bob the fucking builder

my eyes are so swollen and sore, punishment for crying for two days anyways good morning, hope you friends are good

gonna apply for s bunch of jobs tomorrow wish me luck

horrible day

dizzy bc i haven’t had anything to drink yet

once again got fucked over by the unemployment center, i can’t take it anymore to be quite honest, im sick of it

pulled a fucking muscle in my arm when i shovelled snow. burning so bad and i can’t move it much. great day 😭

if the unemployment center thinks i have left my town without getting their approval, they will stop med unemployment payout immediately. they don’t even need proof. i just can’t live under such a system. how is taking away my freedom helping my mental wellbeing. fuck i can’t live like this

having a really bad day. this fucking system, i can’t live in it but i need money to pay my bills.

back in my raw v3g@n era

only at 11k but will walk more, everything with my niece messed up my routine haha

apparently the island i live on will be hit by a snow storm the next days so we have to stock up on food and anything else we might need tomorrow 💀💀 it will probably not be bad though, media here is always so dramatic about weather forecasts

she’s okay, her back will be sore but no injuries

my niece climbed a tree and feel 2 metres down and landed hun her back (head obviously hit the ground as well) and the ER said she should with an ambulance and my stupid sister said that my niece was too panicked and she thought it was better to just drive her to th ER herself…………. i would be

good morning friends 💕 i’m so so so tired today, don’t want to leave my bed, but i have to clean and u have to reach my steps goal how are you and do you have any plans for today?

i’ve been playing acnh all day (well i also walked), forgot how nice it is to play

i love planning what to eat also good morning, friends i actually slept kinda good, it feels nice, but i did wake up with a headache that im still dealing with. i’m finally back at my pre b1nge weight 🙄 anyways, how are you? any plans for today?

i hate flossing

okay okay my mom came home and was like ☺️☺️ guess what i just bought for you and i was like… kinder bueno? and she was like NOPE i bought that vintage coach bag you wanted so badly i am dying

completed tour de parcel shop, and it was FUCKING COLD my face hurt so bad. also my hands struggled so much 😭 need to find my gloves. meeting with social worker went great, so i can relax a bit

my upstairs neighbour gave birth yesterday and they are still in hospital, so i’m taking care of their d0g and c@t :’)

havent been tracking my mood for weeks oops

im so fucking anxious all day and have been for weeks being in the system, receiving government payout, having no freedom in the system makes me anxious. applying for job, potentially getting an interview and a job makes me fucking anxious. i can’t avoid it. at least with a job im free

now i have three packages to pick up and ofc not at the same parcel shops going to be a long walk tomorrow when i go home from my appointment with a social worker outpatient psych center

tried on some of my close i haven’t been able to fit for years and now they’re loose 😌😌

l@x finally kicked in LOL

anyone on 300-600 mg quetiapine who is not dealing with w8 gain?

it’s tough living next to a bakery

i want bread so bad

i think i’m getting sick again 🙄

my headache is better now that i have eaten

i have to go and pick up a package but i don’t feel like leaving my house

woke up and my entire body hurts 🤥 anyways, good morning

yes and no

trying to make these cheap oil pastels work, but the blending is so hard like damn when i get money i will buy soft oil pastels 🥲 tried to use every colour to test out how pigmented they are and stuff

also the sky is dancing tonight

at therapy, my psych doc (yeah she also does therapy) wanted to talk more about my ed and as i suspected last week, she knows about my relapse haha. it was tough in general today. sleep so bad. she suggested upping quetiapine and use it as a mood stabilizer but i’m afraid of weight gain

sorry for not being more active. having a hard time. really difficult to see the point the point in anything

0m@d next couple of days, gained like crazy as a result of these two days. i hate myself for allowing this to happen. had my meal for today

i am so ill rn and haven’t slept all night, so that will be the punishment i will hopefully remember next time

b1nged 👍👍👍👍👍👍 why can’t i control myself fucking stupid bitch

can’t imagine how my gr33nl4nd1c brothers and sisters are feeling during all this 😭

look at these ?? trinkets idk ?? i’ve gotten from different countries i’ve been to when i was a kid 🥲

well today failed food wise, i hate myself so bad at least it will be easier to not eat tomorrow since my sister and i are going to an event where the food is ridiculously expensive honestly how fucking weak am i, it’s insane

also good morning, how are you and what are your plans today? my sister and niece are staying here for the weekend, so i’m freaking out inside bc of food, but i have to be very aware of my portions so they are as small as possible

obsessed with this breakfast 260 and 22g of protein