Current mood or AIM away message, you decide! ~~*My head is filled with disease, my skin is begging you please; I'm on my hands and knees, I want so much to believe*~~

here is my favorite sign from today

Moved furniture last week and now I can paint in the sunshine at least.

Devastatingly low self esteem is just a fucking self-fulfilling prophecy of dogshit.

What a cruel joke it is, this high libido, even just touch can bring tears of relief and pleasure and enjoyment. My brain stops being st ticky, everything is calm. It’s the only time I feel truly present in a moment. I hate it, I hate that I love and need an that I fall apart without. I am pathetic

I’m tired of existing. I don’t have other options though.

"New Far Side comics" was definitely not on my bingo card for this week. They're not bad! www.thefarside.com/new-stuff/

Aaay! Whew... this is a bit out of date.. throne.com/sulfurish

i bring more women kissing to your TL

Tomorrow I’m going to check out a game shop's Combat Patrol for Babies Who Only Know Warhammer From Memes weekly meetup. They're starting a four-week intro and leading into an escalation league and now I have to pick which of the bad guys I wanna be. Leaning Thousand Suns but maybe AdMech?

I wanted to do an art this weekend but I did not. Now it’s Monday and that means work, kiddo, kiddo school stuff, housechores. Maine next weekend.

Must re-arrange living room. Must. Need change. It's the gnarliest tetris puzzle ever. Get high throw on Arab Strap and drag big ass furniture pieces around cause downstairs neighbor is away.

Oh my god, it's here and it's beautiful. Get in the fucking DAP, Shinji. Unboxing photos to cooooome.

Every A.I. CEO is like “We invented a robot that can fuck your wife so you have more free time to mow the lawn!”

sick nasty hell heah @kcls.org hell yeah public libraries

When I was a medic with a 911 EMS service in rural Far West Texas, cops and Border Patrol on scene almost always made our job more difficult. When a postal worker having a stroke slowly dies in a cell while cops look on, people ask "why didn't the cops do their job" but "helping" is not their job.

Oh yeah... I gotta get up and do drugs tomorrow. Shit. There goes the hobby store trip.

I still love this photo and wish I could pull off this vibe 24.7. And also in a cute outfit.

I'm so in love with @wintonkidd.com 's Daisy. The art, the colors, the soft, the smut. I wish I was her! Been using her as a Discord profile pic but I think I should find an artist with similar tastes and styles for something personal, hm.

it's only a small glimmer of light in this sunless dystopia of enshittification, but in case anyone doesn't already know this, the Duck2 search engine can play youtubes in a special window that strips the ads, and has a setting that disables AI slop in both general + image search results #blessings

Can’t decide what to buy on Prime Day? Try: absolutely nothing, and then go support indie bookstores instead 📚

I need someone to fight for me. I wish I could set everything down, let the big decisions get handled, just be background noise while someone else drives the truck.

Just left a meeting where it felt like we met the team that’s replacing us. I truly despise the amount of anxiety this job carries with it. Need other work. Now. Please. So many resumes sent with no call backs already though. 🫠

I need adult support and help and community. Today I drove kiddo to school, now I’m at work, then I pick them up and take them to after school art, then I can maybe do chores or maybe paint for an hour and then pick them up again. I just wanna also do stuff that isn’t chores work Uber 😪

Bless a shower stool for high fatigue days.

I painted my kids Gundam pilot.

Serious Question for Artist Friends: How's your platform for tracking Commissions? Been thinking of putting something together to help my partner track time, materials, patterns, and eventually invoicing, billing, client updates/communications. Saturated market or everything's stupid complex?

working on becoming well-adjusted to a deeply sick society 💪🏻

I got a bunch of new guys to paint. I think.. I officially need an airbrush now at this scale.

Currently at: — only buy tech too old to have AI built in — painstakingly disable AI every time they add it to something that used to work perfectly well — if it can't be switched off, abandon the platform or tool — if there are no good alternatives, avoid the AI parts — patiently wait for the crash

I think it's great when small weird projects grow and make money but it's more inspiring when people continue to do a small weird thing for free if only because it sets a radical example that one can measure success in terms other than the accumulation of money and fame, even in the long term.

Fuck. Fuuuuck. I found this.. I bought the R4, it got here today... and then I find THIS. FUCK. How many times will Amazon let me return electronics? We're about to find out. store.hiby.com/products/hib...

I hope I live long enough to see the pendulum swing back to kindness and hope because I just can't fathom how this level of hatred and selfishness is sustainable.

My PCP has to send in a referral for couples counseling. That’s how fucked up our insurance system is. This isn’t even medical! This doesn’t even involve my PCP! It is a waste of her time! They can’t even give us drugs! Burn it all down (for way better reasons than that one, but that one too).

Hey @dropout.tv / @samreich.bsky.social - I know nothing about this big kid shit, but seems like an excellent opportunity (that should be done anyhow cause fuck Netflix) to court some shows and writers.

No one plays San Antonio. 😩 I'll be going to Austin for HEALTH, Lights, and now maybe All Them Witches. I think part of it is because we don't have good small/mid venues, and since we're an hour and a half from Austin, we all just drive there anyhow. We have half a mil more people too. 😭

Maybe when I get paid on Friday, I go to the strip club so someone can pretend they're interested before I have my scheduled breakdown in the tub.

Today is going to be rough. No sleep, all heartbreak and mean cunt.

What if I just got fucking weird with it and built an mp3 player? eInk display, bluetooth, 3.5mm, a decent chip, physical buttons only. Do I know what I'm doing? Absofuckinglutely not. Will I do it? Probably not as a one off.

I do not want to enable location services. I do not want to create an account. I do not want to sign up for special offers and news about your product. I would like to engage in a simple transaction where I give you money in exchange for a good.

Tried to paint just now. And fucked it all up in the first ten minutes and i'm so emo fragile right now that I just turned the desk lamp off and will go back to useless doom scrolling and games I guess.

Can I find someone on Fiverr that would re-arrange my living room digitally? Like.. if I gave all the furniture dimensions and the room dimensions, can someone help? I'm desperate to move furniture but it's a small space and big pieces and I'm at such a loss.

Got my performance review.

Matron, mother, provider. That's all I'll ever be. I feel so stuck. I don't have a self, and it doesn't really matter that I don't. Everyone's got enough shit going on, it's up to me to care about me, but everyone else's needs come first and now I am and always will be what's left.

I would def have more friends if I was a funny sad girl, not an earnest and sincere all the time sad girl.

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Morning walk

I need this shirt. However I don't think I could get away wearing it to work.