how i feel today

tbh it seems like some of the weight i've gained has gone to my ass which historically has not been the case so i'm not happy i gained but like nice that it was there 😇 now i just have to get rid of whats on my stomach arms back thighs and calves 👍🏻

there's always some fucking man outside when i'm out there.... they need to patch this bug already

spot the difference btwn her & the egg croissant ...

heellloooooo ! too poor to binge rn (or buy food at all) so i have been losing a bit again 😞

two eggs + egg whites, half a mini avocado & mozarella slice on sourdough w strawberry matcha. 10,000cals i think

genuinely i need to be put on a sedative, it's tiring being this neurotic all the time

saw the jűjvtsǔ kǎïșèn special theater premiere tonight and my GOD, THESE BITCHES GAY !!!!!!

i feel things too intensely, it makes me sick

cishet men r so fragile my god

chicken & farmer's market zucchini pan cooked w butter + heirloom tomato for dinner, >1200 cals total & a net of 500-600 😋

I LOVE ZUCCHINIIIII

#xsstyle #⭐️yle

#xsstyle #⭐️yle

perhaps... we are so back after all ?

walked 3 miles & did a glute workout ᕙ໒(˵￣ᴥ￣˵)७ᕗ ‼️‼️‼️

i got 8k steps in an hour walking this morning, but my eggs fell on the floor of my car to keep me humble ig

what is it called when i think someone is upset w me but they havent told me, so i get defensive & think of things they have done to upset me & get mad back. is that just narcissism or

walked an extra mile today so we're at 3 w 7k steps! some r from last night tho. i rly think i gotta go for a new walking pad

i didn't binge! i ate over 2k cals but i did not binge & i lost 2 lbs of the water weight i've been piling on. i did overeat bc i had 2 cupcakes that were 300 fucking cal & then ate ramen after the bar when i shldve just gone to sleep or eaten a non-processed food but i was nearing a binge & didn't!

i have successfully restricted so far today so 👍🏻

i'm out w friends & noticing my skinny friends habits around eating is so 🤨📝

both spotted right outside my place. never kill urself 🌈🦌

down in every way except this

i need to buy a new walking pad, the heat is insufferable. i like the idea of walking outside but the practice... 👎🏻

i was so ready for summer lookin at pics like this and now it’s too hot i want it gone 💀 #xsstyle

all of my clothes r tight like nothing fits me comfortably unless it's oversized.

i didn't avoid a binge but i hadn't eaten much throughout the day so i think i lost anyway, that's how bad it's been. i was so close, but my rm offered me candy & i didn't say no so it just snowballed. massive L

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the relayshunship goalz

i fear i will b thinking of this pic 4ever #xsstyle #⭐️yle

i went for a walk today & planned out all my meals so 👍🏻 breaking the pattern

hi gang ive been in the worst binge cycle of my life <3 might kms

took my walk & currently getting ready for work, how r we doing today

bye i lasted 15 minutes. it is fucking SCORCHING outside. & tbf i probably picked the hottest time of the day but idk how anyone can be out there rn. it says it feels like 93f but i usually last 20 minutes until i break out into a full body sweat. my forehead was dripping in 10

i need to update my profile layout i think... perhaps after my walk. wish me luck, it's hot as hell again

yday a guy stopped me to tell me i looked "v pleasant" which i think is a funny way to describe me while in public 😭 but still v sweet. & then today a guy told me i smelled good but i didn't have perfume on & idt my shampoo is strong, but i'll take it anyway ! my parasitic pheromones r working.

370cal for lunch. egg w edamame & spinach mixed into the rice, which i cooked in bone broth. 25g protein.

i'll be back to my regularly scheduled spam posting soon, i'm in my "just don't binge" phase & having varying degrees of success. yday & the day before were good tho. it's not exciting to talk abt though, to say the least

farmer's market haul !! this dark chocolate nųtěllǎ pastry is so dry 😭 but nothing some 0 fat whipped cream can't fix. white peaches, heirloom 🍅, & zucc ♡

RAAHHHHHHHHH

more deer ♡ everything was so lush & green from the rain

i was lowkey kinda busy today. i got my nails done bc i was given a gift card for my bday & they're SOOOO CUNTYYYY i hope the artist posts them asap so i can show u the good pics. had to run to work, & then walked when i got home bc the rain cooled the air finally :•)

crazy this has happened twice, but another man stopped me on my walk to help w a another wounded animal 😭😭 we think this lil guy got hit by a car, his back leg was very injured ):

i'm so sore from getting back into pilates omfg. even my chest hurts?? probably from the ab work but Lord

phew !! good morning

i look so big today. bc i AM so big! go figure.

i'm off work today, yippie!! i've walked for 45 min and did around 45-50 mins of pilates. it was kicking my ass tho ): literally - my hips hurt (my right hip specifically) so bad while i was doing hip openers ): ig i have to take it easy but i think smth might be wrong w the structure

I hate how when stopping binging progress isn’t just quitting binging cold turkey, but rather binges getting smaller over time, and having to accept the times you just overeat and not letting it turn into a binge. I just want to go back to perfect restriction immediately