ate skyr and granola for breakfast and now im having a damn cookie my mom bought 🥲 but i will make my low kcal dinner later and hope it will be ok 😭

i need to actually make an effort

big b*nging day gonna kms

eating like a pig today too have to do better the rest of the week, which will be easy bc im actually alone and dont have to eat

okay so long shot but do any of you happen to know where this dress is from? 😭

private profiles when im so paranoid that non edsky people interact with my posts that i try to censor the most ridiculous words

might split it up and get 2k at a time to at least reach 10k

i really want to pace around but my ankle hurts still 😭

playing dti to argue with ch*ldren who doesnt follow the theme

fan fucking tastic 👺👺👺👺 dont !! tempt !! me !! with !! food !!! dont !! stay !! over !! for !!! dinner !!!! and lunch !!!!

ATE LIKE A PIG TODAY

im 2400 under for the week but still stresses me out

bad day so far !!!! always eat and eat an eat when my sister and niece are here and we are probably getting take away later 💀 f*sting tomorrow 👍👍👍

i dont think 10k steps is realistic, my feet hurt so bad. i guess they need rest

my sister and niece are visiting in 2 hours so i have to get to 20k or at least 10k before they get here

also good morning, its very rainy and windy here (fave kind of weather besides snowing)

i think i might be getting an ear infection 😭😭 had those a lot when i was a kid and i had to get surgery to fix something in my ear, i HATE them

wish yall were a part of my close friends on ig bc im fucking funny there

following this b*limic girl on tt that eats on camera (like huge amount of food) and its so satisfying in a way

cant get a job with these fucking d*grees, the job market is so bad. in seriously considering becoming a nurse, because the job security is so high. but i dont have any more student grant clips 😭😭 maybe i can apply for more clips if my reasoning and m*ntal 1llness is enough

the doctor noted my past b*limic behaviour noooooooo

also this was dinner (397)

i will try to force myself to be still but theres nothing like pacing back and forth being motivated about the future while also wanting to kms

my feet are absolutely destroyed from the constant pacing around. mixed episodes are rough, why cant i stop moving 😭 i walk and walk and my feet hurt so bad

cant wait to weigh myself

lost 2 kg in a week

my sleep meds are not working ❤️

post from close friends and a response to that post

saw my psych team and its a mixed episode

i actually feel so fucking bad. i have so much energy i have to pace around and i have all these ideas and so so much anxiety that i feel like i havd to throw up but at the same time im so fucking d*pressed and hopeless and i cry so much. its awful and i dont get it

tried to eat two eggs, immediately got the egg ick again

paced back and forth in the living room and km at 34k steps

im learning hung4rian

oh naww music sounds REALLY good and i have so much energy 💀💀💀

i love skyr, so low in c4lories

in 2021 i went to s0uth k0rea to study for a semester and i went to y0nsei. when in quarant1ne for two weeks i was m4nic and when we were allowed to go out i entered a rough depressive episode so i went home after 2 months and completed my courses from home BUT i bought a y0nsei hoodie and i couldnt

my friend went to finland today also and i said u love m00mins snd he said he will get some m00min stuff for me

omw home from seeing my friends. the one in the noon was like okay you have lost weight and i tried to dismiss it and he was like 🤨 stay safe, my other friends didnt say anything. managed to get away with eating one piece of sourdough bread (with thin layer of avocado) and a handful of crisps.

i really cant eat breakfast this early but i have to, because otherwise i will literally vomit bc of my meds while walking to the train station

havent eaten since 3 pm and havent felt hungry, but now that i’ve taken my qu3ti4pine (i dont know how to censor, sorry) im hungry. but not so much that i just have to eat, but it’s odd

im such a wh*re for sourdough bread

lost 500g

deleted the c*t post bc non-edsky people started reposting??? weird ass behaviour

i should really start walking again