i feel my bf pulling away from me. being apart has been so bad for my mh and that makes me want to use but using causes problems in my relationship. he genuinely said if i continue he’d have to revaluate the relationship. he got me on that shit i hadn’t touched it in like 5 years ??

i took 10 tramadol 12 valium and an ekvanse and i feel nothing….

so in my forever save my main focus was on the faulkner family primarily the teen daughter rosie who got into a relationship w cassandra goth bsky.app/profile/bord...

i just built a huge villa it had everything you could possibly need for a honeymoon bc im about to throw a wedding & the game crashed & i didn’t save any of it & it was DONE 🧍🏻

i want my bf 😠

in my forever save cassandra goth (i gave her a makeover but kept her features & glasses) is dating one of my sims (rosie) & they’re so cute together we got some beautiful goth on goth action going on here

i got this sudden urge to count my elvanse even though i’ve been really good this month and i run out of pills like at least 10 days before my prescription is due

one day i am gonna grow wings

when u have to snort your gear with a post it note yet *again* because all your money went on drugs

i just fucking love drugs man all drugs any drugs i’ll fucking take them

taking ALL my strength not to take tramadol and get high but then i won’t have any indefinitely

no longer an anal virgin and i got it on camera my dudes. i have hella footage from tonight its going to be fun going through it when we’re done

i had to pretend i’d broken up w my bf earlier when i text a dealer he owes money too, i walked to the bar to meet him, he drove me to the ATM and then back to the bar, he gave me the ❄️ but then he drove me home and outside he offered me a little line?? he must have liked my dress sdksksk

i love wearing a lead

the blinds are drawn, underneath my dressing gown is a white corset, non existing panties and white fishnet stockings. theres very easy access to a ball gag, a couple different types of rope, nipple clamps, a few dildos, a vibrato, wrist & ankle cuffs, two floggers. this should be interesting👀

i see my bf tomorrow!! & he’s sleeping over!! & we have the house to ourselves :D /god i miss living together

my boyfriends dad is so weird like i just want him here with me but he has to stay there if he wants to receive any help or support with our current problems

just reminding my boyfriend its ok if he wants to be just friends but he has to be ok with losing his cock

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fuck off i loaded my game up again and i was nearly done decorating a house and it fucking crashed again !!!! fumin

FUCK. my game is stuck on a loading screen, i have built an entire recreation centre and then went on to build a huge queen anne victorian and i haven’t saved and its just STUCK ON LOADING

i miss my bf already and he only left yesterday: 🥲 i hate love

i have access to my own painkillers and i got high but i have to stay in the living room praying no one notices

elvanse is a miracle drug (if u have adhd) truly,, but also i think if ur a similar flavour of fucked up as me - audhd bpd cptsd bc usually a bpd trigger will set me back all day but with elvanse i can process my emotions so much faster its a lifesaver for me. normally i’d be in pieces rn

i think my dad is on crack he deadass just said to me”i didn’t mean to shout at you” like um???? are u feeling ok ??? thats basically an apology right?!

my mac is barely working and i dont get my gaming laptop until thursday but oml. body? tea. face? slay. everything abt her is heavenly

my view of my mother has changed completely and im genuinely devastated and heartbroken about it. i always viewed her as some soft, gentle person who needed protecting but we were talking today and i asked if she was afraid of dad & she said never. she could of stopped child abuse but didn’t. fuck

imagino my bf saying im not allowed any of the coke I PAID FOR

i have 5g and it looks so sexy but i cant consume it all bc we really need to sell some bc we both have no money i can’t ever asm my parents as then theh’d learn S about the cokd

my bf just said i have a surprise for you and i’m sat there waiting for my 1 gram when he throws 5 gram at me. apparently the other guy was feeling generous and said pay back only €40??? next week or something. but LOOK AT THAT SWEET BABY SO PRECIOUS

every time i get money or just before i have all the goals and ideas and dreams. i make plans on what i’m going to spend it on. can’t forget the amount to go in savings. i get money. we buy cocaine. the cycle from. i have to buy a gra from some random homieshas drop the 5g until tomorrow

i feel like i could live a thousand lifetimes and i’d still never deserve my partner

when the body is TEA (her name is aaliyah shes part of my forever safe fille)

im really bad person i want to cry bc im so bad. im disgusting, disrespectful & i don’t deserve parents that actually love and care about me i’m fucked in the head literally so evil and i don’t understand why people even interact w me bc i find it hard to mask so they see my disgusting behaviour

the character i relate to the most is rue from euphoria. i’m 100% sure she has bpd. yes i’m aware that the dr told her as a kid possibly bipolar but its too soon to tell. the dr would NEVER bring up personality disorders tp someone that young. the only exception i ca this of is severe cases of ASPD

feel disgustingly fat and ugly i can’t even get my nf hard i feel humiliated whenever j initiated sex and bf says after or later

we’re going to a new supermarket and im v anxious and my mum said i could stay in the car and i just said “i’ve literally smoked crack if i can’t handle going in a different supermarket i need to grow a pair” lmaooo

are u fr my dad just came in my room to check if i was ok & i told him what my mum did & how my nan wouldn’t stand for it if she was here & he was like you know what your mums like (while making jokes) he said i could come out BUT then as he walks out i hear “bye [grandads name]!”

they went darts and brought 2 friends back. everything was fine. my grandad started to arrive & my mum literally sent me to my room bc i “cabbage” his head. my bf is sat in the living room. everyone hanging out, im alone. i told my mum if nan was alive she would never allow that & to fuck off.

my dad and my boyfriend have literally become besties. i told them i think my bf he might be gay bc he genuinely is going to darts bc my dad asked him too instead of kinky fuckery including bdsm, toys and taking my anal virginity bc we’d have the house to ourselves like ???

i need a lot of u young girls to understand that a LOT of men have pedophilic tendencies. theres a reason you get catcalled more from 11-18 than as an adult. those guys spouting off “but but the age of consent is 16!”? yeah if it wasn’t illegal they’d go lower. we need to do more to protect teens.

he’s going to leave me. i can feel it

it actually hurts how much i love him and how terrified i am of losing him

yesterday was perfect today has been hell

anyway i had some drama happen that i have no one to share with that i can’t get over. so anyway we’re at this bbq w my bf’s work mates and i’m getting on well with the other cola user X bc he has mental health. X was so nice to me. never inappropriate or spoke on my appearance.

i just got in after a night of chilling w my bf’s work mates and 3 of us, my bf, his mate X & i discreetly having some snow when we could. i had a great day yesterday literally everything apart from one hiccup it just for some reason was (near) perfect it was one of those rare good days.

my bf isn’t up to no good he’s fine i’m calm but damn i wish he’d reply faster :(((