when you roll up to the Halloween function but you're the only one in a costume

Today is the day to remember the trans people who died as a result of the active violence directed at our community. In the past year, we have lost so many; from direct violence to deaths of despair following leadership showing bare contempt for our existence and rejection from our communites.

The record keepers need to pay more attention then, I've had lunch with 5 trans women since Tuesday.

Being at a party like this would permanently fix me I think www.tiktok.com/t/ZTMpjb8YH/

i was checking over my selfies from the past couple years to get a transition timeline going and the amount of pictures I've taken since starting to transition has increased by like 5x. i only cried a little bit about that 🥲

being off this site has made me a bit happier, but it's hard to completely shut out the news. was just at the gym and they were playing the news on TVs. i'm tryna get shredded, not exposed to an endless void of misery that pulls out my soul and tramples it thankssss ✌️😘

I really hoped this place would be a safer place than twitter has become. sad to see effort spent to protect bigots and AI over harassed minorities and safety tools. I'm just gonna read more books and less posts I guess. might uninstall, idk

Oh goodie....anyone have a preferred browser that isn't constantly being stuffed full of useless AI garbage?

plz let me do this but in a woman way

I've been throwing around the idea of a sapphic romance story between an automated call center program and a caller who is nice to her.

my laser clinic has how it's made playing in the waiting room. they are catering to their neurodivergent trans clientele very well

Does anyone have any good book recommendations? I'm doing more writing and would love to be more widely read. I've recently got into romance but I also like horror, sci-fi, and some fantasy. Oh and also non-fiction/biographies! I'm about to read Gideon the Ninth and like stuff with queer themes.

REPOST if you SUPPORT everything that TRANSGENDER WOMEN do to uphold the RULE OF LAW!!!!!!!!

increasingly disappointed by people joining Harry Potter projects that I viewed as allies. i guess selling trans people down the river is worth it for them. all profits made from these projects directly fund organizations that seek the removal of trans people from public life and worse.

feeling super inspired to write more, might fuck around and try to regularly post horror short stories or something 🤷‍♀️

I've been consistently going to the gym for 3 months next week! I feel much stronger, more flexible, and moving my body has never felt this easy. I have a ton of more progress to go but I'm genuinely really proud of how far I've come. 💪🏋️‍♀️

me searching through job postings and muting all the AI companies

I was feeling a little down and then I listened to Escape From the City. You're right Sonic, I just gotta follow my rainbow 🌈

Gavin Newsom is anti-trans and I will never, ever vote for him.

Looking at job boards right now is so soul-sucking. Seems like AI has already leeched into every business under the Sun. My company started talking about it too. Please let this bubble pop soon 😩

I've been getting this urge to stream the first few gens of Pokemon games just for fun. That or something I've never played like Metal Gear or Yakuza.

you and your bestie

I've been going to the gym lately and I can really feel myself getting stronger. It's nice to have a small thing I can have control over in a place where so many want to control my body. Trans people deserve more than this.

Me and my partner applied for our passports around the same time a few weeks ago. My partner just put their assigned sex at birth on their application, while I put my actual gender identity on mine. My partner got their passport the other day. I wonder why mine might be taking longer 🤔

Really trying to resist the urge to doompost, I don't know how useful it is to spread my anxieties and fear. But God it's hard to focus on fun creative stuff at a time like this. What a time to start experiencing a broader range of emotions.

With all that's going on, I keep coming back to wishing I could share my emotions directly. Writing is a great format for that, but it can be messy, imprecise, and loaded with unintended connotation.

Transgender people deserve to dictate our own lives and futures. No court decision can change who we know we are.

I wish my local pride didn't have stands for police departments but it's always heartwarming to see everyone ignoring them all day

I'm in such a strange headspace these days. On one end, I'm truly the happiest I have ever felt, maybe the first time I've been truly happy in my life. My reflection has become something I'm excited to see, not something that brings self loathing. I am becoming myself, and I am so ready for it.

No idea if this is a whole job or not, but I think my ideal job would be something like "Magic Flavor Text Writer". Short evocative bursts of writing are so interesting to me and I wish all magic cards had flavor text. (yes I know modern cards have too many words already)

"I just asked ChatGPT..." damn what if you didn't tho

DEVASTATING: very cute queer little coffee shop you just found has mid coffee

taking my estrogen under my tongue now, which means I have 5min twice a day when I cannot yap. this will drive me to injectable treatment soon I'm sure

talked to my doc about progesterone yesterday and he said I should wait to start it so my breasts don't "grow in all cattywampus" lmao

not me getting gussied up for my gender care appointment so the doctor knows I'm for real

I've been resisting the urge to doomerpost since I don't know that it does any good. I hope everyone is doing what they need to make it through, sometimes that's the best you can hope for. Living for a better day is its own form of sticking it to em. Don't let go of love, including for yourself.

I tried to do all the emotions and mourning of relationships before coming out, turns out trying to intercept your feelings doesn't really do much to ease the impact. I wish I could say lesson learned, but I will not learn this lesson.

going to my favorite book store and finding an HP section 🥲

My new video, Notes on Vanishing, is out now. I keep returning to an unthinkable question: is it time for trans people to make ourselves disappear? Enjoy 🌃 youtu.be/cqhiup5qSY8

Lots of folks talking about D&D 5e and house rules lately. I think a lot of the miscommunication between folks are because so many people in the hobby really don't know what the rules of the game are. They are mimicking a version of the game that they saw on an actual play show. And that's fine!

I'm working on a little powered by the apocalypse system at the moment that is giving me a lot of catharsis. It'll be forever before it's something to share but I'm having fun with it!

I've decided that my creative goals are to make a TTRPG writing/game design portfolio in the hopes of working on freelance projects in the future. I just wanna be able to make cool shit and maybe work with cool people in the future.

relic of progesterone

if I catch any of y'all playing the wizard game after this it'll be *ON SIGHT*

me having delusions of poster grandeur after getting a post to 50 likes: "damn maybe I should be online more" (this will be bad for my mental health)

Finally, a video I can point to when someone asks "what kind of trans person are you?"

Had a really good D&D session today! I had an axe trap room that I planned like 6 months ago that went way better than I had hoped. Turns out that having fun with friends makes me feel a lot better, who woulda thunk it???

Happy Transgender Day of Visibility y'all. I'm so lucky to have some incredible trans folks in my life. ♥️♥️♥️ Just know you are visible to me until midnight so be careful with that information...

Currently in a bizarre headspace of experiencing personal joy and then getting bonked back to dread by the state of things. It's like the world is playing a bit of wack-a-mole with my emotions, not fun 😢 I am doing my damndest to chase joy though, even if it's motivated by spite.