#drawmries when you think of ghibli movies, what do you think of?

Raw Mirage of a good molt

imo it's dehumanizing to act like women cannot also be abusers, rapists, bigots and oppressors. everyone, every minority, is unfortunately capable of all of these things. the people who really fucked me up my whole life were all women. the first person to make me feel loved is a cis man.

Frankly, if you frame life as men bad and women good, you’re basically begging to get hurt by other women as they perpetuate the structures of misogyny against you, while also preventing yourself from finding love with men, who can actually be really lovely (including cis men).

about 24hrs out from the spravato and.. i feel a little different? just calmer, stuff that makes me anxious or jealous isn't really triggering it, or i feel more 'distant' from the feeling. i also have more of a (faint) urge to create or draw, or just do something besides doomscroll

Shrimp? Shrimp! This is no small #FursuitFriday this is Rhee Urboros! 🦐 @urboros.bsky.social #bws2025 #bewhiskered

first spravato session down. It went alright, nothing mindblowing, I just got really relaxed and floaty for like 30 minutes of a 2 and a half hour session and then it wore off and me and Jae just had to bullshit in the room lol. But that was nice too, I really appreciate him being there with me.

I came across this quote from Langston Hughes. His day was a long time ago & he's still saying the Black experience of America is fascism. I share to show fascism has been in discourse to refer to here a while. Trump is not its inventor. You will not be rid of it without doing right by Black people.

i wish i liked more music more. like, when i like music, i REALLY like it. it's one of the few things that helps me feel much. but so much, even stuff from similar genres and artists (hell, even the same artist) just slides off my brain. i never dislike it but it also is completely unmemorable

Black people five years ago: you know, they can kill anyone they want to out there Everybody today: hot damn, did you know they can kill anyone they want to out there?

If you pay attention to any large industry long enough and follow it to its logical conclusion you eventually end up sounding like a communist even if you started off testing CPU case fans. youtu.be/cUrJVdF2me0?...

had my first therapy session. did my usual thing - go over my history, problems (anhedonia, lifelong depression). try for a flat casual affect and sticking to objective truth as much as you can with things like this. she said, word for word, "my skills are not a match for what you're dealing with"

I spent this afternoon digitizing "magneto optical" disks, a format I'd never handled myself before today. It's a pile of stuff related to marketing at Time Warner Interactive. Here are some very high res digital paintings made to promote Primal Rage.

Relatable..

1. Did you know that Girl Scouts has, for a long time, accepted trans girls and nonbinary scouts? Trans kids are under attack. Every year, I make a thread of trans and nonbinary girl scouts you can get your cookies from. Lets get our cookies from them this year in solidarity!

saw a bunch of people doing this. i'm going to say visited = stayed with someone else stayed = paid for my own passed = had a layover here tenpages.github.io/us-level/us....

Atlanta Marriott Marquis hotel in Atlanta GA, USA by architect John Portman (1985) r/brutalism

i had made one of my resolutions to post less, get off discord, just disappear more, make myself as invisible as possible. and it's still really, really hard to fight that urge. I really haven't been close to anyone besides my husband in over a decade.

i wish my body would let me sleep more than like 6 hours. i feel like sleeping for like 48hrs straight would fix me. need a mini coma

you don't know me

self portrait 2025

FUCK YOU IT'S JANUARY!!!

drawing is so unpleasant, there has to be something i really, really want to see and create to overcome the pain and drudgery of it. and i guess there just isn't anything i want that badly anymore

i hate that i can't see a cute animal video anymore without wondering 'why do you have a [non-domesticated animal] in your house'

Proud of the scars that make me myself

They should stop being cowards and bring back Wart and the others (At least Birdo made it)

trying to get ketamine treatment has become a nightmare since i foolishly chose to try spravato intsead of just going for the infusions, which would have cut out insurance completely. my first session was supposed to be this week but it's been canceled because my insurance is going back and forth

homie took a 2 month nap

my transition timeline is so disappointing pre t: fat, depressed, wearing black baggy clothing after t: fat, depressed, wearing black baggy clothing. now has a beard

Felidae (1994) dir Michael Schaack

🔥 HAPPY GODZILLA DAY 🔥

Wyrm Knight 🐉⚔️

my only real new years resolution is to stop using social media (here, reddit, discord, etc) as much as possible. particularly posting or chatting, but i really don't need to be on here at all.

damn if that's all I have to do to become a bacon painting

#Artcommission #Characterdesign Some oc design commissions that I made this year

That time of year again!

Here’s to 2026

a horse #monster

A posca experiment I don’t think I posted

i wish i wrote music or poetry or something because the title 'my heart is not a place of honor' popped into my head and i think that'd be a good one

caffeine lets me be sad faster

current weather makes a brazen bull seem downright cozy

So, @voln.bsky.social just sent me the most cursed thing ever. #ThanksIHateIt

uncertain - the ghost of a fox lives in basement uncertain.bandcamp.com/album/the-gh... +++ produced in the span of about four days from the start of the winter solstice to the end of christmas eve, 2025 +++ happy holidays

those trans siberians sure know how to make christmas music

2025 list is out. What that guy said: defector.com/what-did-we-...

4 year anniversary of the most Evangelical Christmas there ever darn done was

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