Become ungovernable

On the fourth of July, 1980, about fifteen trans women went to one of the most upscale public swimming pools in Milan, took off their tops, and started lounging around. It was a Friday, and the height of the summer vacation, so there were plenty of families with young children around. 1/

As I runner I was fully prepared for getting slower when I started hrt, but it hadn’t occurred to me that I’d get chafing because my thighs were thicker and start rubbing together

‘One of us’ by Joan Osbourne popped up the other day and I realise now that I secretly loved so many middle of the road songs with women singers while growing up in the 90s

Bizarrely this ties in with how long it took me to accept I was trans. I have a real hangup about claiming an identity for myself, this feeling that it would be fake. Feels stupid to compare supporting a football team with claiming a gender identity but it really is the same mental sticking point

I think I have to accept that I actually am an Arsenal fan, I wouldn’t be this nervous/invested otherwise

Just been informed by my wife that I’m ’such a girly girl’ for opening a bottle of rosé as we get the barbecue started

accidentally discovered a race of subterranean superhumans while potholing? vril issue

Ugh, I thought I had until tomorrow to steel myself for the horrors, but of course the telegraph are splashing it the night before

Just misheard ’maypole dancing’ as ‘male pole dancing’. How’s your morning going?

Am I doing #girldinner correctly?

Electrelane were such a good band, I wish I’d managed to see them play live. Apparently one of them’s a Labour Party cheerleader, but I guess I can separate the art from the artist… m.youtube.com/watch?v=Geg1...

I’ve just been informed I missed a bit when I dyed my hair this morning. Oops

There are definitely worse ways to pass a Sunday than a longish run on the downs followed up by drinking rosé in the garden

My mom means well, but comparing life in the uk while trans being much better than eg cancer is not a particularly great way to cheer me up

I remember this every few months for about twenty minutes before it goes back behind the ears

With this kitkat news, I’m reminded that I’ve been ineffectually boycotting nestle for 25+ years

Some Lee Hazelwood and Nancy Sinatra for a lazy Sunday www.youtube.com/watch?v=670Y...

I saw this tweet about Dorley and blasted through it, and my shell, over a few days

I think one of the real challenges in discussing anything to do with trans people is that the media simply cannot accept that the anti-position is entirely eliminationist. There is no way to "exist in public whilst trans" that they will accept, right down to celebrating a doctor quitting.

I’ve a sudden desire to be wandering the alps in this fabulous skirt

Off to see the fabulous Ezra Furman tonight

You Are the Generation That Bought More Shoes and You Get What You Deserve by Johnny Boy is a banger www.youtube.com/watch?v=qp4G...

Fucking hell cis people, please don’t ask me questions about which house I think the sorting hat would put someone in

Arrgh, managed to loose a ring sometime between putting it on and two minutes after leaving the house. I’m not sure I should be trusted with nice things 🫤

Trying to get back to running longer distances at the same time as my body adjusts to slashing my testosterone level is knackering. 15 soggy miles in the drizzle this morning!

I first heard Roz speak in public when I was in the weird pre full social transition penumbra. It was such a powerful moment

Well on the plus side, the 4 hour meeting I was subjected to this afternoon kept me from thinking too much about the latest FU from the British state

Slightly diminish a band They Might Be Taller Than Average

I’ve kept my account fairly pseudonymous, no pictures and not too much detail. This horrific thread from Stella isn’t even one of the reasons for this, because this awful behaviour wasn’t even on my radar as a possibility

An hour late due to being in pub but happy new year and all that. 2025 had a generally shit vibe, so here’s to the year to come

I’m still a bit weirded out by guys ‘after you’-ing me on and off public transport

I’d like to thank Mr Marks and Mr Spencer for the half price sale bras

They might be young marble giants

Ruin two bands by combining them: Throbbing Street Preachers Godspeed you half biscuit Nurse with the trail of dead

I socially transitioned 3 months after my referral, started HRT 9 months after that. Maybe 5-10 years until my first appointment at current rates?

I got a sewing machine and am learning to sew. Oh, and I started sticking estrogen patches to my butt

Why did you transition, wrong answers only I work in a male dominated field, and wanted to improve the gender balance

It’s a rare uk win that our cheap HRT scheme is use agnostic. I presume the newspapers are aware and will launch a war against that fact at some point

Me, a few months into HRT

Stereolab as wonderful as always tonight

Once again I’m at a gig full of old people (for the avoidance of doubt I count myself in their numbers)

@youngvulgarian.marieleconte.com I enjoyed visiting the Diane Arbus exhibition yesterday which I only knew about from your posts, so thank you

Went to see some Diane Arbus photography yesterday. Felt really uncomfortable and self conscious whenever someone got too close while I was looking at a picture of a gnc person

Still going through old resources and this from a 2018 Stonewall research paper (One of the only ones they haven't binned) on supporting trans women in domestic and sexual violence services just broke my heart. Content warning for transphobia, abuse, and bullying.

The Peggie reporting really does show that 1) the media is inherently transphobic and 2) they really will take the contents of press releases issued by anti-trans organisations as factual, despite the spin having been revealed again and again, eh

The idea the EQUALITY ACT makes illegal trans inclusive practices that pre date it is so farcical it's scary and yet that's the reality apparent to the supreme court