i know no one cares abt the absolute shit i am writing these days but i love you guys i want to express my excitement about what i’m working on rn bc it feels like a turning point in what i’ve considered myself able to do writing-wise and maybe a kick off for……. you know. (a book.)

chubby merperson stede btw

pop that pretty question right now baby #ntbts

it would dilute you #ntbts

nirvanna guys #ntbts

(said w the tone of someone softlaunching that they’re not going to rhys in boston) does anyone want two tickets to rhys in boston

Matt Johnson Plays Himself: a piece dedicated to Matt Johnson, director, and his troika of fictional Matt Johnsons from The Dirties (2013), Operation Avalanche (2016), and Nirvanna the Band the Show the Movie. #ntbts

He DEMANDS them! #ofmd #OFMDfanart

“You deserve to feel good. You deserve good things, fine things.” so i did have to draw that scene from ch10 of acts of contrition immediately #ofmdnsfw

Something I draw for my boyfriend Edstede smut #ofmd #ofmdnsfw #edstede #gentlebeard

maybe fitting that on the 2nd anniversary of posting lyhap yesterday i had an idea for a book (cannibalism related). life is crazy!

it’s the second anniversary of lyhap’s posting. a fic that truly changed my life. made me aware i can kind of just write anything that i want if it makes me happy and it will find the people who love it. made me more driven to create. kicked off a two year stretch during which i wrote and wrote.

he's easily cheered up by sweet treats #art #fanart #ntbts #nirvanathebandtheshow #jaymccarrol #mattjohnson

Jaybird + a Brave Shores doodle #art #fanart #jaymccarrol #stefaniemccarrol #braveshores #nirvanatheband #ntbts

Bird, something beautiful is going to happen. #ntbtstm #ntbts #nirvannatheband #discoelysium

Give him some speed rn #ntbts

everyone look at more agere ed right now archiveofourown.org/works/81625011

bonus YOKED director Matt since he looks like an entirely different person off-screen #ntbts

the face of someone who isn’t the captain anymore, is he. you are :)

god. psychologically tortured by my dreams

12/16/23

gay little hands

rewatched ntbtstm i have......... an illness. i love them i love them i love them i love them i love them i love them i love them i love them i love them i lovethem

perfect i’ve been summoned

Fuck the inn, right? 💁‍♀️ #ofmd #ofmdfanart #ourflagmeansdeath #gentlebeard

So there's a trend on bird site, and I made this

modern au

ed teach drunk scream singing "no scrubs" by tlc at karaoke after his 5th break up with jack

i feel like if i had gotten psychosexually autismally obsessed with heated rivalry or something it would be less humiliating than what i'm doing to matt johnson and jay mccarrol in my google docs. and my recent purchase history

i- okay, listen- *knocks over a cup and runs*

mermaid au bathtub scene #ofmd #ofmdfanart

Soft and adorable and yet also furnace-level hot, somehow? This role has done so much for my personal libido/dopamine.

"In my dream I was standing... just like this." The biggest thank you to my darling @ship-ahoy.bsky.social for commissioning me to draw this angsty Blackbeard!! 🖤🫡🫂✨️ The single tear really adds to the pain of this scene. 🖤🥲✨️ #ourflagmeansdeath #ofmd

i want to [redacted] his [redacted] until i [redacted] [redacted] [redacted] im sorry im soryyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy. arm

bidder 747 i hope a plague befalls you

well. i know no one from here is going to read this however. im going to post it anyway just in case u love me enough to read 1.5k of characters you don’t know archiveofourown.org/works/80979246

thinking about my rbb vs trying to quickly typing up the mattjay fic i maladaptive daydreamed last night. like the dialogue was So Good in my head/spoken softly aloud to myself and now it's basically gone but it was so good. rip to a real one

nirvanna the band the show #ntbts

damn your love / damn your lies

#ntbts 📞🤔🎹🍔❓

bird? #ntbts

got my top rbb choice!!!!!! life is so beautiful

missing them hours

Their snoring is loudest at different times of day. Ed's is as the sun is waking up, as if aiming to get the first word in before he's conscious enough to realize it. Stede's been awake for an hour already, delaying the day in the rumble of his husband's honks and heartbeat. #ofmd #OurFlagMeansDeath

ed and stede are sprawled out on top of each other in the bed nook sleeping snoring honk shoo honk shoo mimimiming