I'm so tired of job hunting. I'm so tired of putting myself out to be judged. I'm so tired of being rejected and feeling worthless. I'm just so tired. I just want something to work out.

I just feel like I should not both need to pee and be super dehydrated and have a super dry throat at the same time

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<- girl who can do pull ups 💪

Ashes reading arc

Hello again ED. did not miss you. Don't know why you're back. Don't want you to be back. The world is stressful but please stop. I wanna be doing good again

Job hunting stresses me out so much. An interview is a good thing. Objectively. But my brain is so so upset s d anxious and angry and ughhhhhh

<- bitch who wants a cigarette

update pinterest 4 times and every first photo in the feed after the update is your aesthetic Im dead 😭

World's most normalest girl

My partner is going to be gone for three days and I'm so sad :(

Dreamed I was back at my first job in high school because I got desperate and it's all I could get. Was sad. Wanted to die. Desperately looking for a way out but couldn't. Horrible. I'm so sad.

Why does the world hate me. Why does my brain self destruct all the time for no reason. What did I do to deserve this

Objectively life is okay. Imperfect but okay. Why am I fucking spiraling rn.

If you like, just take my life Rather die than hurt you one more night Love is good, love is all Cut all the ropes and just let me fall

Shoutout rye bread

Barely touched on trauma responses in therapy and I've been dissociative since

Blood oranges $1 a pound I got 6 oranges for $2 😁

I wanna beat the shit out of past ashes so bad wtf were you doing starting to smoke like ??? We knew this was a bad idea. Wtf???

Hello urge to chain smoke it has been a hot second! Please shut up.

If I need a job to survive and the world is telling me I don't deserve one it sure does seem like the world is telling me I don't deserve to live.

"After careful consideration, we have decided to move forward with other candidates whose experience more closely aligns with our current needs. We truly appreciate your time and wish you the very best in your job search and future professional endeavors." Translation: Go die 😆🫵

Yuri

I just want to eat a whole block of cheese

I really hope Gio is okay.

your worth is not based on how you look. the concept of being worthy only benefits those in charge. you are limitless and precious. you are loved

How the fuck did this break containment??

I think one of the weirder but socially acceptable things I do is when I'm stressed I just chug water. Like a weird amount. Like at least 1.5 L an hour. Idk. I'm just yapping on the tl at this point

Sometimes I forget I have diagnosed mental disorders that don't just go away when I'm doing good bc they're all about being 'managed' not fixed bc my brain hates me

Food is super hard today :/ and for what

Wawawa

I DID A FULL FLIP!!!! I WENT TO AERIAL AND I DID A PULLOVER WHICH MEANS I STARTED ON THE GROUND AND BASICALLY PULLED MYSELF UP AND OVER THE FABRIC AND DID A FLIP!!!! THIS MEANS IM GOOD AT AERIAL!!! IM GOOD AND STRONG AND AHHHHHHHH

Sleep thread bc I need to start tracking my fucky sleep schedule

Wearing a dress outside for the first time tonight for our Valentine's Day date 💜 get you a partner who makes you feel confident and safe. Trans joy >>>

Can my body just work properly rn

World's most normalest girl

Small tone shift

I love Americans acting like the politicians that are destroying our lives are going to save us 😂😂😂 yes king, the multi millionaire geriatric who has a financial and narcissistic incentive to do nothing is going to ignore all that bc you don't like him. So true. Can you let me into your fantasyland?

How do I explain to my partner that nothing bad needs to happen and I'll still just randomly feel in danger and scared for a while most days. Nothing bad happened tonight but I still had a half hour of just misc fear. I shrunk into faem. Wanted to be as close and small as possible. Idk why. Never do

Link to a free emergency preparation toolkit for families who might be impacted or targeted by ICE forwardlatino.org?fbclid=PAZnR...

I wonder what the world would be like if it wasn't centered on assaulting and oppressing women

I just feel like the world could simply stop imploding for like 2 seconds

The person photographed here who is in their bathrobe filming armed, masked federal agents in St. Paul is MPR News journalist @samstroozas.bsky.social @mprnews.org . She is an incredible journalist and person. We do not deserve her.

if ur a conservative i dont fucking like u

I have no idea how to valentines shop for mascs man

Omg they added drafts!!! Now I can type all my unhinged thoughts and you don't need to be subjected to them!!

Tofu gang

Cried into my partner I'm a real person again

Bla bla bla bla bla shut the fuck up ashes

Nothing makes me want to relapse like job hunting :/ I'm so tired man. Always rejection. Always back to square one. Never anything positive. No stability. No certainty. Nothing.