ik we're all on mentally ill dot com so there's bound to be trauma and pain, but i sincerely wish the best for all my moots & oomfs. u guys are so kind, funny, supportive, & creative and deserve to be happy & fulfilled

so far so good today but it's the nights that have been killing me

late april log

I need to start counting calories again I need to lose weight so bad

fiance and I have been together for 3 years as of yesterday!!! they got me flowers and strawberry protein shakes and angel food cake and strawberries 😭

been an alright couple of days, food wise. Hopefully getting back into the groove of things

m0dding $ kyr1m on pc takes FOREVER

doin good so far today, tho I'm kinda junkorexic-ing it. had veggie steak tips with fries for lunch and probably gonna have hal0 t0p for dinner

fiances first night at the new job!! I'm kinda anxious idk why. Just a lot of big changes to the schedule

did pretty good yesterday, actually, and didn't drink either :D

AGH my therapist is gonna be out of the office til MAY. my substitute therapist better have availability this week bc i really need it lowkey

between the news about the baby and the fight we had a few weeks ago I really think me n fiance need to see a couples therapist 😮‍💨 I love them so much but our communication isn't great and our fights, while infrequent, have gotten worse and then there's the shit about bug's genealogy and yea

i ask, "how could u tell i was neurodivergent" & i'm looking at u like this

hhhh. starting TOMORROW I will be LOCKED IN

Happy Leland Melvin day to all who celebrate. 💚

been sporadically logging meals and then fucking up again, has not been a great start to April ugh. at some point I'll get my shit together

I hate ai

so genuinely excited by the idea I might get my old job back like nothings confirmed except that they have a position open but I'm still friends with everyone who works there including the manager (I mean, I just snapchatted her about the job lol) so like maybe this could be good

yknow while I'm stressed about logistics with the baby and our one-vehicle situation, I'm actually kind of excited about getting a job. I haven't clocked in anywhere in like 3 years

feeling unsettled

happy trans day of visibility!! 🩵🏳️‍⚧️✨ #tdov #transdayofvisibility

did amazing yesterday bc I had shirataki chik'n noodle soup for dinner and didn't drink

oh boy. fiance finally found a new job, but it's a $6/hr pay cut. things are about to get so tight

everyone is locking in today... this week we will be achieving our goals pinky promise 💫

was given an unpleasant revelation today that I don't rly wanna talk about on here directly but uh. shit.

134 years ago this cartoon was drawn, and in 134 years the problem has only gotten worse.

bug is so funny you can ask him "are you bored" and he'll say "yea!" but then you ask "are you having fun" and he says "yea!"

ive made too many excuses this week it is time to LOCK in

do any of you listen to f0lk pvnk. i am up to 120pm playing the Coffee God and Cigarettes intro yeehaw (the goal is 150)

trying to be gentle with myself after a couple of days of binging. compensatory fasting and shit only ever leads me to crazy binge/restrict cycles. meal plan for today is a couple microwave meals so I don't have to spend so much time in the kitchen

okay yesterday wasnt a Good restricting day but I did calm the wicked overeating down. ate like, a normal amount, I think. Hopefully I can be back under 1000 today and back on track by the end of the week

“Low intake means you won’t lose weight!” “Super low intake will make you gain all the weight back!” “1k+ cals is better cause you won’t plateau!” STFU pls and let me proud of my sub 800 intake in peace 😭😭

okay so AI is absolutely cratering imminently and I need all of you to PROMISE me you won't take the high road, and will laugh and rub it in their faces as much as possible. I need you to laugh and go 'WE TOLD YOU SO, BITCH" at every opportunity, PLEASE be extremely mean and ruthless

spent the entire weekend eating everything 😮‍💨 back up from 142 to 146 I really hope most of this is food weight

it is a Nice Day...... porch banjo or porch uke???

GUYS I am practicing Mama by MCR on my uke and Bug was watching me, and I got to the bridge where it goes "MAAMA! MAMA!! MAMAAAAAA" and he started singing along 😭😭😭 I played the bridge like 3 times just to hear my not-even-2 year old singing along to my chemical romance

i’m sorry but nothing could ever make me like pickles

how it feels being on edsky with ppl doing everything from pursuing psychology degrees to smoking crack but we're all united by this fuckass illness

drvg test tmrw I've been off weed for a MONTH please gods let me pass please for the love of fuck

updates: my fb friend request was accepted 🎉🎉🎉

things that annoy tf out of me: my scale app rounds to the nearest .2 lbs but when it syncs with fitbit it gives me the exact odd number

other cool snacks I got today: ordered these online bc ever since beyond meat's jerky got discontinued I've had an insane jerky craving that cannot be cured. it's really good!!!! the black pepper has the best texture but the flavors great on all of em

have u guys tried these???? 28g protein for 150 CALS and they're actually really good. got a bit of an artificial taste but idc about that personally