after years of dissociation and avoidance i feel like im finally actually starting to deal with my shit improve my life even if that means coming to terms with things i let fester in ways that hurt others im so fucking exhausted but maybe things can get better, i can make them better, i hope

not that i think the rest meant anything by at, or that it bothers me, but it is kinda interesting to me that out of all the family memebers i still speak to, the only one to rememeber to wish me a happy birthday was the one other queer person in the group

fish market

kinda wanna get into writing but its daunting ive never gotten far into a writing project before but i have some ideas idk self expression is both a base need and absolutely terrifying what do you mean i have to be bad and embarrassing before i can make something good? that sucks

subjecting all the followers i got from posting the kink shit i do with my angel to my stupid stream of conciousness ramblings if you want the good stuff from me you have to suffer a little

i dont think itll ever fail to make me ugly cry by the end

man i know im not gonna find it in anything mainstream but i really want more good lesbian and or trans romance in film and tv so much that ive seen of it, even in more indie media is so.... focussed on what its like suffering bigotry, and in such a leering way

oomfies feel free to hit me up and chat i am always up to make friends i am at worst, just kinda awkward with meeting new creatures

god i forgot i still need to get a new drive for my computer before i can play like, 90% of my games library i still cant afford that and i was thinking about all the treats i cant afford either fuck

i still think of you, sometimes past lives, once intertwined one plus one is one again .. and if you take one away? distance is grasping at stars close, yet so far out of reach i can almost touch you.. hollow now; empty without you.

was trying to write some funny post about getting into findom because im broke but then i realised it was getting to the point where i was just describing sex work man, i wish i wasnt disabled, i wish i had employable skills, i wish i wasnt broke

you know im cooked when im repeatedly watching guides on managing the macro in deadlock i care about this game a little too much

if its as pretty and as immersive as way of water was im so chill with that i know some of the political themes in these movies are uhhh, tactless to say the least but i am kinda a sucker for just getting lost in a fantasy world for a while, and they are so very pretty

not me once again thinking about laundering my distaste through someone else so i dont have to be confrontational it's a problem...

i was really excited to play minecraft with friends but within like, two days almost everyone has stopped playing for various reasons so now im just logging in to a server thats empty almost every time

i think this house wants to kill me

Little Makuta sketch. #makuta #bionicle #bionicleart #2000snostalgia #toys #scifiart #illustration

“Content” is a corpo-brain term, makes me cringe when I hear it in the wild. You don’t make “content”, you make ART! You write STORIES. Its your WORK (and often play too)! “Content” is the noise you flick through when trying to find a SHOW you like, don’t cheapen your work comparing it to SLOP. 😤

need her in my lap...

a taste of serenity please, im so sick of the tribulations

prog making her more of a bottom is soooo good for me

"i'm not sleepy.." she said sleepily

Look, my paws get fidgety while we watch tv and it was right there! Might be a biiit distracting for it though... featuring @beepboopbork.com <3 [ #remiart #furryart #furry #NSFW ]

woah, like bombed by 4lung thats so cool

once again stuggling to sleep, once again too much on my mind at least this time some of it is positive

Lost in an uncaring world Must find the guideposts The sturdy anchors of reality Drawing it back in and making it whole I will not be broken again

Pls be nice, first time Psyche Once whole but brittle Now shattered into a million little pieces Being tugged pulled YANKED in all directions by a torrent of fear and rage All alone but all connected No bandages can fix this This must come from within This world was not meant for people like me

it's important that girls wear big bows that are nearly the size of their face, it's important

exhuming mary wollstonecraft shelley to take her to task for her failures of feminism

half way through my twenties now

getting off on the thought of her fear and confusion as i strip her naked and bind her hands she should be able to trust her mother... face first into the bed maybe she pleads for it to stop, but she moans too, so i know she wants it or at least i can convince her she always wanted it

i need a girl fight, i need to fight a girl i need a girl to think she has power over me before i rip down the illusion with my hands around her throat

call me a heterosexual the way im thirsting for that mail

while looking for old documents for something i found this letter from my grandfather, he used to write me a lot like it, i wish appreciated that more at the time

mailing her a handwritten contract in an envelope with a wax seal using hypnosis make sure she signs it... distance can be worked around

i did a bunch of reading on it, i wanna try hypnotising girls but its still so daunting i have soooo many insecurities idk if there anything i can do now other than just try it anyway

girl who's brain is just 90% brainworms at this point

When asked by Stephen Colbert why he was wearing a mask in public, Tom Hanks said.. “I’ve had Covid enough in my life I don’t need to do that again. I’m wearing this for health reasons” More celebrities need to speak out like this.

girl who has to ask her mom what 5+7 is

its my birthday tomorrow, i hope you got me something good

#MySir #MyGirlfriend

rules - day 12

Age Regressing!? In The Rules Recital! ......rules day 11 posted late because i was, uhh, mentally occupied yesterday >>>

Took the cats out for a walk with my brother and accidentally created a 90s Britpop album cover