i think i found a better direction for this section im on after agonizing over it for too long this'd be a time when the nine foot tall dissociative bird woman would spend a while daydreaming abt ripping god's throat out, teeth to jugular love her tho best wishes good luck!

wish i could go out more jus can't rly drive anymore, and difficult when so many places are v packed and lots of ppl at like, bars n stuff cuz i kinda shut down. can walk a bit jus need moments when my pain flares up bad but always seems be annoying to ask to have moment to let it pass a lil

coffee machine pissin out my poison like its tryin to pass a kidney stone

"i could beat x in a fight" i jus coughed now im seein stars the chalupa is fuckin winning

my cat sleeps on me in that way where she turns my limbs off one by one (strangling the circulatory system with her paws)

Update on this saga: trans vtuber is now going to a mental ward after a suicide attempt, and they're putting her with her AGAB. If you're willing to donate so she can at least have some fem clothes (they won't let her go home to get any clothes) www.paypal.com/donate/?host...

hides from her demons by seeking refuge in the Moment and Does What She Is Told for if she is not in motion her devils gain ground chokes on ashes in self-annihilation, so as not to face the consequences of the Agency she desires and loathes in equal sum she also eats ppl sometimes

realize the shitty feel was cuz i forgot to take my Injectable amazing, wonders of Medicine

2 much am i drawn to the characters in Stuff with a "i love them, but id also like to slow roast them in a panini press SAW style"

sometime i do a lil rp as a treat but there's a lot of "could u write multiple songs and a choreographed solo concert while i write enjoying it" and idk hbu buy a firearm and shoot me irl instead

o wow the exhaustion v bad tday with double wham of the kinda cold that lives in my bones

been kinda struggling with feeling like, no matter the effort and time poured into this project, it wont be anything worthwhile to anyone except myself. skill isnt where i'd want it to be, and jus kinda rough to try and push through that. but. it is what keeps me alive. so stopping not an option.

"uhh, i mean" and "shoot that's why we do it man" being perfectly audible elevates this from tech glitch to competent YTP joke

What if I drew some dinotaurs?🫣

Mourning the death of Destiny 2 by reminiscing on beloved memories like [deleted content], [deleted content], and of course who can forget [deleted content]

ppl make incredible operator designs in warframe, yet mine looks like a war criminal who made a wish with a hot topic genie

tbh i jus remember words i like the sound of and end up in phases where smthn like "chelicerae" is jus my word of the month since its got good mouthfeel and i bludgeon it into sentences cuz that's the consequence of sentience informed by my lil menagerie of neuroses

SubStar portrait reward of Sir Integra Fairbrook Wingates Hellsing for @countdadcula.bsky.social 🫶 . #art #Integra #Hellsing

ngl the finasteride in the hrt Regimen rly does make my hair feel rly nice

girl it is NOT #deadlock

important update

thinkin abt it and tbh theres prolly an orca out there who could beat me at tic tac toe

If you’re a gender nonconforming woman and not doing a complex “I’m so soft and cuddly and sweet and will do everything you ask” song and dance routine 24/7 you *will* be experienced as abrasive by a lot of people. There’s really no way around it.

Oh god her legs are BIG barley hold her up, im probably gonna have to put her on a stand for prolonged display, simply too big for her own good. It's in an unfortunate grey area of having and not having joints that work at the scale. #WARHOUND #Warhound #LEGO

Ash 🔥

i was bad at the whole "be a child salesperson for chocolate bars" stuff cuz i ate the inventory and lied on the paperwork but never got in trouble for it

Pointy sparrow

my birthday in a month and im not mentally prepared for that

✨ Speedpaint comm ✨

did they throw it in the pool again

Doodle with Selina in armor🐈‍⬛🗡 #art #Catwoman ##dccomics

you know that feels so goood

i ate a cookie and i feel like my body's about to evict my soul

incredible things happening on NA

seven hours i have lain awake i rly need to reup the sleeping meds again even if they scramble my brain for, like, two hours before knocking me out

ngl there's a lot i dont particularly like w/r/t ffxvi, but god do i love the music and set pieces garuda was done so dirty in the narrative but fuck do i love her so much i wish she'd kill me with a suplex from the atmosphere

been messing with deadlock and stuff (i am bound to Paradox), but inadvertently developed a "i think billy is cute" brainworm god save my soul

Mold spore girl!! Feed her lots of bread and she can make infinite mold puffs!

being back to fully regular with my hormones for 5 months now is causing me to once more feel attracted to men future me needs to remember the red flags conversation from therapy b/c past/current me has bad judgment u.u;;;

didnt realize i kind of do have 100+ documents that are a mixture of notes/outlines/social structures/mythos-basics for this multi-part dark-ish fantasy tartarus-world i have going on, making the 250k combined from 2 drafts feel a little more Thick when considering all ive been working through

character who is mostly bird behaves mostly like an angry dog is an accident i have created keeping it but didnt expect it to turn out this way

wish i could do my important injection (my hrt are still pills for this reason tbh) medication on my own cuz i feel embarrassed i need help for it, but at the same time i dont know how to fix the trembling hand + nearly passing out issue if i try to do it myself idk what even causes that reaction

havent done shit in xiv in forever but glad that the only eternal discourse is where the bone dragon is tanked in an alliance raid that is over a decade old

"i think tanks from the primal server should keep making the bone dragon go north because it is really funny."

silver deadlock is the kinda woman id want to make me worse

Hiring on an “ace mech pilot” as a merc unit, thinking you’re gonna get the best of the best. Turns out they’re kinda mediocre as a pilot and just not interested in dating anyone.

mr selch gonna be so pissed when he hears abt the star unification program