Sessions like therapy? No. Any therapy is the thinking I do later on my own. It's all in my head, people. I don't treat people like therapists, because that's not their job. It's all just me figuring myself out. There is so much pressure already on SWers when it comes to dealing with people.

Progression, stagnation, regression: In terms of shyness, eye-contact, chat, whatever. Socialisation in-person is difficult.

"How was it looking in the mirror?" Not good just now! Washing my face, and noticed a lot of milia on my forehead. Will have to go to the skin place to get that sorted... Oh, you mean in the NSFW context? I'm becoming more accustomed to it, getting some good memories associated with mirrors now.

To the person on NGL who wanted more of an explainer, check my Insta Stories, because I haven't got around to copying them to Bsky yet. Instagram.com/stories/tezmilleroz It's not jealousy, but it is a negative reaction. Makes me realise how terrible at socialising I am.

@merlinslaugh.bsky.social Lunch!

"Why are you interested in only solo content?" Because watching two or more people in one scene wouldn't benefit me. Might actually do the opposite. It's best that I err on the side of caution. Probably a symptom of growing up single, in that you know everyone's hooking up but FULL TEXT IN ALT.

"No evidence. No trace." Establishment, you sound like you're planning a murder. Are you OK? You're not even doing Halloween marketing that could possibly explain it - this just sounds creepy. "Just a calmer, more confident you." You doing a money-back guarantee on that? FULL TEXT IN ALT.

Book title spotted: "Sexy Garlic." Um, I find it to be unsexy. But to each their own.

In answer to the question in my NGL: I think all clients are pretty much aware our providers wouldn't spent in-person time with us without us paying for them. (Or without us paying for their things - e.g. "sugar baby".) I'm under no illusion. So developing feels would be pointless.

ngl.link/tezmilleroz I may answer on Bsky, or on Instagram Stories (TezMillerOz), so I recommend checking in on both my platforms.

I’m back on the Bad Place & you can find me there on @realpixiefern Hopefully no one will guess I’m a dirty little slut who rents my body by the hour 🤪 I hate it there but business isn’t the same without it. If you exist on X, go follow me and I’ll send you all the kisses through the ether 🥰❤️

Nettle has (appropriately) claimed the Happy & Polly piranha plant cat tree for herself.

It's embarrassing that it's taking me so long to get where I want to be. I used to get so upset when I thought I'd "regressed". I wanted to make progress every session. I've had to learn that it's OK to be "stagnant", because at least it's not regressing. Five months now. They've been very patient.

Getting to know people online has given me confidence to meet some in person. And we continue to get to know each other better via social media, which helps to enhance our in-person time.

Probably helped when they talked the other day about house hunting - if they get a new place they might get a new incall, and would that work for me. Just a casual thing to say, but it gave me reassurance that they still want to see me in the future - as in not just next week, but possibly months.

When they told me to look in the mirror at Hedon House, that was probably a breakthrough. Maybe they've needed a while to get more talky with me? Possibly because they were following my vibe? I do have the feeling we're similar in some ways.

They said I'd made "progress" today, which is totally something I would say. I wonder if they took note of my post where I thought connection is where people partly adopt each other's speech patterns. I do talk about vibes (as in "the vibe" of things), the only thing I've picked up from them.

When I send ideas to my reg, it's usually in a half-awake/half-asleep state, before I can second-guess myself. Annoying that I get nervy when it comes to that, because my reg's so accepting of any ideas. (Keeps things fresh, I guess, when you're seeing someone once/twice a week.)

"Why you convinced you have no soul?" I'm a realistic person. A soul is not part of the human anatomy. (Yes, I know - I'm so literal and boring. But this boring bitch just added a new bruise pic to my F*tL*fe...)

When the walk-in haircut place happens to be closed on Thursdays, so you can't go for an impromptu trim. Their loss. Could've had my money...

One option of getting your money in a timely manner and without giving commission to the subscription sites: Have people pay you cash in person (or to your Beem/bank), and gift them a subscription. It may mean the sites' algorithms won't pick up on you, but it may beat waiting to FULL TEXT IN ALT.

Some people sell access to their Snapchat, but the app kept spamming me with suggestions to follow, so I deleted it.

@merlinslaugh.bsky.social Lunch!

Forgot who it was I saw ask for mailing list hosts for SWers. I know I've received emails via Wix & Squarespace. Telegram is an app that can handle spicy photos. (Not sure about videos.) But make sure it's a *channel*. (If it's a *group*, people get alerted when new users join FULL TEXT IN ALT.

"So you want an experience to have a particular mood or vibe different to normal or to try out different things. I still don't understand." A mood. Wondering if I'm too casual, too chill, too relaxed. My jokes are pretty much one-sided saucy banter anyway, except I do it publicly FULL TEXT IN ALT.

Shame: My need/craving for external validation. I'm not sure if the correct word is "shame" or "embarrassment", but it's one of the two. Everything seems either much better or much worse when said by people other than me. In short: more meaningful. This is why I don't have a FULL TEXT IN ALT.

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For folks in Narrm or those who’d like to donate to Rising Red Lantern. I’ll be selling zines and fundraising for our community. Please come, share and amplify the cause so we raise $$ for our sisters Book tix here events.humanitix.com/fundraiser-n...

@merlinslaugh.bsky.social Lunch!

Back in my pre-IUD days, I never spoke about "ovulating" or "luteal phase". Noticing now that so many people talk about those things. I deserved a trophy 😉

Sympathies to enby people when it comes to buying a non-gendered multivitamin. Ugh. (I've settled on Centrum Advance.) (It's for someone else - they requested a multivitamin. Not me - I'm cis, and buy the exact vitamins my GP said.)

If you feel weird about having a Throne, maybe opt for people to send you a Prezzee gift card instead. Lots of brands, including supermarkets, chemists, et al. (I received one online once, and used it at Coles in person.) Senders will require an email address to send it to, FULL TEXT IN ALT.

If anyone post-prednisolone has any idea on when your body & brain start returning to how you were before you got on the hell-med (except for the wonderful work it's done on my liver), please let me know. My best bet is to hope for the best and prepare for the worst. Not like it FULL TEXT IN ALT.

Permission granted to stop prednisolone. Will need appointments for early next year, including the scan with the bloke who bodyshamed me. (Me hold a grudge? Absolutely.) Same scanner also told me off for breathing incorrectly, but if he'd given me adequate breathing instructions FULL TEXT IN ALT.

The true meaning of the word "boning" 🦴

From a client/potential client POV, Roladex is actually the best for browsing & searching - comes up with the most accurate results. Scarlet Blue often includes people from other cities - even when I specify Melbourne. Ivy Societe has lately been excluding profiles (though I can find via Google).

Do you have a My Health Record? Be aware that changes are being made to the online medical records system which may impact sex worker privacy.

Have managed to move from feeling, to thought, to sending a text. "Slight dom edge" - closest I get to asking for a mood. Words are difficult, people.

Usually my bisexuality is pretty AMAB-leaning. Saw some mammaries here on Bsky tonight, and I may have actually felt a stirring. Weird. I'm usually quite desensitised to seeing b00bs because there are so many all over social media.

"Impromptu reminder that I fucking ADORE seeing people who claim they are inexperienced, introverted or shy." People think that until they realise how awkward I actually am - which turns out to be a lot 😉

Unpopular Opinion Time! No one needs to know about anyone's 🐓, unless they plan to have that 🐓 inside them. Stop writing songs about people's 🐓!

I got to “dick-matized me” and convulsively shut down my iPad, this is so much worse than anyone’s been letting on lol

Latenite archival BabbyGonz time! Suckit, haterz!

@merlinslaugh.bsky.social Lunch!

@merlinslaugh.bsky.social Lunch!

Pyewacket is a Stage 5 Clinger— he has a lot of very Big Feelings about being placed in a playpen with all the things he needs like food, litter, toys, stuffies and instead thinks he should just be allowed to live the rest of his life on my couch where none of those things are.

Loved the swing/sling to lounge in! But I think I prefer sx on something more stable. Really appreciated the ergonomics of the padded benches. Great for kneeling and propping arms on top. The sacred area for the owner's fallen friends was a lovely memorial. Thank you, Hedon House Naarm/Melbourne.

www.instagram.com/stories/chan... When Chantelle Otten highlights your anonymous contribution to the discussion 👍

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