eating whole foods has helped me so much even in these past days. i feel like im mixing my ed with some healthy habits bc i do want to try to take better care of myself in some way. plus i feel fuller with less cals 👁️🫦👁️

some unskinned chicken, blueberries, and carrots for lunch 😛

target for today: max 1400 cals and burning 200-300 cals

down 1.9 pounds 😛

okay estimated 1570 cals for today burned 327 net: ~ 1268 not bad, could have been better

tracked cals today add up to 720 and i’m gonna guess maybe 850 cals for eating out just to be safe 🫩

i don’t know how much cals i had for lunch bc i ate out :(

i just weighed myself and i gained 4 pounds from eating more freely….. ☹️ also yesterday was busy so let me put the numbers: 1507 cals (i will eat just a little bit more on class days) burned 231 net cals- 1276

popcorn, yogurt, and blueberries for lunch 😛

ate: 1485 burned: 292 net cal: 1193 not bad for getting back into it. if i keep doing this, i will def lose weight 🫡

getting my steps in now 😛

if i was the image i am in my head i wouldn’t have all these issues….

i haven’t been on bc i tried eating more cals but i feel like im failing :( i’m gonna start uploading my cal intake here again

intuitive eating just doesn’t work for me. unfortunately my intuition is to eat like a fat ass

me + coke zero = <3

i’ve been eating at a relatively decent deficit & haven’t been getting my steps :/ i am on new medication for nightmares and it has made me kinda dizzy & nauseous (especially when i stand up too fast) so i’ve been trying to be “healthy” when losing weight. it might be slower but maybe more worth it?

net cal (guesstimating) ~1000 ish

net cal maybe 1200??

ate 1363 (plus one cookie my sister made idk how many cals) and burned 365 net- 998 + cookie cal- maybe 100? so 1098?

ate 1364 and burned 310 net cals- 1054

(sadly) ate 1499 and (thankfully) burned 534 net cals- 965

4 miles 🙂‍↕️ i feel better now and not like a whale

i’ve eaten 1499 cals today i’m gonna freak out wtf was i thinking. i’m working it off now omg i can’t believe i ate that much today

yesterday: ate 1349 and burned 322 net cal- 1027

i had to do labs today and now i’m waiting for them to do my ekg. i told my psychiatrist about my slip in my ed. i don’t know if i did the right thing. i’m not even a good weight yet…. but they are helping me with my ptsd symptoms so there’s that

ate 1317 and burned 124 (rest day) net cal- 1193

lost another two pounds🙂‍↕️

chat, complex trauma sucks

ate 1383 and burned 429 (net cal: 954)

i think i’m gonna raise my cal max to 1400 these days- i’m gonna try to see if i still lose weight at a good pace like this or not. i’m still working out so it should be okay for the net calories. i have no idea if it’s gonna last long or not. just gonna try it (especially bc im at a higher weight)

all i want to do is shop and sleep

yesterday: ate 1328 and burned 492

the tension of me taking care of myself and starving myself

ate 1058 and burned 55 (rest day)- i did clean a lot though yesterday and a little today so more cals burned technically

Being skinny will make me perfect

i hate when i get so territorial and jealous :///

yesterday: 1100 (guessing) and burned 485. i walked so much this week im so happy

i was suppose to have a fun day with my mom today but it didn’t go well. i felt more alone than celebrated (we were celebrating my grades) and i just feel horrible. i told her i liked the stuff we got but that i didn’t have a good time and now i think she’s ignoring me….

ate 1181 and burned 421 😐

no idea how much i ate but i guess around 1500-1600 (i had orange chicken- guilty 😔🖐️) but i burned 542 cals (i walked like 95min on my walking pad)

going to count today as a metabolism day bc i’m eating out for lunch with my mom. i’m definitely going to be working out today tho 🤞

lost 2.2 this week ✌︎('ω'✌︎ ) almost out of another category!! i just want to lose as much as i can until the end of the year

ate 982 and burned 243 😛

ate 1224 (FUCK) and burned 473. at least my net cal intake isn’t terrible but still ://

i think i just want someone to hold me

ate 1186 (i’m such a pig) and burned 340