watching a neighbor get a new dryer delivered when our landlord has been telling us he hasn't been able to get a washer or dryer for us in the 5 whole months we've lived here makes me feel particularly angry 🫩

I just want to sleep today, and I can't tell if it's The Depression, The Chronic Illness, or, get this, Both! ... it's probably both 🫠

been a minute since I've had a "let's take scissors to our hair, that should be a fine thing to do while we're mentally ill" moment, but thankfully, I was able to just do the trim I wanted to hopefully get me through summer until I get myself to a salon. still letting the grey come in, so no dye!

You. Stop. Take a deep breath. Focus your eyes on something distant. Get a glass of water. Stretch. Get a large cake shaped like Tokyo complete with candy people and pretend you are Godzilla and smash the fuck out of it. Have a cup of tea.

such gorgeous art! ✨

I'm like... cranky tired today. I can feel the looming migraine coming on with this weather shift on the way, and I just want to sleep until it passes.

a reminder to my fellow sweaty, mentally ill babes that SSRIs/SNRIs/most mental health meds lower your heat tolerance. stay hydrated out there ✨💕

I'd like to sit on my porch for one evening this week without A Man Doing the Thing where he just can't seem to allow me to exist in peace. just let me get stoned in solitude, my guy. it's been a long ass day.

feel like it's not a good sign when the work assignment sends me into a full on panic attack. shaking, nauseous, just barely not crying. I know it will be fine, it will work out in the end, but I find myself wondering if the outcome is worth me suffering this much.

a piece I wrote about me, in relation to my mother. it's not an easy day, for me and many others. I hope we can take care of ourselves how we need to today. ✨💕

I graduated from college 11 years ago today 🙃

unpopular opinion(?): the cereal bits are better than the marshmallow bits in lucky charms.

I put a bench together, made a really good dinner, showered, and curled up in bed with a favorite show going. if my brain could dispense the happy chemicals, that sure would be nice 🫠

a great breakdown of the new laws that just got passed here! a lot of good people did a lot of hard work to make this happen 🔥

me, around 9:30: I'll close my eyes for a few then play some games! my body: see you at 4am!

Happy May Day. They can’t kill us all.

Some people say we don’t build beautiful things anymore and, like, lol. Motherfuckers, we built this:

Useful thing to use here

I do not look like someone who feels like they got hit by a bus, so I'll take the win 🔥 gods Brooklyn has been good to me. more adventures on deck before heading back to Philly tonight ✨

pregaming looks different in your 30s: disco nap, three excedrin, two lidocaine patches, and a bottle of electrolytes. pray for my knees, pls 😅

brooklyn bound 🌆

even if plans canceled, at least I look cute.

feeling bad about how I handled my anger yesterday, and struggling with how to apologize for it while reinforcing that the anger itself was justified, even if my reaction wasn't.

how many times in a row do you need to listen to "the old religion" by f&tm before it counts as a mental health crisis? asking for a friend 😅

...and now the bathtub overflow is leaking into our kitchen. I would like an end to this string of absolute horseshit any fucking day now.

a man in this bar just apologized for saying bitch because he didn't realize a woman (🙃) was in here, then ranted a bit about queer folks wonder how he'd react if he knew I'm a dyke 🤷

so this installment of a depressed episode seems to be the "curl up in bed and stare at the wall until I doze off" sort. I'm sure this won't poorly affect my sleep schedule, or the in person training I have to do tomorrow, or... yeah. going back to sleep 😴

what a time to be out of weed ffs 🫠

I wonder if schools still have kids read "There Will Come Soft Rains" by Bradbury or "Sadako and the Thousand Paper Cranes" by Coerr any more. they were instrumental in establishing my genuine terror of nuclear weapons. can't fathom why they came to mind for me today 🫠

reminder: if you ever see somebody stealing food, no the fuck you didnt.

magnolias, day and night West Philly ✨

today. i wasn’t a very good dog april fools. I was so good

Trans Day of Visibility is tomorrow. #TDOV #ProtectTheDolls

roommate just told me I'm the most normal out of our trio and let me tell you that does not bode well for us 😂

was in the yellow circle singing with First U's No Kings Flash Chorus ✨ #phillyuu #firstunitarian #uu #unitarianuniversalist

made a hella elaborate dinner - orzo with a pea, spinach, and leek sauce, garlic chicken sausage, took about an hour - and finally sat down to eat. only for my stomach to turn and decide it seems like a terrible idea to eat anything right now. ffs 😩

the depression is so fucking loud today, all I want to do is sleep 🫠

CONAN: “For the first time since 2012 no British people are nominated for Best actor or best Actress… a British spokesperson commented, ‘Yeah, well, at least we arrest our pedophiles.’" #Oscars

today I: - bought an ISBN - reserved a table at a pagan pride festival - mapped out a timeline and budget to self publish on schedule - ate a full meal for the first time since this stomach bug hit fuck yeah 🔥 #poet #author #pagan #phillypoet #artist #selfpublishing

I've been laid out with food poisoning since Monday, and I thiiiiink I'm starting to feel like a person again. just took an er trip, 3.5 days of lost work, and so much zofran to get here.

So I guess it was either World War III or drag queens reading books to our children.

This is how you write a goddamn headline.

It is a tale Told by an idiot, full of sound and fury, Signifying nothing.

building something from the ground up without the same level of support as other teams - working out the policies and tracking and training and hiring and all the things that made the team tick - to be told I "met expectations," nothing more, in my annual.

it's a great day to live in Philly, love shoveling snow, and have the Weather Autism ™️ where I'm getting to be immersed in the live coverage of a special interest. breakfast also slapped 🔥

I'm that sort of bone deep tired that really wears me down. I'm feeling very close to crying, just frustrated and frozen and feeling so stupid about work things. These are the times I hate my brain the most, when communication is breaking down and I don't know why but it's "my fault."

“Is there a technology the left is excited about?” High-speed rail! MRNA vaccines! New cancer treatments! Solar and wind energy collection! Better and longer-range EVs! That wood that's harder than steel! New apples! Fibermaxxing! Buldak Swicy ramen! Muppets! Muppets are too a technology, shut up!

Gnocchi, the absolute menace. love this little guy.

I miss when you could post Brave Norman Rockwell Townsperson and the caption could be, like, “R.E.M was wrong to leave ‘Fretless’ off of Out of Time” instead of “The secret police should stop murdering people.”