dear happiness, the last time i saw you, i was 13 years old with innocence still fresh in my eyes if you get this letter could you pay me another visit? please? just one last time.

now it's three in the morning and i'm tryin' to change your mind

stop why are you leaving why why why why why you promsied. YOU PROMISED.

i cannot explain how many times a day i swallow my anger and keep it to myself

well, i go on without you now, but you kept me alive

Saying how you'd be there always and forever, until the very end

i'll say i'm happy for you then i'll cry myself to sleep

I've spent my whole life afraid It's time for me to be brave

i didn’t save you because it was the logical thing to do. in the end, it was a selfish, emotional decision. but that’s okay. i'm not a hero, so i've never once regretted saving you. not even for a moment.

god, god, what do i do after all this survival?

how do we forgive ourselves for all the things we did not become?

I can't imagine how you were just a sad kid.

Can I try again, try again, try again?

if it's all in my head tell me now

Please don't say you love me / 胸がはち切れそうで

I know I've annoyed you with my anxiety, but now, all that I ask of you is your presence. I need someone to talk to, a way to organize my thoughts...

To touch someone is to risk pain, to risk rejection, be it your own or that of another. It is a bridge you walk together, swaying above an abyss of fear. To hold each other's hands is to have balance. Yet it also means having their weight with you, should there be a sudden fall.

wait for me? i will.

i don't like change. when your life changes, it gets harder to love living. and when people change, it gets harder to love them.

there was nothing clever to say, so i said something foolish

i know my room is a mess, over and over again i tell myself i'll clean tomorrow

let’s embrace each other， even if we are doomed.

someday, i will have my own place. my world won't be confined to my room. i will stumble sleepily through my house in the morning, opening the blinds. i will sit out in the backyard and look at the stars. i will go out whenever i want to. i will survive long enough to have that.

I'll love you always. I'll love you in the rain and in the snow and in the hail and — what else is there? I don't know. I guess I'm sleepy. Go to sleep, darling, and I'll love you no matter how it is.

if you're the sun， i don't wanna be the moon. the moon's too far away from you， i'd rather envelop you in the bluest of skies.

i remember thinking if only someone would hold me, i would be saved. it did not occur to me to wrap my arms around my own body.

why are you giving up on me?

i burned so long, so quiet; you must have wondered if i loved you back. i did, i did, i do.

But I feel like you don't need me When I feel like you don't need me Then I feel like you don't see me And my life has no meaning, drain me

i'm holding my breath with a baseball bat though i don't know what i'm waiting for.

i am the soft stars that shine at night

healing from someone I once thought I would heal with.

standing quietly by the window， still hungry for i don’t know what.

And I’m sorry I left, but it was for the best, though it never felt right.

breakdowns don't necessarily mean crying. most of the time it's you blankly staring somewhere and not having the energy to continue doing whatever it is you're doing

but the thing is, even if i could go back, i wouldn't belong there anymore

the time will pass anyway but i would prefer to pass it with you

Hey, don’t make that face. I get it.

I'll do anything for love

Isn’t that enough for you?

so much of life is submitting to change and saying goodbye even if you don’t want to

Don't know if you hear me or not, but if you're still watchin', why?

And all I loved, I loved alone.

you can think that you're in love, when you're really just in pain

my sadness is not a cut for you to bandage and it is not a bruise for you to kiss. i am not waiting for you to save me， i am hoping you will love me while i rescue myself.

Sick of me reminding you To love me like you say you do