cool this is the second instance in a row where my therapist has canceled less than an hour before the session. my last session was over a month ago. very cool how I wake myself early each time for nothing

in all these lobotomy NTR stories it’s the cuck getting lobotomized but what about lobotomizing a girl then stealing her? the love of her life having to watch as she is reduced to an empty, drooling mess that is just led around on the arm of someone better. someone capable of taking what she wants.

I'm also so tired of hearing a random noise and thinking it might be Charlotte and then remembering that she's gone forever. I hate how often ill have a dream where somehow, I see her curled up on the couch like nothing happened. I woke up crying yesterday because I could feel her weight on my chest

I'm so tired of being exhausted every single day...every day I have off, I wind up sleeping 12 to 16 hours...if I get up, I keep going back to bed and waking up to it already being dark out...I hate this...

:3

the gay sex devolved into this pretty quickly

there are wemon in my apartment and they have noticed the copy of warhound and using it as a conversation starter and one of them is carrying it around the apartment. i haven't even read the thing yet and it's paying dividends.

One of the guys at locals won't talk to me and I don't know if it's because I fucked his girlfriend two years ago. I don't know if he knows that I fucked his girlfriend two years ago.

I invite friends over and they ask all these weird questions about my maid. "Is she okay?" "Does that hurt?" "What happened to her makeup?" Like calm down and let it serve you drinks. It doesn't even know where it is right now.

thought i was finally normal and then had the thought "what if someone grabbed me by the throat" and now I'm just kind of squirming at work with my face feeling all hot and my guts feeling funny

lately ive been hornier for yugioh than I have been at sex

jaw actually dropped when I saw this

been doing pretty good for someone who's been unmedicated for over a week *thumbs up*

I'm a good good puppy~

a few guys at locals are unusually nice to me and my stupid ass cannot tell if they're just genuinely being friendly or if they're chasers.

Slowly corrupting the women in my life to play card games

Big sis asked me to pick her up tomorrow for Enrichment early in the morning and im starting to realize I might be starting to become more interested in YGO than sex...

a big sister is a type of girl that makes you tremble in fear at her mere presence

need to get hit need to get slapped around 😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫

Sleepiest girl ever in the world. Safe and warm and fed

I really really really miss my cat...

i have so many books and gunpla and plushies and figures and it makes me so frustrated that i'm not going to be able to sell the majority of these and will have to essentially throw them out. i know i can donate the rest but. still.

burnt out to the point where being threatened has stopped making me feel anything at all. i feel so empty.

i want purpose! i want forward momentum! i want drive! i want passion! i want to stop feeling like a living corpse! i want to have hope again!

i'm just so upset with myself that i always have these 4 day weekends now and i do absolutely nothing with them. no forward momentum. just sleeping all day. sleeping all day. knowing each night when i go to sleep that i'm one day closer to death. waking up and knowing i've wasted another day. tired.

Samus getting ready for Prime 4 launch party 🥳🎉🎉🎉🥳🎉🥳🎉🥳 (the dress she bought was the wrong size 😔)

tgirls are often SWers and IT, but we forget about the tgirl janitor... where is ur love for her... basically maids with less pay ok . im maidcore

today is "be nice to porkchop" day

shoveled off the snow and went and paid 26 dollars for burgers and nugs. all bends to my will etc. etc.

there's next to no food in the house and I would feel like the worst piece of shit ever if I ordered delivery (snowed today) and I dont think its safe to drive so I guess I'll just hide until roommate is out of the kitchen and I can just eat nothing but rice and butter I guess.

really wish my therapist hadnt cancelled today

really miss living alone. I hate how often I have to hide from my roommate because I just dont want to be interacted with

me on a wednesday

Pathetic thing

i wish i had anything i could do for fun where i didn't feel like i'm a waste of space who doesn't deserve to breathe about halfway through

Fat tgirls are maybe the hottest people on the planet

huh what's with these funny little markings

💔

i'm going to be so real, now that NNN is over, I'm like. well now what. what's my next long term goal.

filling

pushed myself way too hard last night...slept for 13 hours...I'm so proud of myself though