This is the Lee Cicuta Library.

when it comes to the idea of "democratizing art" the thing that will actually do this tenfold is giving everybody more free time and not having to work to survive

Finally close enough to our moving date that we can actually start looking for housing in Portland. One of the most stressful parts of this process, wish me luck! Stressed or not, I am thrilled to be even closer to getting back home to my city :)

“What the past decades of immigration struggles have taught us is that we must learn to resist a singular focus on ICE as a rogue agency, looking instead to how the sprawling border policing apparatus has been built up over years as a bipartisan effort.”

they love nothing, they enjoy nothing, they hold nothing dear or sacred, and no one will mourn them when they're gone their eyes are empty and their smiles are fake and their laughter is forced and their joy is manufactured and their victory is hollow and short lived let them tear each other apart

I think a lot of the idea that we can beat the right at their own game is based on the naive idea that the game is fair. It’s not. You can get out the vote as much as you want but the right and their infinite money will simply change the rules so the required vote is 90–10.

The right-wing does not have “less infighting” and they certainly do not have “more fun.” What they have is more funding.

this shit right here is essential to surviving. i recently found out my bad joints are part of a genetic disorder, but even before that i had to internalize that there was no fix. you just gotta work with what you got, not fantasize about fixes that may never exist. it's the only way to keep going

thank you so much for this thread. this hit so close to my heart - living with stage 4 cancer. full acceptance and navigating things with the understanding that its not a personal failure, setting boundaries and dealing with chronic pain (esp new developments) as just a part of my life journey.

please read, especially if you also manage an incurable chronic illness. love this writer thinker human

There were decades of U.S. history where the state paid engineers to detonate dynamite in the sky because they believed it would allow them to control rain. The “rainmakers,” the state funding, and the hype that made it possible reminds me a lot of the tech industry and generative AI hype today.

This is a great thread. The acceptance of your bodily reality, of pain and limitations, and the fact they are a part of you now is hugely important to being able to manage and navigate them. It's also something the rest of the world is aggressively opposed to.

Good thread. Hard to read. Very hard really. But good. Still working on this and might be for a long time.

The acceptance part is a difficult, but necessary part of the process.

I think about mastering my management, but I do not expect a cure. I still learn and try things that help me eke out a bit more quality of life.

This is such a vital thing to process

Many disabled people over the years have been like “no matter how difficult it is, full acceptance of never getting ‘better’ is essential to your wellbeing” And for years I was like “no no can’t do that too difficult too painful.” And then I gave it a try for real and yeah, they’re right.

The real horseshoe theory is in how relying too heavily on Conflict Negotiation Tools can wrap back around back into avoiding/suppressing conflict.

Injured my wrist using my wheelchair and now I really can’t go anywhere 😓

Abrasive GNC women: you are welcome in my life. You are in fact appreciated and loved.

On Fri night, Brooklyn court staff forced a woman to give birth inside the courtroom. Per public defenders, she gave birth in handcuffs, unable to reposition herself, unable to pick up her infant. The men who’d shackled her looked on. The judge lauded the birth of a ‘beautiful baby’ on the record.

Bluntly, the current patriarchal order has made it explicit that it would welcome the annihilation of humanity before the annihilation of the order.

In EPISODE 6 of WHAT REALLY HAPPENED AT PRAIRIELAND, we dive into how the federal government, in official filings, disingenuously defined black bloc as "dark clothes" instead of the correct definition of all-black attire to try to force a new definition that fit the attendees at the 2025

'Surly' is one of many things I've been called for not performing woman correctly, which might have been an entertaining choice at least had it not come from a man who'd assaulted me and specifically because I wouldn't treat him like he hadn't.

Some of those people will, sadly, also be trans. You shouldn't care about what they think either. Life's too short for cowards.

I can highly recommend doing this intentionally. You won't be rewarded for conforming to misogynist expectations anyway. Might as well be yourself from the start.

I am consciously abrasive because it’s the best option to protect yourself in these spaces from performing constant free reproductive labor against your will

The day I figured out the delicate darling shtick wasn't me was the day I experienced gender euphoria for the first time I deeply enjoy not being palatable to most people, the rare few who stick around end up being the most incredible folks and I cherish them

See this in how trans women are treated in activist spaces a lot. It's all "Protect the dolls" until one of us is willing to protect herself and then she's a dangerous monster.

Speaking at least a a butch trans woman, there is no community where you are immune to being seen like that

Abrasive gender nonconforming women, hit me up please!

If you’re a gender nonconforming woman and not doing a complex “I’m so soft and cuddly and sweet and will do everything you ask” song and dance routine 24/7 you *will* be experienced as abrasive by a lot of people. There’s really no way around it.

This summer is going to be long and hot. Remember kids when youre out there abolishing the state, wear a mask and cover any and all identifying tattoos, use the buddy system/go with a group of friends, and have fun out there.

This is where trans people are now. We are numerous enough and connected enough that they cannot isolate us without violence. And the culture we build to survive that violence, to live our lives, is not just a survival strategy, it's how we win.

Fwiw, I think this is why a pivot into cultural and mutual aid work is probably the right move for trans folk. We do not have the capacity to counter this at the institutional level. We tried, we lost. We defeat trans genocide by keeping trans culture and possibility and people alive.

if you’re unfamiliar with voice performance, most people’s voices mature and stabilize MASSIVELY in their 20s. my own voice after age 25 was night and day she was 19 and already this good. trying not to cry thinking of how much beauty and color and mastery of her instrument was robbed from her

when i do get writing again (after all the intense life transitions) i’m going to finally get back to theorizing interpersonal relationships and intimate authoritarianism 🫡

Experiencing so many stressors in life rn that pretty much entirely preclude writing or posting much of anything sorry :/ really just trying to get through and make changes happen in the hopes that it will make other projects possible again.

🙋 your writer friends too. a decent amount of people read my stuff but i probably get an average of 1 to 3 pieces of direct feedback per essay i publish. even a basic “this is awesome!” is appreciated and makes it easier to feel like i’m not pouring this labor into the void.

been majorly depressed for such a long long stretch now. trying really hard to get shit together to change the structure of my life to see if that helps. so emotionally and physically burnt out, exhausted.

I've been bringing this zine to folks for literally 13 years, it has remained such a good and important piece for understanding the conspiracist turn, and also Chino is fucking brilliant. So nice to see this history revisited and this argument re-upped

THIS BOOK WOW WOW WOW

👀 (I've noticed this mostly in scholarship about feminism or trans people, but it certainly seems like a lot of the time the reputation of a book, idea, or work is entirely independent of the actual content. Nobody fucking reads!)

charging incarcerated people for telecommunication with the outside world is pure extortion. think about the difference in experiences between someone who can’t afford any and someone who can afford as much as they want. we even have class hierarchy in our prisons

Anything that has purchase with people—anything they value or care about—can be leveraged or exploited by someone seeking to build their own power. There’s not a single word we can coin that won’t eventually be used against us. This is why building an analysis of power itself is vital.

Block @/dollspace.gay , who is likely Laurelai Bailey, the rapist, fed informant, serial wrecker or leftist and trans/queer spaces, cult leader and apparently now part of the ATProto dev community...

Yeah, the issue here isn't that he believes the computer has the interiority of other humans, it's that he's treating the interiority of other humans as identical to that of the computer. And by other humans I mean mostly just specifically women.

Lots of people call this AI psychosis but it's just revealing a desire for a kind of friendship simulation service you can pay for. This isn't any meaningful kind of psychosis. It's a lack of interest in humanity and a preference for a weirdly shaped mirror that reflects your interests.

Like at a basic level most perpetrators are men and most survivors are women and girls and it seems unlikely to me that dynamic would emerge if "cycles of abuse" had any meaningful explanatory power tbh.

I am, for reasons, steering clear of the discourse du jour for rhe most part but I saw a post related to it cracking on about "cycles of abuse" and I just wanted to say that the whole concept is bullshit and a way for perpetrators of abuse to stigmatise survivors and excuse their behaviour.