Sorry folks, logging off for a while (let's aim for a week), I do not like this website, what it has become, what it reflects about the state of the world.

Awake, regrettably

I find it increasingly hard to carry on

What better way is there to disabuse somebody of the notion they can change the system from within than by simply letting them see first-hand how it got to be the way that it is, to see from the inside what it is and how it operates?

Them: "You've got pretty good instincts, I reckon you should go with your gut more often" My gut:

Insane that I wrote this in the wee hours of the day I got broken up with, didn't even think of that until now. My lifelong hunch of being mildly precognitive (in the worst way possible) continues unabated.

I have been broken upon the wheel

I'm exaggerating here tbh. If I'm being truly honest, it's more like the little voice inside my head is just a never-ending B.J. Blazkowicz monologue these days.

"That's oomf" has, as a phrase, kind of wormed itself really deeply into my brain. I could be watching bigfoot footage and I'd just point at the screen and say "that's oomf"

My brain serves Slaanesh, but my heart beats for Khorne

There are people, largely powerful, who would argue from the alleged worthlessness of people like myself and my peers that our best recourse is to be rendered down for constituent parts. What does one do in the face of such a philosophy of absolute inhuman contempt?

Would love to drag a friend out to an art thing this week, what's left of it, but how do you bridge that gap? What an imposition to put upon another person. "Care to be here with me, to share with each other our presence in the world?" Nonsense. What am I, God?

I know that one can retire from music, from making and performing it, but I don't really think that one can truly *quit* playing an instrument so long as one is still in the possession of it (though it certainly feels like I'm trying these days!)

Unlocked a foundational memory and recalled that it was seeing the film Paterson (Jarmusch, 2016), and the poetry and the influence of William Carlos Williams hence, that first truly made me love poetry and try my hand at it as more than something to merely dabble in.

Looks like we've got another year's worth of Mondays ahead of us 😒☕️

Had a talk about this with my DM at the end of this week's session. There's still a lot of work that he has to do each week re: what pieces will be in play, but laying the groundwork is mostly a thing in the early game, past a point the clowns are essentially running the circus (in a good way!)

Just remember that last year @albomp.bsky.social’s government approved a carbon bomb, the North West Shelf Gas project. For those that pay attention to and respect climate science, and laws of physics and chemistry, you’ll appreciate why this is an issue.

I would wager there is not a single person alive who, upon seeing a peer, a colleague, a friend, a foe, a hated enemy, or a random bystander be run down in the street in front of their own two eyes, would not express some degree of shock, dismay, or concern.

I think, besides the actual (horrific yet largely niche) resurgence in phrenology itself, pop psychology as we now have it is in a sense the phrenology of this century.

What good are my principles in the face of this overwhelming and collective murder in which we find ourselves surrounded, in which we have always been surrounded?

I wish people cared about my child's life as much as they care about animals. I wish my child's life could be saved. I hope my child is okay. Please share this campaign and donate. Donation link🙏🏻👇🏻 www.muslimgiving.org/mohmed0 🙏🏻

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@gigawattvertigo.bsky.social🙏🏻​I appeal to my brothers and sisters all over the world to urgently share the pinned campaign on my profile.

Always knew I had something of a Hermann Hesse about me, for better and for worse. What a waste.

A fella tries, against the worst part of his nature, against what would feel best in the moment, not to burn it all down

Conceptually, old man yaoi means a lot to me, a guy who has literally never looked young.

Not only did they hang this picture up, there's all kinds of charming graffiti on it, they've put googly eyes on me lol

Empty handed now, for close relationships beyond mere bonds of blood. What else is there left to do, what else to commit myself to? Recommit to the music, deepen the activism, commit to real praxis, return, as always, to The Work. You say you're a soldier at heart, get to soldiering.

Why must I attract such vapid and flighty people? Where are my fellow tortoises, my fellow human tanks?

🎶"Έφυγε έφυγε Έφυγε την έχω χάσει Και γυρνώ και ρωτώ Και τουσ δρόμουσ έχω πιάσει"🎶

Help, my mum keeps comparing me to Ilya

🎶"The captain reached for something to hold on to "Help me," he whispered, as he rose slowly to his feet"🎶

🎶"Διώξε με και μη λυπάσαι τι θα γίνω μη φοβάσαι κι αν χιονίζει και αν βρέχει τ'αγριολούλουδο αντέχει"🎶

🎶"Long for the blur We cannot dry much longer Cement to dirt Disgusted with my cheapness"🎶

🎶"Colliding slow, like life itself"🎶

Alone

Session 0 for Black Crusade earlier today, and we just about finished our character sheets by the end of the night. Still have to allocate experience points (which can be done over the week), and then it's onward onto the actual game. It's a rather crunchy system, but I'm digging it so far 👍

I think I relate most strongly to the various shit fathers and husbands throughout fiction on account of the faint but constant fear that I'll eventually become one. Just another Stanley Kowalski, another Jack Torrance.

a labeler that just applies "waiting for curbside pickup" based on bursts of posting

i'll have you know i graduated top of my class in the navy seals and i've been involved in numerous secret raids against al-queada and i have over 300 confirmed kills i am trained in gorilla warfare and i'm the top sniper in the entire us armed forces you are nothing to me bu

"I'm smarter then someone like Shakespeare or Galileo" is giving me serious "I feel like Batman or halo" vibes, incredible stuff

New copypasta dropped

Elon Musk says he’s going to file for full custody of his child with Ashley St. Clair after she expressed regret for engaging in transphobia. He also took away her account verification on X. Of note, she has been calling out Musk for enabling Grok to produce child sexual abuse material (CSAM) on X.

he went from denying parentage to demanding full custody because the mother of his child said that another of his children being trans was okay

From a good friend in Minneapolis: "Target is allowing ICE to stage in their parking lots, use their restrooms, and abduct people from inside their stores - so if you weren’t boycotting already, now is the time." They were staging in Chicago as well.

Harvey Weinstein being booted out of Hollywood did wonders for the distribution of East Asian cinema in the West. Weinstein would buy up all the rights to everything and then either sit on them endlessly without allowing their release, or would chop them up according to his freakish whims.

A running theme on my reactions to news events these days is "Oh god, they are replacing something messy and fraught with something much worse." Value of a Statistical Life (VSL) (like the Social Cost of Carbon) is a complicated and ethically fraught metric. Setting it to zero doesn't help, tho...

Seems bad

Alan Moore, seen here berating Karl Rove,