I JUST GOT A $200 GOFUNDME DONATION FROM ONE OF MY CLOSEST FRIENDS! brb i’m sobbing uncontrollably 😭🩵

i’m just so sad and lonely y’all… but i don’t even have the energy (both physically or mentally) to respond to anymore…

when life gets a little hard bitches get su!c!d&l im bitches

guys i did a bad thing last night… i thought about my 27th birthday (which is nov 8th) and how i’m a disabled PoS that has no purpose in life, i’ve accomplished nothing, and i have to beg people online for money because my family & i are so broke. uh oh! that made me wanna “do it” again! YIKES!

guys, the harvest/super moon is tonight! monday night!

hi! ✨ i’m a 26 y/o disabled, queer woman in desperate need of financial help for my medical bills. i have SpA, POTs, hEDS, PCOS, Endometriosis, Fibromyalgia, & more. i’m unable to work & don’t get disability benefits (because my state sucks). anything helps! here’s my GoFundMe! 🩵 gofund.me/73fb8b8b

okay guys. i’m going to post my GoFundMe link tomorrow (October 4th). so PLEASE! copy the link & share it on your IRL accounts!!! specifically your IRL accounts because it will reach more people outside of this community 🩵

i just choked on my own spit and almost died just an fyi

moots: genuinely tell me what you think about me posting my GoFundMe on here. i would prefer for y’all to repost the link on your IRL accounts so the GoFundMe reaches even more people! (outside of this safe space on bluesky). ya’ll can just say “my friend needs help, here’s the link!”

my mom & i are equally as frustrated w/ the lack of family & irl support… i may just post my GoFundMe link on here & dox myself. bc i just know, y’all will actually repost the link (no need to donate if you can’t! but i know so many of my moots would repost the link). y’all are always so helpful 🩵

hi! ✨ i’m a 26 y/o disabled, queer woman in desperate need of financial help for my medical bills. i have POTs, hEDS, PCOS, Endometriosis, Fibromyalgia, and a degenerative spine disorder. i’m unable to work & don’t get disability benefits (because my state sucks). anything helps! cash.app/$didihamen

i’m at the point (because of finances), that i’m going to do it… after my b-day sometime. i’m so tired of BEGGING for money, making my mom SO stressed about my medical bill costs that she’s now REQUIRED to take medication for her stress-induced high blood pressure. i’m tired of begging people irl —

HI MOOTIES ITS DEW MY ORIGINAL ACCOUNT HAS BEEN HACKED DONT TRUST ANYTHING IT SAYS REORT IT

MASS REPORT MY OLD ACC ITS BEEN HACKED @dewdroplets.bsky.social

i’ve been watching bodycam footage again… how have cops revised their system & approach to keep deaf folks safe? because i know of one case where a deaf man got shot because he couldn’t hear the “get on the ground” orders (the victim lived & sued). since that case, has anything changed? i doubt it…

i’m in so much pain rn…

you know what’s crazy to me? so many randos make content about how disgraceful, dangerous, harmful, & damaging ẼÐ “spaces” are online… don’t get me wrong, those things CAN be true at times! but… it depends on who you follow/interact with. bc from my experience? all my moots are genuinely the BEST!

guys… i genuinely love my boyz so much 🥺 my cats are my everything 💕

@greenteatonic.bsky.social HEY YOU’RE GORGEOUS BTW!

so… i drank a lemonade beer. fun fact: i’m allergic to citrus, that includes lemons. so now i’m covered in a rash… not my usual symptoms though! i usually get tongue ulcers, an itchy tongue, and some swelling! but… it’s only been an hour, so maybe the tongue stuff will appear soon. we shall see! 🤣

this is so dumb, i’m sorry 🤣

breaking news! kelz threatens to release new music! 🎶🎤 (now that i’m officially diagnosed, getting *mostly* proper medical care/treatment, & starting to improve physically)

y’all… i TRULY need these scammers to be more creative! like… at least TRY to convince me that you’re real. put on a show! make me believe that if i don’t pay the “cashapp/paypal processing fee” for your donation of “$X000” that it’s life or death! idk. add some drama! these scammers just make me 🥱

i’ve been SO easy to anger / annoy / upset recently… like, i’m CLEARLY unwell right now… but is it my fault? no. i don’t think so! because i’ve been through SO many “fight or flight” situations recently, that have PUT me on edge! it makes SENSE that my emotions and “limits” are heightened. ya know?

maybe with all of this religious psychosis about the rapture happening tomorrow/the next day… maybe, JUST maybe! christians will finally give their money to the poor & help those in need… like… possibly donate to my GoFundMe? LOL

i repotted a lot of my plants 🪴 but unfortunately… i forgot to take my meds before doing so, and only realized once i finished the last plant (because i almost fainted LOL). so that’s gonna mess me up for a bit. but hey! at least the plants are happy in their new pots 🌱

this is exactly why i took a step back before engaging w/ anyone (irl or online)… bc the SMALLEST things are setting me off right now. probably bc of all of the back to back bullshit i’ve been through in the last few months. at LEAST i’m emotionally intelligent enough to know when i need a break!

idk... i'm beyond annoyed bc i'm currently in bum-fuck nowhere (insert state name); so now... only my tablet has access to the internet (this is the only account i have access to on my tablet bc my phone is dead) so hi everyone! i'm alive (& yes, i showered today), but i'm also annoyed to the max...

and if any of you bully me for how long it took me to shower… i wish all of my daily pain onto you (including my spine tumor). so BE NICE! (i’m fragile emotionally and physically ig since i’m disabled LOL)

so… i showered for the first time since like… march 29th or something.

🎶🎤🎶 lalala

okay… i THINK i got the proper safety measures in place but i’m still in “fight or flight” mode. so i’m temporarily going to keep to myself, not talk to anyone, just until the dust settles (just to make sure i’m actually safe & i don’t lash out on others out of fear). 🫡

my comment got removed on tiktok for showing my pussy… … … … cats.

no context (iykyk, but please don’t talk about it in the replies…) apparently my “father” did it again! or at least “attempted” to! with new info! I AM SICK.

so i saw the video right? (again, i hated that guy), but hearing the shot & seeing *that* happen made me remember… when i was in chicago, shopping/walking in the loop, 4-6 shots rang out. we all started running. well… i just woke up from a nap bc i heard a close gunshot, turns out it was in my head.

hey y’all… can anyone spare like $25-$50 so i’m wayyy less anxious? because… medical bills keep kicking my ass… i also just had to pay $200 on this specific medical bill (this was for my blood & genetic testing)

guys… don’t watch the video. it is beyond graphic and horrifying…

“why aren't you scared of me? why do you care for me? when we all fall asleep, where do we go? i wanna end me…” open.spotify.com/track/4SSnFe...

and it’s the way, not even my sisters, understand my mental illness…

the toxic side of ed spaces online

wow! i love tumblr!

this is me to the max

i love my moots! 🩵

teddy is all tucked in! he’s so sleepy! 💤

except i CAN’T because 1) back surgery and 2) the anti-depressant study 😭

every other week or so my laptop refuses to turn on for like 10-20 minutes. my battery has TOLD ME it needs to be serviced for several years now (but i just can’t afford it). so every time my laptop has a full black screen? begging me to let it die? i say a prayer to “apple” & boom! it lives on! LOL

also i was so frustrated with the whole “situation” that i cleaned up my room over the past few days! i was infuriated & angry because if i was admitted? i would’ve gotten immediately denied spine surgery… i’m currently going through all the psych tests now! the last “step” before the trial surgery!

but now! i return with silly cat photos

okay, i’m back (for now…). i WILL being replying to my penpals in the next two weeks or so! because those who sent me stuff recently, i trust weren’t the ones who called a wellness check on me. but PLEASE! never do that shit again (whoever you are)! i will be DENIED back surgery if i get admitted!