Every time I walk into the gym all I can think is that people are saying, “Oh we got Wendy Whaleiams in the building. The whale is trying to get skinny everyone point and laugh.” I know probably no one thinks that but Jesus fuck

I’m so fucking stupid at everything

“I can’t wait to study for my economics degree!” - I say as I study for my economics degree My math homework:

need my lw back rn actually

I’ve wanted to get tested for autism for a long time but now I think it might not be a good idea because the stuff here in the US with RFK

Going to the gym has actually made me more conscious of my eating habits and choices lol

My boyfriend had to put his dog down today

Alone

Idc anymore bro, if I’m even one calorie over my limit I’m purging. Who fucking cares at this point fuck my stupid fucking life

I hate myself

How am I lonely in the community for mentally ill lonely people :/

Do you guys have tips for fasting. I’ve never been good at it

I know I sound like a child, but it sucks not being a prodigy. I can see all the other people out there doing amazing things, and I’m doing nothing.

i wanna be 2000s skinny and I also support body positivity for everyone but myself!!!! I just hate myself lol

Wanted to dress up for a Halloween but I’m an actual whale so I can’t. And I don’t know what I’d do for Halloween either

Y’all like cardio? I personally really like it but most people I ask don’t seem to be fans. I prefer cardio to strength training but I do both

Can’t believe gym bros were right bruh working out does feel good 😭

I didn’t go to the gym the last few days. Ugh I hate periods. I ate like shit yesterday and I need to burn off as much as I can

Had a dream where my mother was controlling my life then I woke up and realized she actually does control my life 💀

No more food ever 😭

Being nonbinary is weird because yes I feel more connected with masculinity but I don’t feel connected with the mainstream idea of masculinity. And also men’s fashion is generally pretty bad

Ugh this semester has been kicking my ass 😭

I love sex but why does it have to be so fucking weird sometimes

Btw I’m sure y’all noticed but I changed my pfp from the sad Toy Story clown because I felt like it made me seem unapproachable

I’m ngl I’m just sad. It seems like nothing is going right and the people in my life don’t know how to deal with my dumb bipolar problems. It’s not their fault. Idk how to deal with them either I wish things were different

My mom’s victim complex needs to be studied

The job I applied to on my campus sent me my rejection letter. What if I just died actually

I hate this class. How are you a philosophy professor and you don’t know how to differentiate ethics and morals. More importantly, how are you gonna disregard a student that tells you the difference, and that it isn’t productive to use them interchangeably in your argument 😒

Being me is so fucking humiliating

fml

Welp, day ruined. It was nice while it lasted

Workout was good! Only did cardio today though because my arms are sore

Going to the gym again today, feeling excited. I stopped going for a long time because when I was 13 (and hadn’t realized I was trans/nonbinary) there was a really old guy in the gym just watching me. He was just walking around the area I was in and watching me. Made me anxious about the gym :/

Other black ppl are so beautiful and ethereal and then I feel like I look so dull and unremarkable. I don’t really get it. I feel like I did something wrong

At my ugw of 112lbs my BMI would still be like 20.5, that’s so fucking embarrassing

Being fat looks so bad on me

Done at the gym and wow my head is clear as hell

I made it to the gym please be proud y’all-

I made egg salad but I think I put too much mayo and it’s genuinely disgusting I’m throwing that shit away

I need to go to the gym today but I keep making excuses in my head. But I WILL go. The only excuse for me not going today is death 😭

Venting to anyone feels like going through a humiliation ritual

Also I’m not new to this lol I had an old account under a different name but I deleted it

Can’t even really dress up for Halloween because it’s like my body doesn’t fit any of the costumes I want

I weigh like 194 rn and I feel really ashamed. I got caught up in the idea of being perfect just the way I am lol and thinking I’m one of those ppl who can eat whatever 💀

Intro Post - Call me Auggie - I’m 21 - My ugw rn is 112 - Had EDN0S/0SFED last time I checked but who knows anymore - Super down for mutuals - Minors please don’t (just don’t) - I’m sorry I’m kind of a whale, don’t hate me :/