i always bounced back, but this time whoever lost me would lose me forever. no coming back, no turning back, just moving forward.

you will find me when you return, even if you're a thousand years late.

can't you hear me? i’m not coming home.

I do my best not to trust people too much, not to love anyone, and not to expect anything. At the same time, I do my best not to cause any conflicts, not to put on airs, and not to stand out.

i fell in love with icarus' storyline. i fell in love with wings and wax and skies above. he loved the sun and wished to fly; he plummeted, but first he tried. i fell in love.

I’m the only one who can bear the full brunt of your hate! It’s my job, no one else’s.

i can't abandon the person i used to be, so i carry her.

naps don't fix this type of tired anymore

You do know I'm aware that this is all a game, right?

Before I say goodbye, my star in the sky ... Such a funny thought, to wrap you up in cloth, do you find it all right, my dragonfly?

will this little seed of loneliness i’ve carried with me since i was 6 years old ever go away

sometimes i feel like the boy who cried wolf but i didnt lie

I’m this close to falling off the deep end. I know I’m smiling right now, but the light inside me is dying

All the days you spent with me Now seem so far away And it feels like you don't care anymore

But people have stopped loving you before, haven't they. Forgotten you. Left you behind. Consider this: You can't be left behind... If you go first.

i am angry. i am unlovable. i am mostly scared these things are true.

i began to forget myself in the middle of sentences.

I hate that I give you power over that kinda stuff

and they called it puppy love. just because we're... we're 17

i knew i loved you from the first day i saw you, my Morningstar.

but try to measure loss. measure the silence of a house, the unheard footsteps at the doorway, the unemployment of the mouth. the waking up, having forgotten and remembering again the full extent of what forever is. with each grave, i think of loss and i can only think of you

mine's a big wish, you know ? if i could manage with effort, i'd do anything for us.

He was only twelve, but he looked much older and sadder.

Sometimes I stand and everything goes black, and the static in my head gets louder and louder. . .

I've been pulling you close but pushing me further I've been holding it back that I see you different Sick of me reminding you To love me like you say you do

And I don't wanna cry But I need you here 'cause I'm a mess

You can leave. I’ll remember you. I remember everyone that leaves.

Though the spring will come with time I have lost this love of mine If it all just ends today I think I will be okay

ill call it a year. ill make myself disappear.

If you really wanted I could let you inside

He never spoke of his father to her, ever, unless it was two hours past midnight and he’d forgotten himself entirely, so tired that all the history between them settled into uneasy slumber. That it could slumber at all, and so regularly, still astounded him.

i do not know if i will ever forget. i do not know if i want to. i am every age i have ever been. all time ever does is pass and all i ever do is remember. there are days i do not recognise myself in old pictures. there are times i feel like my stopped at eighteen.

I am searching for a phrase that will release everything that is pent up inside of me.

I haven't been myself lately. I don't blame you for not wanting to stay.

abuse can feel like love ; starved people will eat anything.

my mind turns your life into folklore

I made changes that went unnoticed

it's alright to tell me / what you think about me / i won't try to argue / or hold it against you / i know that your leaving / you must have your reasons

Tell me, if I'm so important to you Then why am I so easily replaced?

well, i go on without you now, but you kept me alive

You've done nothing but make everything worse

I'm just really fucking selfish and really fucking lost

How do I know you won't leave me as well? How do I know these words are not just a one-time thing?

ill call it a year. ill make myself disappear.

maybe love is always in the wrong time zone, maybe love is not ready for you. maybe you are not ready for love. maybe love just isn’t the marrying type. maybe love is only there for a month. maybe love stays. maybe love can’t. maybe love shouldn’t.

and the universe said everything you need is within you

You are all the things that are wrong with you

everyone thinks they can help me, but they can't. they're better off without me. i made my choices and i'll deal with the consequences because they belong to me.

from “baby” to “blocked account” : a BPD story