost dorks

happy hallows eve everyone :))

dear lord EC accepted my message request and I'm like actually in shock ig, I just wanted her to know that I hope she's doing okay and I'm really like o.o holy cannoli?

im so stupid, my mom said i should go to a doctor but i still just want my wife to care and say she thinks i should go too

i'm pretty sure i'm worthless if i can't be of service

anyway here's our pumpkins

why aren't any adults helping me?

if my parents dgaf about me being sick as a kid then i shouldn't gaf now, shut the fuck up you loser ass bitch other people are sick all the tine and have it way worse stupid annoying whore cunt

i have pelvic diastasis and it makes it hard to walk rn, AND i just woke up sick as fuck can't breathe chest hurts so bad and coughing hard start of the third day now feeling lung sick and i keep crying without realizing it

local state national continental international solar-system galactic universal news all of its bad

got the most awesome couch and seat that someone just threw into the dumpster!! wife and I got it out and cleaned it real good and now our house actually looks like it has a real living room :)))

do any moots have to take 9mg of budesonide daily for your stomach to function normally? I've been on it now for two months because it's the only thing that makes my poo and stomach okay My gastroenterologist after an almost year of testing is p sure I have early UC or Chrons

"I can't imagine being so afraid of my own mother that I hide from her!" Sorry to tell you this, but growing up terrified of your parents and hiding under the bed and tryong to blockade the door is quite normal for some children!! Like me :)

If you are a victim, it's ok to feel angry rather than guilty and ashamed.

Are you still trying to gain the respect of your abusers? Do you try to side with your abusers as a tactic to avoid being abused?

I need lobotomized or fucking hung I don't wanna remember things anymore

So when you met the new you... were you scared? Were you cold? Were you kind? Yeah, when you met the new you... Did someone die inside?

having emetophobia is fucking awful, especially when I'm trying to clean up my sick tummy stuff

my uncle got through his surgery safely :))) praise all that is kind and good, thank you creator 💗🎉💗