just tried to venmo money with the message “as one tranny to another,” and it blocked me until I didn’t write “tranny.” I wouldn’t be surprised if people are using it to send harassment with $0.01 but still ugh

okay, what the hell I'll ask please reach out if you're trans-friendly and hiring for platform engineering, devops, or embedded development in the Seattle area (or remote). I live eastside but am flexible I keep getting twisted up over worrying if a given company is safe and it's been paralyzing

today is a SPECIAL EDITION don't kill yourself tuesday. repost to don't kill yourself.

Don't treat your life like an rpg where you end up with 99 elixirs at the final boss which you never use

had a wonderful time last night actually meeting new people in the trans community, like the legendary Hattie. thank you @kaceyisspacey.bsky.social for posting about trans night months ago so I would finally now get the courage to attend

I’m at the bread and circuses. I’m at the damnatio memoriae. I’m at the combination bread and circuses damnatio memoriae

Im so sorry to ask but could anyone help with food tonight? I am almost completely immobile this evening CA: $helpmarghoul V: @marghoul

had to add next month's rent as well because i've had no luck with the job search things are looking dire. if you know of jobs in portland please let me know please donate/share gofund.me/8f4432ccc venmo: gayley_williams cashapp: gayleywilliams paypal.me/chemrain 💕💸🏳️‍⚧️ mutual aid pride

repost if you agree: women

I feel like I get two very different positive reactions from cis women, the energy of either "yeah it sucks to be a woman, not sure why you'd choose this but hell yeah" and "oh look at the cute guy in drag, you're trying so hard" and I doubt either would hear me out if a transphobe started something

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when I got sent to the office for snapping and yelling at a bully in class - mind you, this guy had threatened to stab/kill me and even flashed his genitals at me *in class* - the assistant principle tried to explain to me that I must be doing *something* to make the kid so mad that he would do that

somehow I dodged really learning react (looking at JSX is nails on a chalkboard to me) by moving into the devops/k8s space while happily maintaining old jquery stuff I know it was the right tool at the time (what were we gonna use, angular? emberjs?? lol) but god react seems to suck especially now

throughout this entire article there's no mention of efficiency, or what anyone does with these tokens. like, stories abound of hapless employees ordered to use AI who make thoughtless applications that throw the kitchen sink at an LLM to get bad results. the business bro blind-spot is insane

I say this completely unironically: they want to kill us because they wish they could love anything as much as we love our silly stuffed sharks

trying to go legit and get a GP, did a half hour new-patient appointment and paid a $500 bill and they haven't done a damn thing, haven't sent in any prescriptions or done anything for me at all. I love having to nag doctors every step of the way instead of just planning and buying what I need

somehow, despite all the warnings about cleaning and infection etc, nobody ever warned me that the reward for caring for my new piercings really well is… the endless terrible itching of good healing

Last October I drove my moving truck from Vegas to Seattle. The fastest, shortest route went north through Nevada and Idaho. Instead we went through Reno, over the mountains in California to Eugene, then took the 5 up. Everyone was polite but I could tell some NorCal folk were holding their tongues

gwen does fantastic work as usual on some of the 401,000 trans people who’ve had to flee hostile territory in their own country in the past 18 months.

some days I feel like I’m getting the hang of this

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Months ago I was robbed of my life's savings due to a paperwork error. I've been fighting for survival ever since while trying to get it back. Donations will go to bills and food. Every bit helps 🖤🖤 CA: $helpmarghoul V: @marghoul

For my #Battletech and #Mechwarrior friends...

I can be the ship and its sailors

The Access of Evil

Wow Seven Mech Pilots is my favorite film-

iranian hackers increasingly incensed that we keep blaming vibe coding

@realfollowers.bsky.social hmm does this work? I’m guessing about 60% are real…

reskeet this if you’re a trans woman who has never been on 4chan or kiwifarms. Just trying to see something

When the government agrees not to destroy all human life for no reason for at least two weeks

The fact that nobody seriously believes there is an institution in this country that will check the president—that we’re all just sitting here hoping that he gets distracted and fails to follow through on his genocidal threats—is the most damning indictment of our political system I’ve seen yet.

feeling powerless, so instead I'm enjoying myself by getting drunk on *squints* butterscotch schnapps. hm

hey there. still jana. still here. my housing has fallen out from under me and I'm looking for another place, ideally by next month. I'm looking for a room or inexpensive apartment that I can rent without official income, that will be comfortable for my two cats. any help is deeply appreciated 💚💜

Hey y’all, can anyone throw like $20 my way to order some food? I’m really crashing out over here.

happy tdov

everything I see and read about Marathon’s aesthetic and lore appeals to me, but after getting sick of ARC Raiders after 30 hours of getting shot in the back I don’t think I’ll ever play it. and that’s okay

feeling good today 💙

sorry for having great tits and a completely unpredictable mental state

hey there, jana here. I am still very unemployed, living off of savings from a drained retirement account. I've been too busy to beg much lately, but any help still goes a long way toward helping keep these guys (and me) safe and comfortable 💚💜

dissociating! in the supermarket

well fuck. going down the "do I have cptsd" rabbit hole through "okay there's some *mild* autism I guess" has led me to PDA - pathological demand avoidance (or, more gently, persistent desire for autonomy) - which holy shit explains so much of my life and challenges I've had. I am stunned.

did you know that, among the quarks, if a top comes apart it turns into a bottom and produces a W anyway here's hoping someday we discover more heavy baryons like this. we've already found a couple of bottom sigmas, which gives us hope we can detect top sigmas, or the elusive triple bottom omega

I needed a therapist in childhood and instead I discovered the magic of books

so I just created my first ever linkedin account to look for work 🫠

well damn, blazing bagels is completely shut down at all locations with no warning. mismanagement, apparently. I got to go there *once* ugh (and it was very good)

my compiler told me async futures kept eating all the stack space so i asked how much stack space he has and he said he just goes to the linker to get more stack space so i said it sounds like he's just feeding stack space to the compiler and then his process started segfaulting