Happy New Eggnoggin', y'all.

In less depressing news, I just had my first Malort experience, and I survived. Tasted like I was making out with a used race car's tire. Made me wistful for my days of youth in the paddock at the club racing track.

2025 was pretty awful in that I learned that I wasn't good enough anywhere. Streaming. Pinball. Speedrunning. Relationships. I failed or fell short everywhere. Enough of that. I'm working harder to be a sound voice in awesome spaces that want me around just as much. Hope 2026's better!

Merry Christmas to all who celebrate! Hope you remembered to leave cream out for your Hobb last night! 🎄🥛 If you forgot, we strongly advise you begin the process of evacuating your home.

As I drink the milk and cookies set out for Santa, because he sure isn't visiting here, it falls on me to remind you that, once again, NORAD and Google couldn't agree on Santa's whereabouts tonight. Enjoy your last sleep before Christmas, ya scamps.

yeah i know they added a button that makes hired goons show up at my house and beat me up and steal my tv whenever anyone pushes it but if i leave twitter ill lose my audience 12:23 PM - Dec 23, 2025 - 6 Views

"All naughty behavior will be legal and unobserved for the next 24 hours." [Purge sirens]

To anyone who says they can wrap presents without using a bunch of tape: No you can't. You're not real. Stop trying to convince the rest of us that you're real. What are you trying to prove, huh? You think you're better than me?! I'll tape the hell out of you! Don't hold me back!! I'll show them!!

Bluesky I am BEGGING you please let me turn off reposts on a per person basis.

I know he means well, but I don't think my dad realizes how much it takes to muster up the courage to use his weight equipment, and him strolling in telling me how I should adjust and change everything as soon as I begin destroys that courage. Just gonna wait until he's preoccupied next time.

Eliza is 50% off. It’s a fully-voiced visual novel about an AI therapy app. It was released in 2019, years before the idea of AI became what it is now. How much did it get right? What did it get wrong? Play it for yourself (play the whole thing) and decide. store.steampowered.com/app/716500/E...

we can kill them all if we just work together and ✨believe💫

so the last 10 hours of life have been a huge fuckin mess so im late! 45 mins late in fact! BUT I AM LIVE. AND ITS STILL KINDA 7ish twitch.tv/serfins LOSMAS BEGINS TODAY YOU FUNGOS

YEP EVEN A LOSMAS SCHEDULE. Please note this isnt concrete but should give you a good idea of how things will shake out! Startin late night , a reset during the weekend and day streams till the holiday! FF4 first playthru and more! SEE U SUNDAY NIGHT 7PM

I might've overdone it on the night coffee tonight, given the intrusive thoughts are roaming free in my head at way too late an hour. At least I feel like it's mostly a net positive, where I'm going to make some smart changes based on these thoughts. They're just very prevalent and I'm very wired.

Onyx is really sick, and with the emergency vet. This has been extremely rough on her health, and my finances. We've been trying to diagnose the issue the past few months. I know finances are tight for many, but if you want to help, it would mean the world. streamlabs.com/rubiehart/tip

The last week or so has given me a lot to think about regarding streaming and how I want to approach it if/when I return. I have a bunch of ideas both in how I want to change my style, along with changing...other things. Dunno if I'll feel this way in a few days, but I'm excited for what might be.

As a huge fan of the original Let It Die and its style, this is heartbreaking. It deserves better than soulless sequels and being pumped full of AI slop work.

I have made my very own pumpkin pie for Friendsgiving, so here's a picture of the completed product before it is consumed and disappoints everyone tonight.

docs.google.com/document/d/1... This statement from 65 players in the San Francisco scene makes statements about their own recent issues and solidarity for the OBX Fall Flippers situation. The IFPA deleted it in their own Discord, citing "discussion on the IFPA's response to [their OBX decision]."

steam is apparently allowing "this game had AI in it that it didn't disclose" as a valid return statement, so if you or anyone you know actually paid $70 for slop, get that money back

I'd like to say this week's been tiring, but honestly, I've been tired and alone since October, and I'd like to stop feeling like I'm struggling emotionally to exist all the time. It's making it hard to think and enjoy things, damn it.

I would apologize for all the pinball posting but trans pinball players are being shit on right now by a governing body that claims to want to protect us. But it's two white cis guys so actually they just talk all over us and make us less safe It'd be absurdist comedy if it weren't so formulaic

I'm not a fan of petitions and largely don't think they lead to meaningful action, but if my rantings about transphobia in pinball have resonated with you at all, there's a petition you can sign here. The IFPA's a small enough organization that they might take notice, at least. c.org/KZCW7hLNhM

This pisses me off because Josh Sharpe is directly blaming the IFPA's own actions here rather than the tournament director's. I saw the IFPA representative moving between groups and trying to force action and find a resolution in a short timeframe. I never saw the tournament director that weekend.

An IFPA event became the center of a major controversy last weekend after a venue manager forcibly removed a trans woman from the women’s restroom and the TD allowed the event to proceed without interruption. The IFPA’s response has now created more controversy. www.kineticist.com/post/ifpa-ob...

oh.

The IFPA's spoken up about the incident at last weekend's OBX Flippers pinball event, and it's weak: An apology for inaction, an email address for reporting player safety issues, and a one-year ban for an annual event that doesn't stop them from just running slightly later in 2026. Spineless.

The aftermath of league night was way more fun last night than actual league play, but my performance was subpar to my expectations. 3rd-2nd-3rd-2nd, and a bunch of missed opportunities to improve my standing. For the life of me, I cannot control a pinball or hit shots as of late, and it's irksome.

Sometimes pinball practice goes so poorly, I start believing the only reason other people want me in this space is because they need easy scrubs to beat to boost their ranking and they're trying to convince me I have a remote chance at being good at this. Fuck, I'm so mad at pinball right now.

since way more people are linking to it than I expected, I put my statement to the IFPA on my blog instead of on a temporary html page. posts.arborelia.net/trans-exclus...

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It's telling, while dealing with incidents like yesterday's, who stands with you in even the most uncomfortable of circumstances. You learn who the real ones are, the ones who are willing to give up something they've looked forward to all year to stand against horrid bigotry.

I'm disappointed that there's been no formal repercussions for this tournament so far. I'm disappointed that everything just kind of went on because people got theirs. But I think the things I'm most disappointed in are the people who are aware of what happened and chose to participate anyway.

I am disappointed by so much today. I'm disappointed that a pinball tournament I've been looking forward to all year was derailed by a hate crime. I'm disappointed that the TD just simply failed to address that in any meaningful way.

After today's multiple transphobic incidents, I'm not playing in any OBX pinball tournaments. I hope the tournament becomes nearly worthless in WPPR points. I'm impressed how at least some of the community is coming together to make a better alternative happen next year

Correction: I flipped a bit on a Rolling Stones in a Mexican restaurant during dinner, and I think there needs to be an NHL-branded table with buttons to activate blocking posts on outlanes and the center drain.

Well. There is no pinball this weekend due to transphobia and a spineless TD who would not stand up for women's rights. Flippers is dead to me.

I'm not entering my first out-of-area tournament because of this horrid bullshit, and honestly, I feel perfectly fine about it. Fuck transphobes and spineless tourney directors. I'll enjoy myself out here without a single flip on a table.

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Zohran at the rally for trans youth on february 8 ❣️ he was polling single digits.

I really gotta stop making dramatic late-night posts when I'm too tired and emotional.

Endless III: Season of the Blood Moon starts at noon! For 3 hours, I'll be attempting to identify every ghost type in Phasmo under the blood moon, and raising money for @paradoxopera.bsky.social during their raid train! It's my last planned stream for a while! ...unless... www.twitch.tv/peaceegg

I am BEGGING people to think before you type and spoil shit or forecast something that's about to happen in a game or backseat or fucking anything.

I think I'm reaching a point where I want to be more selfish. A point where I want to make sure I'm focusing more time on those who are willing to take me along for their rides and also enjoy my company and adventures. Or this might just be a midlife crisis kicking in and making me ramble.

As I suggested I might, I deleted the earlier posts I made after crashing and burning out of another monthly tourney. I don't want to minimize the kind words or anyone reaching out, I appreciate that thoughtfulness a lot. I just need to turn a corner, and I feel like my practice isn't paying off.

It's probably not good practice to be playing on a pinball table without a tilt bob, but dang, is it ever satisfying to aggressively nudge a table and put down a personal best after a rough week competitively and mentally.

The one good thing about driving four hours to a pinball qualifying tournament: By the time I'm done driving back, my mental breakdown's run its course and I'm too tired to post anything depressing.

🔴 THIS CATTE IS LIVE! We're getting the team back together and diving into the ocean - or something! Come join myself, @flannel.live, @peaceegg.bsky.social, &the illustrious @spookduke.bsky.social as we launch into ZORT: EPISODE 3: OH LAWD THEY ZORTIN AGAIN! Come hang! :3 www.twitch.tv/konbanmiao