really been going though it. hoping dancing in a warehouse pulls me through 🤞🏻

I am too hot to be on a “dating app”. My “date” should be buy”ing” me dinner and discount margs at “App”lebees

doing her best

just, y'know, i think the universe should give me a W at this point

"god, i feel like shit, maybe i can call a friend of mine for some support... oops, right, can't talk to her about this one, she's my ex meta maybe… oh, no, right, she's at a play party with 3 of her partners... ugh… uummmm… maybe i could call… oh, right, she's my *ex's* meta... well, shit 🙃"

i can agree that leaving the party early and alone is the right call for me, but i can also feel shitty about it and acknowledge that it's the right call because not doing that would make me feel shittier would be nice to have an option that was a clear win for me for once though. been a bit.

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parent talk got me 😮‍💨😢

coymoding

im krystal swords

as previously mentioned…

don't spiral. don't spiral. don't spiral. don't spiral. don't spiral. don't spiral. don't spiral. don't spiral. don't spiral. don't spiral. don't spiral. don't spiral. don't spiral. don't spiral. don't spiral. don't spiral. don't spiral. don't spiral. don't spiral. don't spiral. don't spiral.

hey soooo… did you know i'm actually kinda a lil hot?

honestly i don't even know if anyone's gonna want to use this thing once i get it, but i have to at least have the chance i need this to live, to feel joy, everything

After sexual violence, it's victims who get punished the most. Victims who lose their jobs and have to leave their industries. Victims who lose their friends and support systems. Victims who lose their health and sanity. Perpetrators might lie low, sometimes, before being handed it all back.

sorry, my crotch is being zapped with electricity to remove the hair for surgery, and i can't help but think how close that is and it's bringing up a lot of feelings

"why are you doing bottom first?" well. because i haven't had sex that didn't feel like i was 90% just filling an expected role for someone else in nearly a decade and i hear it's not supposed to feel like that

this is all i really want. why do people hate us when this is all we fucking want? what the hell? 😭

look man, idk what's happening online today, i just wanna time skip to the part where i have a pussy already that's literally the only think i have the capacity to care about

well, my electrologist just assumed i had BA and FFS already, and got shocked when i told her i had never had a major surgery before so im calling that a win?

so, idk, i think i look pretty good in the sports bar bathroom 🙂‍↕️

ever have the kind of anxiety that makes you wanna tear your skin off?

just a big ball of anxiety today. donno why.

someone should let me be a 'lil desperate and whiny with them i have redeeming qualities, i swear, i just can't think of them right now, because i can't think

some nights it's hard to not feel like no one wants me, even if i know that's not true i can hold contradictory beliefs

i am tired. i miss snuggles as i sleep i'm ok. i just miss it 😔

S O A R B E Y O N D

traitors watch party night at the local bar and eric is fucking hot and one i need surgery wtf wtf wtf 😵‍💫

60 daysssssssss!!!! aaaaaaaa!!!!!!!

so, idk, i think i look pretty good in the sports bar bathroom 🙂‍↕️

a haha… what if i didn't wait for bottom to bottom?

i need allies to stop looking at the ongoing horrors that trans people are facing and responding with "wow imagine what will happen when this comes for [others]" yeah that'll suck, can we talk about it happening to us RIGHT NOW? we're more than the canary in the coal mine. we deserve to live too.

They’re birdvestigating Sabrina Carpenter on instagram.

ngl, joining this site in the wake of a very emotionally messy divorce sure has shaped my experience here in subtle yet profound ways

It’s called the linguini canal, Tone. You put your meatballs in it when you’re not usin’ em

i say stuff like this because i find it so incredibly freeing like, so long as you care about the people in your life and about people in general beyond how they can benefit you, and you do your best to live that way…? you're a fine person, and it's ok to not be everyone's friend

everyone's annoying to someone everyone's endlessly endearing to someone else it's not about being "cool" or "annoying", because we're all both simultaneously. it's about finding your people who think the unique shit about you is cool, and accepting the ones who think that same stuff is annoying

i’m sick of having to explain that these things are safety concerns to have anybody listen, it’s about dignity, what would it feel like for you if going to an r rated movie meant showing a man a picture of ur pussy to prove you were 18? that’s what this is supposed to _feel_ like

i'm so proud of my city 🥲

pick me girl, but for jury service

i'm not autistic, i'm just fascinated the normal amount by how people in a waiting room self-organize for near optimal personal space for every individual

annnd… audio from tonight's stream! www.mixcloud.com/becsIsOnline...

"acid tech house" is this a thing? i REALLY want it to be a thing

alright, calling for a moratorium on any trannies that fled the US already telling those of us still here empty platitudes like "the government cant detransition you" like yeah if they take our hormones and healthcare away they literally can glad that we're all still valid or whatever tho

ugh, one of those sets where i was thinking about how i just got called for jury duty more than the music, and i kept missing my cues even tho i practiced a lot of those transitions before, esp the genre hops ah well, i'll do better next time

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