ok i finally made a backup for @viol3tdetector.bsky.social hi 😭

Also person hacking edbsky for so reason, idk maybe get a fucking life? Pick up a hobby, like hiking or crochet or miniature making or jigsaw puzzles or cooking or hell anything besides preying on sensitive people? A lot of us are like, on the brink, and it's fucked to do this kinda thing.

I just changed my password and set up 2fa 😭😭😭😭 hackers begone

HI MOOTIES ITS DEW MY ORIGINAL ACCOUNT HAS BEEN HACKED DONT TRUST ANYTHING IT SAYS REORT IT

Should I change my password rn I log in cuz I got a DM and I find people getting hacked

I will never hit my goals because I’m so disgusting every one in my life thinks and knows I am and I don’t want to make anyone have to deal with me o mere I can’t come back until I deserve to come back and stop being a failure

I even gave up my protein and fiber goals to restrict as low as possible. B/p every day Creates a strict meal plan to follow B/p every day I’m so tired of having no discipline. P isn’t even hard to me anymore it’s just second nature and I’ve done it in public restrooms I just don’t care because

In stuck b/p and never making any progress in so angry at myself I don’t ever want to come back here again because I’m just awful

I need a little flag i can wave that says "s0rry i'm dumb"

I went to pretty and skinny land and everyone knew you they actually knew all of my moots

i’m gonna log out for a bit… this whole shower situation has genuinely sent me into a bad spiral & y’all don’t need to see that… in the meantime: if y’all are able & willing to help me replace all of my shower products, including my shower chair. please donate or at least repost. cash.app/$didihamen

I’m bloated soooo bad even though I know it’s bloating my brain is like “you gained a billion pounds of fat on your waist overnight

My research says smarties or pez may taste the most like chewable vitamin tablets

Another thing I’m thinking of to keep myself positive is that my exercise and steps are consistently going up again

Approx 2200 today which fucks up my daily average but not a binge and still an overall deficit though and as long as I lock back in tomorrow I should be able to lower it back down even more, won’t let this get me down

I want sugar free candy that tastes like those 5 calorie vitamin chewables because I’m trying so hard not to accidentally kms by binging on iron chewables that are peach flavored

I never realized how essential utensils were to binging until I wanted to binge but couldn’t use any because my mom had just started the dishwasher and if any utensils were out it’d be apparent I used them Tbh overall a good thing

I literally also can’t comprehend why hunger seems so enjoyable one day but unbearable the next. I think it’s probably related to my boredom this time. On a totally related note, I am totally cooked because I just ate 4 bananas but they were thankfully small

I feel like there’s no way to predict how full something will make me feel What keeps me full for 8 hours one day will barely last 2 the next…

Cabbage the king of volume eating because how was this huge meal 340 cal

Forgot to update last night but it was 899 🗣️ let’s gooooo

Also I’m constipated and so bloated I need to trust the process

My mom is really getting on me whenever I skip a meal because the latest naturopathic fad she’s listening to says fâsțïng is Bad, Actually despite her chüřch claiming it’s the greatest thing ever 😭 I’ll probably wait a few days to fâsț again

974, making progress slowly but surely, my binge urges have never been this low, I think the environment was very triggering to me before

18h, would have gone longer but could tell my mom was starting to worry

16h into a fąşț I don’t want to eat at all even though I’m hungry can I become best äņä now pleaaaaaassseeeeeeee

Just did a serious core workout for the first time in forever holy shit it burns but it feels so good Will this new house bring my honeymoon phase back? 🤞

1166 an I c/sed a good amount of my dinner so it’s probably even less I need to keep this going and get even lower

My mom says I look healthy and normal everyone says I look fine it triggers me so much I never want to eat again what’s the point of being underweight if I look fine and healthy what’s the fucking point. Will I just look overweight at an actual healthy weight

I need to stop being fat right now. I already made the disgusting move of eating breakfast, but I’m not going to eat lunch, I hate myself

I just ate an m&m that was probably on the floor for years why did I do that it started out ok then turned nasty 😭😭😭😭

It’s already gone so I’m 99 percent sure it’s my body preparing for another IBS attack

Idk but I’m suddenly bloated af

I’m feeling a phantom period like cramps and that weird feeling you get when the blood starts but nothings happening it was genuinely the most realistic one I’ve had since I lost my period wtf is going on

sometimes i get extremely claustrophobic when i remember that i’m stuck on earth for the rest of my life and i’ll never be able to leave. like if things go to shit there’s nowhere else to go like i’m prisoner to this planet

I talked her out of it for now

suffering

My mom has fallen for a scäm, and now she is going to start paying 500 fucking dollars a month because of a grifter who claims she can “cure” her chronic fatigue, I looked up the person behind it and she’s a total grifter, idk what to do :(

posting this here too

I literally contemplated pürgïng breakfast at chürçħ again but last time it had a hard time coming up because it had been too long since k had eaten so I don’t think I will it’s not worth the risk and effort

Probably won’t be able to skip breakfast today, but maybe skip lunch hopefully

The muscles in my neck are so tight they’re crunchy wtf

My brain feels like it’s been thrown through a woodchipper today

Why did chïïtan like my post lmfao this is actually funny

Did almost 21h today so yay

It killed my appetite though so w maybe I can do an omad or extended fäst

My mom got angry with me and overstimulated me so bad that I broke down

I just need to tell myself not eating is easy because it’s literally doing less than normal