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CELES NO

Shitters full

My MSCS is officially a decade old... It feels like it could be several decades old by now. 😮‍💨

The future fucking sucks

Went to pride. Walked around a bit. Got cookies. Went home. 🏳️‍🌈

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Another day living in fear of the short-to-medium-term future.

happy pride month

Nobody sees the 4:00 am works outs. Nobody sees the hours of meal prepping. Nobody sees the time spent in meditation bettering myself. Nobody sees any of this. Because I don’t do these things.

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Don't be over 30.

It's a beautiful Friday to be stuck crying over AI-generated (or "smoothed over") requirements creating gaps and falling apart.

Just realistically I've already done everything I really wanted out of life... I don't need another 35 years.

A life expectancy of 40 would be fine. I could spend 5 years just appreciating all of the things I did get to do.

Surviving depression is just realizing that things aren't just going to get better one day for no reason

New way to view these Data Centers that are draining the communities they implant themselves in... draining resources for slop

June 2021 camping Pining for this energy won't make it come back, but I'm just feeling thankful for having these times to look back at

Went to six flags and found myself too scared to go on a lot of the roller coasters. I don't know what's happened to me. I don't know if I'm ever getting better. Is this it

YTMND

I'm terrified to admit how much I will use chatgpt for therapy in tandem with my real therapist... 😔 It's not great.

Oh yeah it's because I had a blow-off job and let a lifetime's worth of negative karma build while fucking around experiencing what puberty might have actually been like in the furry fandom. Yay

August 2022 when I traveled to Denver by myself just to meet up with people. Hard to discern now what made me so spirited.

Good morning. Life is meaningless.

I need more English in my life now that it may as well be code anyway.

I do not have the attention span for AI. I never liked reading. I care more about writing and speaking. Like yes I am really in the wrong career now. Where do my skills transfer. I'm drowning in code that's beyond me.

Claude hallucinated that it was 8 PM and I could put down my work because no one was checking at that time. I miss what it gets wrong in code. That's why my career is dead. If it did that in code I wouldn't see it among the shitton of code it shits out.

I've reached the point where Claude code is literally also acting as a therapist while trying to write code and explain things to me. This is where AI has gotten us. It gets worse every day.

September 2025. Wasn't even really having a good time or enjoying myself here but it's infinitely better than where I am now

December 2021 Was having a hard time then but still wanted to do things

D&B meet October 2022 Sometimes I don't think I appreciated enough how good things relatively were but I did have a lot of experiences

monday again is it

I feel mentally geriatric

Our wedding, a year after we were actually married. September 2021

This fox just showed up in my living room what do I do

But they were all of them deceived, for another leche was made...

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June 2022 camping back when I thought I had things figured out

Anthrocon 2022 A happier time in life.

June 2022 birthday party Just going to try to share one good memory from better times most mornings since it feels like it's all I have to hold on to anymore

Name 10 bands/musicians you've obsessed over at some point: 1. Mew 2. Muse 3. Modest Mouse 4. Radiohead 5. Silversun Pickups 6. CHVRCHES 7. Peter Bjorn & John 8. Red Hot Chili Peppers 9. Dandy Warhols 10. Crystal Castles Obsessed over might be a bit much but about as close as I can think

I miss having the energy to exercise