so i called medicaid & in my state, medicaid is through United Healthcare. the agent i spoke to was SUPER helpful, BUT! i noticed something odd… the agent was using a voice changer? i wonder if that has anything to do with Luigi 🫣

fun fact! medicaid is trying to claim, “we’re ONLY kelsey’s secondary insurance, NOT her primary insurance! so we won’t cover her spine surgery cost” HUH?!? i’m 27 y/o, so i lost my parent’s health insurance a year ago! i updated my paperwork to reflect that change & even got a new card in the mail!

i’m currently resetting and updating two different windows devices. i feel like an IT tech 😎

heathcliff is NOT a “romantic hero.” he’s a violent, obsessive abuser that got rejected… & blames his egregious behavior on “heartbreak;” on Cathy (who rejected him), even AFTER her death! & then! he practically holds everyone prisoner with his actions & behavior… open.spotify.com/track/6lYUgm...

just ended a call w/ an incredible friend of mine ☺️ i am BEYOND grateful for the friendships i’ve been able to make online, thanks to bluesky! 🩵

thank you all for making me feel less bad about what happened yesterday 🥺

I GOT APPROVED FOR THE NEXT STEP FOR SPINE SURGERY! let’s go!!! 🥳🎉🍾 i believe the next step is “trialing” the spinal cord stimulator. so the battery will be outside of my body (not inside). and if that works? i’m getting surgery!!! so please share the GoFundMe!!! 🩵

i deadass just threw up & in turn PEED MYSELF!!! because w/ my spine issues? i can’t hold my bladder!!! i’m a FULL ASS ADULT & pissed my pants while throwing up… tldr: i NEED this spine surgery because WTF

i’m truly an introvert because my sister called me tonight & i was like “hey queen! ily but my social battery is dead so you have 10 minutes before i get too overstimulated & overwhelmed.” 🤣 thankfully she’s autistic (i’m adhd) so she understood the assignment! gave me the tea then said goodbye 🤣

also i’m not maliciously ignoring any of y’all, my social battery has just been completely dead for the last few days. i’ll answer replies on here, but dm’s or texts? i just can’t right now… i’m on E(mpty) 🪫

it’s thunder storming right now 😌

i had a phone interview with SSI yesterday 😬 they said it could take 4-5 months to come to a “determination.” so for now? we wait…

i recently heard a man say “one of my friend’s ex gf’s broke up w/ him bc of who he voted for. which is such a bullshit excuse!” HUH?! i immediately chimed in & said “well if he voted for trump, then it makes PERFECT sense why she left him… he voted against her rights.” then bro went silent. RIGHT!

my birthday party was really fun! i’ve been in A LOT of pain since then, but it was worth it! 🥳

*sighs*

spot the difference! 💃🪩🎊

for the past SEVERAL years, without fail! my older sister calls me at 12am on my birthday always! not to sing “happy birthday,” no no… that’s too “bland.” instead, she calls me at 12am (again, on my birthday!) to sing “birthday sex” by jeremih LOL 🤣

my face is mid, but my HAIR?!? 10/10 👩‍🦰🥰🧡

my birthday gift: a new & larger bedside table, with a bunch more storage! i no longer have a “stash” on my bed, it’s all put away neatly & w/in reach. ***i used to keep my blood pressure cuff, oximeter, daily meds, tissues, & aquafor on my bed for easy access bc my previous end table had no room.

if i unfollowed you & immediately re-followed? my apologies, it was an accident! i’m mass-unfollowing inactive accounts that haven’t posted in 9+ months & HOLY! the lag is awful… so i’ve accidentally unfollowed a few moots (but immediately followed back when i realized my mistake). i’m sorry!

i just had to force my nose piercing back in because it was out from 8am to 5pm (because i got an MRI in preparation for surgery!!! woohoo! and had a rheumatologist appointment). ouchie! that hurt! especially given that my nose is already banged up!

this is such a fun idea, but i can’t do it because i feel like i already put everything online. so i really don’t have any lore to drop 🤣

no nose break! the tissue under my left eye & in my left nostril is inflamed/swollen + there’s a knot there (causing the crookedness). there’s nothing we can do except wait for it to go down. the ENT said it may take a few weeks, but it should resolve itself! & the nosebleeds should stop soon too 🫡

i hate begging people for help… :(

oh also??? i have an SSI appointment next Friday?!?

this week is going to kill me… 💔 monday: renew my ID (DMV) & ENT appointment tuesday: chill… wednesday: MRI for spine surgery & rheumatologist appointment thursday: appointment with my PCP friday: depression study saturday: my birthday! (donate to my GFM for my birthday please!)

i just got flamed in a server for being 26 (i literally turn 27 EXACTLY a week from today). if you wanna diss me? come for my disabilities! make fun of how my body’s attacking me & causing my spine to crush itself! but my age? man, that hurts (esp w/ the 27 club)… ig i AM truly “unc” & “chopped” 😭💔

how am i expected to be able to work & hold a part time position, if the last time i was PHYSICALLY ABLE TO SHOWER was September 20th!!!

i just saw the cost/payment that’s required for me to get spine surgery (in my state w/ medicaid) & man… i’m fucked… even if i get approved for it? we (as in me & my family) can’t afford it… i will say, medicaid is covering the MAJORITY of the cost! but the rest? oh boy… i need my GFM to go viral…

i may have had to lie about being in a current depression episode… oops. BUT! what’s the MAIN CAUSE of my depression? my PAIN! my inability to do basic tasks! if this spinal cord stimulator works? i truly believe i will be MUCH happier.

I GOT APPROVED FOR THE NEXT STEP FOR SPINE SURGERY! let’s go!!! 🥳🎉🍾 i believe the next step is “trialing” the spinal cord stimulator. so the battery will be outside of my body (not inside). and if that works? i’m getting surgery!!! so please share the GoFundMe!!! 🩵

upon further inspection… i think butterscotch fractured my nose… it’s crooked…

butterscotch got jumped scared by teddy and (accidentally) smacked his back against my nose SO HARD that i immediately got a nosebleed… my nose isn’t broken (thank god), but my nose & head definitely hurt now… i wouldn’t be surprised if my face is all bruised up tomorrow 😭

not to be dramatic (aka i’m going to be extremely dramatic), but i’ve been calling for Butterscotch (my TRAINED ESA) for about 5 full minutes now? & he hasn’t come… am i in distress or crying? no, i just wanted to cuddle with him. but i’m ABOUT to start crying if he doesn’t come over for cuddles! 😭

tw // sh , self harm (not irl, in a dream!) i had a dream that i had to kick down the bathroom door because my younger sister was sh-ing SO VIOLENTLY as a way to k!ll herself… (in my DREAM, so not real!) she had cut out CHUNKS of her body… literal chunks & she was bleeding out everywhere. wtf brain!

i think less of people who use “ChatGPT” regularly… because 1) you can’t just type your question into google? or use speech-to-text (if you don’t want to type) to ask google? 2) using ChatGPT exponentially adds to the global climate crisis… do they not know how HARMFUL AI is to our earth? 3) ew…

losing my food stamps & possibly losing my health insurance next; when i’m only months away from spine surgery? is why i HATE 3rd party voters & people who didn’t vote… we’re ONLY 9 months into this “presidency.” if i die? it’s on EVERYONE who voted for that monster, 3rd party voters, & non-voters.

sometimes i get random pains DEEP in my bones (my left tibia rn) that make me question why i still exist. 😭 i want to make it clear, i’m NOT talking about muscle or joint pain. i’m talking INSIDE my bones… i guess where bone marrow is? anyways, it feels like someone just took a metal bat to my leg 💔

Hello I'm Nny, i lost my food stamps & I'm pretty fucking scared rn. I'm on SSI & live in HUD housing so I basically have nothing to fill the gap. Anything helps, I'll be thankful just for shares & likes if that's all you can give. Thank you! Cash@pp : $duvaldeviant PayPal.me/904Deviant

This is an +18 mutual aid thread for #caterpillarsky #edbsky members effected by the govt shutdown. If you've lost your SNAP benefits please add your post so we can help eachother fill the gap & get some food! Rt & share even if you're not effected, anything helps!

shoutout to my laptop for being the best 24/7! oh wait… LOL

minecraft horror bs: i hate when minecraft horror youtubers play “The Broken Script” for only 30 mins & “hate it bc nothing happened “ (despite TBS being a slow burn, lore filled horror mod). TBS is GENUINELY the best horror mod out there!

in 2.5 weeks, i’ve lost 7.6 lbs.

me: *losing my mind* also me: at least i have a cute pink pumpkin!

i’m so tired… physically & mentally… i’m exhausted.

i’m DONE! now onto the next questionnaire…

what if i kⓂ️$ in front of the government officials that deny me disability benefits? what if i change the trajectory of their lives?!?! LOL

explain to me how THE FUCK i’m supposed to reapply for benefits if the website crashes 24/7!!! i printed out a physical copy, which i’m filling out now… sorry mr. pro-bono lawyer, i need to throw in a hail mary before i lose EVERYTHING!

i want to mention… i got a letter from my state that said i will lose both my food stamps AND medicaid in the coming year if i’m not “disabled.” now, we ALL know i’m disabled! right? but do they mean “disabled” according to the government? or according to my medical records? that’s the question…