Why am I so sad right now?

Henlo all my frems and furs!! I hope you all have had wonderful days today. Today is a day of for me cause it's DnD night!!! But I will be working on developing more of the scenes and such for my stream so that the new theming of it all is done (and maybe even nicer looking too!)

Ni ni frems and firs :3 may you cause mayhem and chaos tomorrow in the best ways possible

Afternoon Fun!! || Now: Diablo 4 twitch.tv/kolkhaos #furry #furrylive #furtify #furrywatch

Gonna go ahead and get ready to go live early today!! Setting up now, see you all soon!!

Gonna stick to Dablo because it allows me to talk with people more than Marathon would. Idk, I want to create a cozy or easy to relax in stream and I don't think me being hyper focused in Marathon would be helpful

Okay, diablo tonight? Y'all chill with it?

As a note, plans still are essentially to stream in the evenings but today we continue in general to get our ducks in a row and be back to normal (normal being functional in this moment)

More sleep Then we continue 👀

So.... Eeepy

Stay awhile, and listen! || Now: Diablo 4 twitch.tv/kolkhaos #furry #furrylive #furtify #furrywatch

To all my @furtify.bsky.social #furtify members: Don't forget to use Bsky's function to show you are live with your PFP.

oh this blew up give your money to trans people and stop using AI

yeah we can tell, jay

Hmmmm I have a thought for stream tonight. I think I will do it instead because it's cozy for me and I won't have to tinker too much

We okay with say Marathon? If not maybe some more Minecraft mod experimentation

I just spent 10 minutes talking about my cat with a stranger Yeah... I am that weird cat dude officially now.

I have PT this morning but am thinking that we get some sort of strim together today :3

It's midday which means it's time for Luna's favorite activity: SCREM

Frems!! I know on Thursday I said I would do a stream today (Saturday) I forgot it's my wonderful wife's birthday and I will be spending the weekend celebrating with the her. Dontcha worry though, we will be back Monday!

Yeah my arm is the villain of my day right now And the hero?? What is this some sort of Jekyll and Hyde?

Honestly, the worst part of this recovery now is that my arm, while better, still is making it hard to sleep cause of all the recovery stuff entailed.

Okay, so 600 has been crossed now to get the next steps of 750 and regular streaming in... I can do it. Right???

Well... that's the boldest and stupidest bot I've seen in a while:

Gooood Morning! Can you believe it, it's a Kol Stream! #furry #furrylive #furrywatch #furriesontwitch #furtify twitch.tv/kolkhaos

Alright, I just woke up.. again... Here's the plan, I will stream in the morning so I don't have to worry about waking up my wife. For now, I get to do stretches and other exercises to help ease the tension and strain on my arm. Also, to eat food.

Uhhhh okay I just woke up Y'all stil want the stream

Getting sleep now, when I wake, the stream will be live in the night time as usual. Thinking Minecraft for sure.

PT session 2 done Can very much touch my shoulder more already

I touched my shoulder. Just the tip of my middle finger but, it's more than I could just a week ago. Now to do it with more ease.

I'm thinking... I want to do some small design changes to my protogen ref to include the scar (and eventually both scars) on his elbows. There's definitely something I will be needing to accept as part of who I am with it, and maybe that'll help

Today: Somehow, Kol has returned.

Finally took my first look at the incision site on my elbow. Way bigger than I anticipated. Admittedly I'm embarrassed to look at. Heck I was already afraid it would look horrible but now I just am dumbfounded by it. Having to now touch it, massage it, stretch it, and face it is unnerving.

Also... 600 followers on Bsky Holy...

Whoa... Good morning everyone!!

Every time something extra happens at work, I just hear Clare from Derry Girls screaming “JESUS CHRIST” in my head

Plan is for streams to start on the first. This is not an April fool's joke but it is when I was planning on being back! I am loving marathon but perhaps something more relaxing and easier to watch will be streamed instead :3

Huh... I could have sworn I heard rev a second ago, but now there's just a big pile of paper here

I'm very, VERY much working to make sure I can get back to streaming this week!! I'm excited to be functional again, and I want to make sure I'm providing content that is both fun for me, and for you all as always. (I also am hoping to get my sleep back to normal-ish soon but if not, oh well)

Man, I could have sworn we have had Luna for longer but we aren't even at the 6 month ownership mark. Wild! Anyways here's her in a box

@theravenchilde.bsky.social it's like we knew lmao

Tired of being whatever I have been. Need to start choosing to get up and try again, not letting shit just stop me cause I am afraid. | This Loop || I need to not repeat |

We in there :3

Daily interaction bait go!!

It really is the little things

I always have felt like when I am in groups it's always been along the lines of "they only want you around cause you are nice, but also so you don't bother them", kinda like a pet ... I hope I am not just included by y'all for inclusion's sake, I want to believe others want me around...

I feel like my cycle of depression is shorter and idk why

Tired...

Free advice: - Stop hiring the same four dudes to open and shut studio after studio and walk away with buyouts and large severance packages while the people left behind are destitute. - The millionaires at the top of these companies are ruining the industry, not the working devs. - Tim Sweeney stop.

Physical therapy scheduled. My fears tied to it are not in the action of going but what it all means/t. The lack of full control over part of my body scared me but I am already seeing progress by just gently helping my body to recognize and remember it's range of motion. Our bodies are wild.