So sleepy...

FINALLY done cleaning for the day. At almost 4am. Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. Good night y'all.

With how tired I already am, and how much I have left to do, I am gonna go ahead and call off stream tonight. Wednesday the 15th is also a big maybe at this point. I *should* be good for next Sunday (the 19th), but we'll see. Will try to make up with xtra streams where I can in future months. 🐻🫂

So much fucking cleaning to do today. And I want to do none of it. I am a tired bear. I want to take bear nap. But alas, I cannot.

🎶 one of these things is not like the otherrr ~ Love my friends 🧡 @nearlysquid.bsky.social @centurioncalbar.bsky.social @kelteo.bsky.social

orange and blue go well in the springtime! 🌱 for the biggest bear out there @centurioncalbar.bsky.social 🧸

Friends have continued to encourage Big Calbar thoughts. I approve of this.

Stream was a blast tonight! More good progress in Hitman (finished the four H2 side missions, started Patient Zero DLC). And also, we got to 300 followers!!!!! Thank y'all so much for showing up, lurking, saying hello, and keeping me company when I'm winding down for the night. Big bear hugs!! 🐻🫂

at www.twitch.tv/calbarthebear, starting at 10pm U.S. Central! (2200 UTC -5)

Happy #InternationalAsexualityDay to all my ace friends out there!! Let’s make asexuality more visible!!

🐻🐻🐻🐻

1am chicken nuggets hit different decidedly mid, but they hit the SPOT

Happy International Asexuality Day from this big fat ace bear! Big bear hugs for all of y'all, but especially my fellow ace folks!

Ol' reliable breakfast: 2 scrambled eggs w/ black pepper & chili powder, and 2 freezer waffles w/ maple syrup. Quick to make, fairly quick to eat, and delicious every bite.

Happy International Asexuality Day ♠️🐘⚪💜! #AsexualityDay Art by Miaolu (x.com/14ml_)

Vtuber for @guie404.bsky.social ! He's a Binturong! He has a naked alt and 4 expressions :D!

Hate to do this, but no stream tonight. Slept a bunch because I was nursing a headache all day, so I'm now behind on house cleaning stuff (and also still have said headache). I'll try to get a couple streams in later this week, but we will see. Things are up in the air for the next few weeks.

Most effective kabedon

Inspired by a chonky coyote, a big blue dragon, and a BIG boar, I am once again thinking about Big Calbar being very, very big. Y'all are gonna owe me some repairs to this nice cabin I worked so hard building once I get back down to normal size. ... Also, when are we getting lunch?

Pop quiz! Is the bear currently: A) fat. B) hungry. C) sleepy. D) all of the above.

Definitely still not used to stream viewers (and friends on other occasions) complimenting my voice & saying they like it. Gotta work on getting used to that.

Tons of fun in Hitman tonight! Got through NINE of the bonus missions (the "Sarajevo Six" DLC and the three base Hitman 1 side missions). Hopefully gonna stream both Saturday and Sunday this weekend to make up for the coming weeks of possibly not streaming. Big bear hugs for y'all! 🐻🫂🧡

The big bear agent returns for even more contracts! Will he be able to sneak around these levels, or will his heavy footsteps give him away? Come find out at www.twitch.tv/calbarthebear, starting at 10pm U.S. Central! (2200 UTC -5)

Godspeed, Integrity. Godspeed, Artemis II.

SICK

I am so excited this afternoon. The Artemis II launch is set for in an hour or so! I was absolutely one of those kids who wanted to be an astronaut, so I have always loved learning about space. So yeah, this bear is definitely capable of 'tism ramblings about space stuff.

Watch out for a big bear in your area! (He's not dangerous, but he does want a LOT of snacks.)

Fishing Day with Boys I just felt creative today and decided to draw my oc and rest of the guys oc fishing and chilling. @berspring.bsky.social @centurioncalbar.bsky.social @chippds.bsky.social

Going to stream tomorrow for sure! Don't know what yet, but I will be there! Sunday is up in the air, though. This bear is looking at quite a busy weekend, so I don't know if I will have the time or energy.

The bear is making some BIG plans for the summer...

Studious First-Year, for Secrets of Strixhaven! watercolor & gouache

Oh lawd he farmin! (wheat for bread ofc hehe) 🐻🍞 @centurioncalbar.bsky.social

Happy Trans Day of Visibility and "go buy your trans friends a nice snack" day to all the awesome trans folks I know (and the countless more that I do not know)! Y'all are amazing. Big bear hugs for all of y'all. 🐻🧡🫂🫵 🩵🩷🤍🩷🩵

Happy #transdayofvisibility to my homies ❤️ I know these are very rough days, but I love y’all and will do what I can to support you ❤️

Time for this bear to go to bed. Have a good night, y'all! Biggest bear hugs for ya.

So, a couple months ago, I estimated just how much Big Calbar weighed using a method @dragontzin.bsky.social showed. Turns out, I was off with the old math... by about a ton. Big Calbar doesn't weigh 4900 pounds; he weighs over 6700 pounds. Oh boy.

Going to pass on the stream tonight. Working late and still tired. Also frustrated due to life stuff, and I don't wanna bring that onto the stream. See y'all Wednesday, hopefully. (If life stuff does not interfere. Will say more later.)

My name is Calbar. And as I say several times a week now, I most certainly am a big fat bear on the internet. But I'm a fat guy offline, too. And I'm finally starting to be happy with that.

Still laughing at how right after I met @bearandbeagle.store at TFF and picked up stickers, I was still super excited to see them in-person again... ... and did the usual thing of "Ooo, wait, lemme give you a sticker!" To the person who printed those very stickers. I am beary silly.

That weekend was absolutely wonderful. I really needed that. Did I plan to go to TFF this year? Not until about four weeks prior. Am I glad I went? More glad than I could possibly imagine. Will I be going again in future years? Abso-fucking-lutely!

BEARS BEARS BEARS

I think today might be the first time I've literally met more people than I can remember. But I met so many amazing folks at @kingwizardwolf.bsky.social's Unofficial Fatfur Meet! Highlight of the weekend for sure! (Seriously, if you met me there, please feel free to say hi!)

I know I like my suits to show off the tum, but this is SHOWIN' OFF!! @jsoulskater.bsky.social Thank you SO MUCH for drawing this for me!

Calbar THEE distinguished fat bear in his fancy suit! (which he might need a new one, AGAIN?) 🐻 @centurioncalbar.bsky.social

Body at 7pm: Tired as hell. Brain at 7pm: Sorry, we gotta stay up and finish work and prep for the exciting day tomorrow. --- Brain at 1:30am: Alright, time to sleep! Body at 1:30am: Hahaha, so we're actually not tired anymore. --- Whyyyyyyyyyy

FINALLY made it to my room for TFF! All checked in and reg'd. Need to rest and rehydrate before I think of doing anything. But then... THE BEAR IS H O N G R Y!

Feelin much better this evening! Thanks for checkin in, y'all. Big bear hugs!

The bear's anxiety is real bad out of nowhere today... Big bear hugs for all of y'all.

Well, I got tilted after three runs of the new mission, so we spent 2/3rds of the stream playing Megabonk instead. But overall, stream went well!

The big bear returns to the Origin System to chase down The Shadowgrapher! Come watch him play the latest update to Warframe at www.twitch.tv/calbarthebear, starting at 10pm U.S. Central! (2200 UTC -5)