saw someone on tt who lost 12 kg in a month so i have to really step up. even though its freezing cold i have to get out and walk, at least 20k steps. my damn mother is home the next couple of weeks and i hate useing the walking pad in front of people

sorry for my crash out yesterday i still feel awful and i have gained 500 gram 😐

just gonna have to f4st the next couple of days or only eat a little fruit or something idk i just want to lose weight

and i fucking hate christmas and all the food and my family and i wont lose 10kg by christmas eve which is unrealistic to begin with i fucking hate myself

yeah so who the fuck cares cause i just kept eating and now i hate myself even more than i already do, and im gonna gain every thing back i have lost, my progress and everything. i should kms honestly

i have no idea the calories in the dinner i will eat with my friend later so i will put in 2000 kcal to be sure and wont eat until then

also

my stomach is making funny sounds lmao

well my excuse is that I HAVE eaten two while making them bc im in the kitches and they are in the living room while i make them so that was easy

my niece is visiting and my mom said we could make waffles and i have to find an excuse to get out of eating it why does she always want to eat something like that when my niece is visiting she also bought chips and candy and im like… my niece doesnt need that EVERY time she visits, its insane

169 so far, will eat kiwi when i get home and kale salad later

another 500g lost

i want to lose 10kg by christmas eve 😩

FR

today forgot to take pic if breakfast, also i will add the kc4ls on pics from now on bc in scared of getting nuked, idk if im just paranoid but oh well

took magnesia and its finally working

600g (900g if we count yesterdays weight also) down maybe it was just water weight

chonk

i hate flossing my teeth

have to pee but i dont feel like leavinh my bed

good morning, scale said 300g gained and i feel so awful

also im fucking bloated

i feel weird calling our christmas christmas, bc its jul, which i feel like is different from christmas but idk

i fucking hope i’ve lost weight tomorrow, i ate too much bread with the tomato soup (with cream and pasta), and im scared what the scale says. today i havent gained weight from yesterday, so i hope its the same tomorrow but im so mad at myself bc i wanted to lose more weight and i ruined that with

"im so fat i need to lose weight" *eats* "im so fat i need to lose weight" *eats* "im so fat i need to lose weight" *eats* "im so fat i need to lose weight" *eats* "im so fat i need to lose weight" *eats* "im so fat i need to lose weight" *eats* 🔄🔄🔄🔄🔄🔄🔄

apparently both my mom and sister will give me a gift each for advent, and today i got a colouring book from my mom and a balaclava from my sister, that’s so nice of them, didnt expect it at all

sorry for not being on here today, had to use all of my social energy going to cph and meeting my friends. scared about what the scale says tomorrow. anyways, hope you had a great day or will have a great day depending on where you guys are located 💕

scared about tomorrow bc im going to cph to meet with friends, and they are making homemade pho and it scares me not to know the kcals but it will be my only meal just to be safe

but she bought me a wool coat so that was nice in xs and i am by no means xs in clothes. clothing sizes are so weird

my mom deadass told me today that i dont need to lose anymore weight 💀 im no near underweight

lost another 400g

tmi maybe but im so glad im p00ping despite the restriction and i dont have to use l4x

hahahah miss her so much, i still spend most days crying ✌️

incredibly nauseous from taking meds on an empty stomach again

also my mom got me this (yeah im an adult so what) and im really appreciating that they have specified the kc4l pr 100g for each of the chocolate wafer thingies or whatever you call it in english then i can decide if its worth it that day

also good morning, any plans for today?

300g down from yesterday ❤️

wanna stay under 500 today

i connected with a person (man…) from my town after i made a reddit post about my situation, and he is also dealing with mh stuff so i thought hey cool we can maybe talk a bit about that. WELL he writes CONSTANTLY and says good night and good morning and comments on how long it takes me to answer

okay it stinks of old cigarettes so im trying to wash and dry it wish me luck

i feel like this jacket is muuuch better than the other one even though its big on me, but i think the length makes it okay

at art therapy and im so nauseous and my stomach hurts :/

i will

i could stop it here for today….

woke up to snow, even though most have melted by now

cooking with my niece. frying some pear and chicken and boiling grapes. solid meal

weighed myself and despite eating like shit, i havent gain at all, im so relieved