Started a post about #NoKings. It's completely disappeared, i think. Don't know why, don't know where it went. IT RAINED HERE! A lot! Like it hasn't in days. I couldn't go. But 2 of my ppl did. Heroes. They got a sign there. I'd take a pic but shouldn't rn, i need to be in bed.

What i wrote at length in this space about my sisters and my exhaustion is now just gone. Crazytown. I can't go trying to reproduce it. Damn. [[ I wrote this elsewhere, I think.]]>> Thank goodness for doctors who listen and stay way after hours to help you. Even when they're not your own doc.

By "Fuck it" I didn't mean you guys, i meant Fuck it being on here any more tonight. I'm so tired. Exhausted. Bad headache and fun migraines. Like that. Not sleeping well. But sleeping sometimes. I guess that's a start.

I have to get off. I have to sleep. Exhausted. Forgetting to eat. Fuck everything else for now. I am not doing well. Surprise, surprise, my sisters are even trying to make one kind of contact or other. Two say I should go back to a doctor. The third asked if I was already in the hospital. Fuck it

Off to bed I'll try anything once

True! Confirmed again today by the Honorable Mayor of Crazytown

Oh no

Shit

Wow! I found out how to get Notifications! It's a freaking miracle! Everything's been MIA. The phone stopped working, except against me. Everything's all topsy-turvy. But today im finding stuff. Would someone please notify me somehow so I can see if it really actually works.

I am. That's a mistake.

Sick. Sore and sorer throat. Doc says to wear a mask it you feel sick. Mouth sores. Weird, sandpapery tongue. Snags things. Hurts to eat soft silky yogurt with sharp-edged foods like certain dry cereals. Use soft toothbrushes if any at all. No friends anywhere. Isolated. Stupid. Quit talking

So stupid sleepy. Feels dangerous. Afraid im gonna trip over stuff lying about and splatter all over the floor.

Google is not your friend

Just when and how did i get so attached at the hip with Google

No need to hunt for Antifa headquarters. You'll find it at Arlington National cemetery.

Feeling especially low bec i'm losing faith in my so-called marvelous doctor. I've always depended on the kindness of doctors who I've long thought knew everything. I've liked him. I've believed he was pretty great. I'm sad that this might be happening, sad that it may be falling apart.

I have a worsening cold. My sore throat is sorer. This is not good. Today I started wheezing. But no infections, the tests say. Oh, really. How interesting. Maybe i need more sleep. Maybe I should go get it. Right Now. I bought a bunch of n95s. I might have to wear them, sooner rather than later.

How odd to lose a little something you always took for granted when you suspect that your doctors are not on your side. That they may not even be acting on your behalf. They might instead work against you. I've always trusted that doctors know best. Not so much now. Take care of your own selves.

Fuck all, i can't do anything for shit tonight. Makes me sad.

God Says Yes to Me I asked God if it was okay to be melodramatic and she said yes I asked her if it was okay to be short and she said it sure is I asked her if I could wear nail polish or not wear nail polish and she said honey she calls me that sometimes she said you can do just exactly

Oh no, Susan Stamberg. 💔 She was 87? So what. She was Susan Stamberg.

There's something happening here. It hasn't been pretty. I apparently have been having an allergic reaction to my meds. Crazy stuff. Can't sleep + all kinds of crazy symptoms. Wait, the docs tell me I'm not crazy and I shouldn't say I am. *It's a bad drug interaction.* it's not me.

I wish it weren't so hard. Thank goodness for doctors who listen and stay way after hours to help you. Even when they're not your own doc.

Trying to appear normal. I'm so sleepy.

Dx yest: Acute confusion. Disorientation. Not a personality defect. Gotta keep telling myself. I am so tired

There's something happening here. It hasn't been pretty. I apparently have been having an allergic reaction to my meds. Crazy stuff. Can't sleep + all kinds of crazy symptoms. Wait, the docs tell me I'm not crazy and I shouldn't say I am. *It's a bad drug interaction.* it's not me.

I wish it weren't so hard. Thank goodness for doctors who listen and stay way after hours to help you. Even when they're not your own doc.

Gotta get heavy-duty lab tests, urine tests, look-for-this-and-that tests. May have to have head examined. They've lowered some drug dosages. I hope it gets better. I hope i get past this. I wish it weren't so difficult and unpleasant. I wish I weren't so stupid-sleepy.

They started using "mania" with me yesterday at the Dr. It could be, and we'll see, that it's allergy to drug- induced-mania. Or it could be psychosis bec of allergic reaction to drug. Don't know yet. Those are the best-case scenarios. Gotta see how it plays out.

Gotta get heavy duty lab tests, urine tests, looking for this or that infection. May have to have head examined. They've lowered some dosages. I hope it gets better. Thank you for your attention to this matter.

There's something happening here. It hasn't been pretty. I apparently have been having an allergic reaction to my meds. Crazy nutty stuff. Can't sleep + all kinds of crazy symptoms. Wait, the docs tell me I'm not crazy and I shouldn't say I am.

Something is amiss. I am in trouble. I'm trying hard to appear normal. Can't figure out how to set up a big long thread and send it. Sh!t. Yeah, let's go with that. It's probably my phone. Nothings working. I can't make it go, I can't stop it, or start it, with anything like i used to.

I can't, i can't do this again tonight. I'll try to fix it tmrw, and hope it'll work But things are getting better, honest!!!! I'm taking care of myself, which is good, right. Lowering dosages

I am having an allergic reaction to my drugs. Lowering dosages of drugs, though it may not even be pred. It may be another of the friendly drugs. Ok, this is truly TMI, I think. I can't sleep at night or ever. But I'm getting better, right? Right? . Why can't I do this!!!

Today has been one of the worst days ever. I need help, but I can't ask for it, not good at it. I can't think, I'm so confused, all my stuff is falling apart and I don't know why or how to fix it. My phone's all kerblooey, doesn't work when I need it, does weird things like you know, not work.

Gotta check on my hair guy, who's from Mexico, and his 3 kids too. I hope they're still here and ok

@Rebeccagrambo Becky, look, I found my sister's

Fallout! 🐦🐦🐦 Today in the yard: 🎵 Bluebirds to the left of me, Bluebirds to the right Here I am, stuck in the middle with you And I can't see what it is I should do ... 🎵 How's everyone?

Everybody good?

Fallout! 🐦🐦🐦 Today in the yard: 🎵 Bluebirds to the left of me, Bluebirds to the right Here I am, stuck in the middle with you And I can't see what it is I should do ... 🎵 How's everyone?

Happy Indigenous People's Day! Happy Canada Day!

Oh no, Diane Keaton Really loving the flood of good news

Called Red Cross and asked them to take me off their list for now. She was not nice. She was perfunctory, brusque, mean. She didn't acknowledge my years of good faith. She just asked when I thought I'd "rejoin them." Like how the heck should I know? I got short tempered. Yes I did.

Sis JV, the blushing bride, is heading to Portugal with JM, the blushing groom. We thought they'd left early morning, but nooooo. They've yet to leave. I coulda worried all day if I'd only known

O woe, o sad news

This is terrible news. I am so upset to learn it. I was doing all right tonight, too

I love Eswatini. It used to be named Swaziland. I've been there. My sister CS lived there for a bit. I know other ppl who there, too, including Peace Corp ppl, including one from my HS class. I visited him while I was there. Oh please don't let Trump, Miller, & ICE get their mitts on it.

@rebeccagrambo.bsky.social A sewing/quilting Q for you, Becky. 1. I have a wonderful length of fabric that has a large-scale print. I don't want to cut it up into little bits bec that would be dumb. I love the whole of it and all its colors.

To bed. I'll try anything once. To sleep, perchance to dream. I can't believe how hard sleeping can be sometimes. 🤷‍♀️

Dang. That pesky cleaning lady forgot to come today.