i saw dylan mulvaney and hayley williams walk by within 5 min of sitting down at this bar

i am overcome with a deep sadness every time someone on love is blind says “i just want to be chosen”

ok reviews are coming out for pillion, the alexander skarsgard bdsm biker movie, now which means i can tell you guys that this was the biggest pile of shit i ever saw as part of a test audience for this movie

This is my regular reminder to everyone that jstor is open to the general public now; a free account there will give you access to 100 papers a year.

i long to become an audiobook narrator, not for love of the game so much as because 95% of them are ass and i need to show them how to read aloud

my book is amazing, and a true achievement, and also it sucks and no one will ever buy it, and i should walk into the sea

it's funny that most of these are words we adopted from french. taking french made me a better speller! the spelling rules of french are also just. perfectly satisfying. brain scratchers. i even love that they put on a little hat to commemorate fallen letters anyway mine is embarrassing. no really

today i will become more Blue

gideon got so excited about domming me that she got a spontaneous nosebleed...what in the emma (2020) romantic shit

i watched the cyberbullying documentary

i met a dog at the park today and we fell in immediate love. she sat on me, kissed me, and would not leave to the point that her owner was forced to befriend me and exchange numbers so we could embrace again. she’s my fav kind of dog: one that looks like you could draw it with a series of rectangles

how do i get better at chilling at home alone. like part of me craves it but a bigger part of me is like nooo i want company at all times

watching the wolfybutch drama go down while being a goth-adjacent femme dating a butch who also has a thirsty following, many kinks, and an ex who hates me is like being visited by the ghost of internet future. there but for the grace of god and the fact that i never show face on the internet go i

to no one’s surprise, Alecto the Ninth

had to quit ellipsus, the typing delay was killing me :(

nyc has entered False Autumn (the seasons here consisting of Halcyon Summer / The Floods / Unending Hell / The Floods Again / False Autumn / More Hell / Storybook Autumn / The Holidays / Joyless Gray Hell / The Winds / False Spring / Runny Gray Hell / The Horniest Spring in the World You're Welcome)

i had to drop out of a vacation with my friends this weekend bc i caught an awful cold and im so sad 😭

gideon and i went dancing with this gorgeous girl with black curly hair down to her waist and we were making out on the dance floor passing her between us and some OTHER girl none of us knew turned around and tried to join! imagine having that level of confidence. she should run for office

"why do people write about Bad stuff, when they could write about Good stuff instead" is a fascist take on art, even if the people making the argument have no idea that's what it is. you can arrive at fascism very easily if you start from "everything ought to be nice... and i'll decide what nice is"

my parents bought me a new entryway bench after gideon sat on my last one and it broke so today i got to do Building Puzzle and use my favorite screwdriver and it was so so so fun :)

if you stand up from your seat before the train has come to a stop, forcing the stander before you to let go of the metal bar and try to surf as the train brakes: i hate you. why are you like this

every beautiful woman in nyc is wearing the same pair of jorts with boxers showing. and airpod max over ears. and kitten heels. and little sunglasses like in the matrix. and a boyfriend who sucks

gen z now receiving the millennial treatment (gen z stare, don’t know how to answer the phone) and cannot handle it. ridicule comes for us all. relax into it

i am. melting

gideon just went viral on [social she has tons of followers on] for being hot and it's really illustrating how bad lesbians are at flirting

gideon always has a pride hookup (i was last year’s) and this year the pride gods sent us a very cute delaney rowe lookalike who hit on us both just after midnight on june 1

third session with the new therapist today and she had me sit on the floor and locate my feelings in my body and it was surprisingly exhausting. my predominant reaction to having feelings in my body is “get out of there!” which apparently is not correct

what people think betaing is: fixing typos what betaing actually is: knowing what a verb of speech is, and, more importantly, what it is not

my walls remain blank because i am holding out for the ungodly amount of money i need to buy custom giant framed prints of my favorite paintings

Hey, this is gross! Anyone considering doing anything similar to this: don’t!

i am on vacation :)

she’s here! archiveofourown.org/works/64996612

update gideon’s mom is so chill it is almost unfathomable to me. i mean i wrote a whole book about my mommy issues and my mom has never addressed the subject. gideon’s mom said “i was basically my sister’s parent” and gideon said “a trauma we share” and then they both guffawed and high fived

90s Noah Wyle as Richard in The Secret History. You agree

i am meeting gideon’s mom tomorrow and i would already be a little freaked out about it if gideon DIDN’T have a giant fucking purple bite mark on her arm and zero shirts with sleeves

gideon (spotting a piece of garbage in the river and getting that eco conscious look on her face) me: puppy no gideon (already taking off her shoes) puppy yes

yes yes rockstar eddie/groupie steve but also consider this

anyway today i argued with my endocrinologist by text for several hours until she finally gave in and agreed to treat me for the hashimotos she diagnosed me with. 🎉

drs: well your lab results are normal me: (from a pool of blood on the floor) oh ok then sorry for making a big deal or whatever

i love begging doctors to treat me for my diagnosed and documented illnesses. it’s really cool that everything that has helped me over the last 2 years has been from my own stupid uninformed research and not from medical professionals considering that maybe i would prefer not to feel like shit

i’m sick again and i want to walk into the sea

my grandma just learned how to react to messages with emojis and now she is going wild hearting and emphasizing every message i send her

the marriage plot made it to 100 kudos 🥲

cw: overnegotiated kink

i got tied to another dyke last night in a predicament where we had to trade off putting weight on each other's bodies. so so fun to have a partner in suffering. also i tried coconut rope for the first time and LOVED it, everyone called me insane for asking if people really find it painful

she nailed the interview thank you everyone

the blackberry ✨️

everyone beam good thoughts toward gideon who is having an absolutely shit day at work and has a job interview scheduled in a few hours for a new day job that she really really wants

Spectacular view of 100,000 people attending the #HandsOff march in NYC