Goddamn how do I get hired to be a monster designer for a game that wants to be Better Than Pokemon, not only do I have so many ideas but I'd love to be able to play a game that doesn't feel like they're trying to get me to play it because it's like "we got Pokemon at home"

One of the weird mental blocks I have is that I simply cannot see my face more beautiful with make up. Even the thought of letting someone else put make up on me makes me feel both uncomfortable and a clown. And it's frustrating because that is one of the only ways I could improve my looks, and yet.

more pink sea creatures 🌊🌸 #art #fish #sharks

Bunny is better at expressing her needs and wants than like 90% of the people I know, including myself

Toad went back into the house. He got into bed and pulled the covers over his head again.

oh no they are multiplying fast

"Artists peak at 30", "30 under 30", "by 30 you should" ridiculous. Arts industries capital craves young people to exploit and burn out. It doesn't want older artists thriving and guiding the young. It also doesn't want artists to exist. Stop letting cannibals tell you you only matter on a plate.

this is so good. we all want our pain to translate and transcend into art, but the truth is that art remains a craft. you cannot escape the work, nor the failure. there are no shortcuts. you tear yourself apart in search of epiphanies. the toil is where the art comes from.

Feeling small and worthless. Remembering all the things said and done as if to keep myself where I belong. I wish there was some part of me I could present proudly which is not related to productivity, but I suppose this feeling is what I deserve.

I’m busy trying to paint realistic looking water. it’s far from done but it’s very horny I mean hard I mean difficult

It’s still hard for me to accept that my mental health issues are legitimately exhausting and something I need to rest from.

I couldn't help it, I let it get in the helpless optimism of spring

Tapping the sign

The thing about crushes that sucks the most is that you can tell they're not that into you but your brain just REFUSES to let go. Haven't we learned ANYTHING, BRAIN

Get yer cheeks squished, pretty boy. // #art #oc #OCsky

the cycle continues, one day they'll get refs

holy shit. hell of an analysis

"We invented pornographic art tens of thousands of years before written language." - @funkittoys.bsky.social points out that history has always been ✨💕fucked💕✨, as illustrated by @erikamoen.bsky.social Public post with references: www.patreon.com/posts/150935...

"animals learning words and commands is just pavlovian response" hey smartass how do you think you learned language

I still don't understand the desire to defend the rights of something that doesn't exist, when there are real people who are truly suffering. I can understand attachment to a fictional character, but that's where it ends.

THEY'RE THRIVING

Having the kind of all needs in red day that I really wish I had someone to tuck me in bed cook me food and get me orange juice without asking

Chronic fatigue is so fun when all the proof you can give is "I just can't" yippeeeeeeeeeeeee

Sobs weeps throws up I'm trying SO HARD to be responsible adult and do what is asked from me but it just ISN'T HAPPENING and I know it's not laziness but it's incredibly hard to prove it to others. I'm always running late, always fatigued, and so so so so so so so so so anxious

reposting this Again because it's very very easy and it works. BE FREE

[[ TW: eating disorder ]] I hate that the most motivating part of taking my meds is that it supresses hungry. I hate that I'm proud of not eating. I hate that so many of my thoughts revolves around my weight. I hate that because I'm fat, nobody cares. I hate the headache and weakness. I hate it all

I went to art school... I had no clue this is what people meant by "warm ups". Like, a whole routine? Each part specific and functional? Dang. Probably would have less "forgot how to draw" days if I did these every time. I'm gonna try it.

It's kind of hard to keep myself afloat. I just want to sleep, and if I don't want to sleep I don't want to do anything. I'm so burned out and exhausted, every day is full of worry, dread and disappointment. I just want it all to be over. I want to just be or stop.

Make Art (1/4)

At this point the only company I trust to not want to slurp all my data consistently is pornhub since nothing on the suggestions page is ever geared towards me send skeet

I'm so tired scoob

Key to the truth of this I think is the very evident fact of how existentially *miserable* all those people are I think they may not even know it, either they don’t remember ever feeling any other way or the very pathologies that led them to be billionaires prevent it, but the unhappiness is deep

bad people can and often do make good art. attacking the art as retroactively subpar to free yourself of moral dilemma and give yourself permission to not care means you're innately equating quality of art as representative of moral virtue (it's not) which is how you get purity culture

I found a new brush in Procreate I really liked (and tried bunch of others too). Here's another Mai! || #Oc #art #Mai #tiger

also super important to note that it doesn't actually matter *in the slightest* if you switch over to something else individually, if your industry is still using the other thing. unless all the programs are *compatible with each other* (they aren't) this advice is functionally useless

Lemme throw you a wip since artblock is kicking me and I struggle to continue with this hhhh. Have some no-context lore of Lella's past... #OCsky #oc #art #wip

Copper evolution line! (Posting their character sheets in thread⬇️)

I found a new brush in Procreate I really liked (and tried bunch of others too). Here's another Mai! || #Oc #art #Mai #tiger

I don't like that the current political climate is making me even more bitter and envious than I am. I want to be happy for other people's success so bad! But it's so hard when I fear losing the roof over my head tomorrow.

Bluesky isn't a place where trolls come to get mocked and insulted. They love that. Bluesky is a place where trolls come to be blocked and isolated and ignored — which they hate. If you're seeing a lot of shitty people in your feed, you aren't blocking enough people.

It's so normal and girlboss of me that I don't want to sleep because it's so "difficult" and "draining" and "requires so much prep work" and "you have to do it right" and "getting like no energy back", man thank god kela thinks I'm healthy enough to work because this is how a human functions /s

so don't get too comfortable. #art

I know I provide next to nothing on any scale available and I'm trying very hard for everyone's sake including my own just accept my future as the crazy cat lady, but frankly I don't want to spend the rest of my life alone no matter how much I love my cat/s so it's bit hard