I also am not allowed to drink for the next couple weeks because of my tattoo and I know damn well I'm going to turn to people to make myself less sad, I don't want to annoy someone who I'm trying to befriend and I also don't want to sleep with someone just because I'm sad

Okay I think I'm befriending my coworker, we talk a lot and he's been sending a good morning for the last few days? I'm scared he's just talking with me to sleep with me or as a distraction or something, I just want more friends

Had the first panic attack of my life last night, that shit sucks so bad

God bpd I hate you please just let me be normal

God I feel like this is eating me alive???? I'm always the first and last one to text, but when we talk he seems into it, but how do I know he's not just being nice???

No more drinking for Lidia, especially since I have a tattoo appointment soon. Me and the bottle of wine in my fridge are making eyes at each other though

DONT TEXT HIM DONT DO IT

Making a pact with myself that I can't drink alone for the rest of this month

Someone tell me not to text him please, texting first every time is DESPERATE but I am desperate so lol

AAAARHEHEJJGH I don't feel like my bpd is super awful anymore but can I please stop getting obsessed with people I barely know??? Thx

God forbid I eat one thing today!!!! It's completely dairy free but still making me feel sick this is so dumb

Should I get some wine for tonight? I've been drinking a few times a week as opposed to a few times a month like before so I know I shouldn't but what if I wanna

Bored bored bored, there's a particular exhaustion that comes when you take a stimulant medication when you're sleep deprived and it's truly the worst. I'm dumb, sad, and dissociating :( Plus my bf is away so I'll be alone tonight

Nvm a goth girl complimented my outfit life is worth living

Last complaint but I've finally stopped coughing after getting sick a month ago (sexy) but now I'm super congested and my nose is running 24/7 what the fuck pls can I just be allowed to breathe normal. Considered getting a decongestant but the whole addiction thing freaks me out, last thing I need

I feel like I'm a doll falling apart at the seams rn. My acne is awful, my GI issues are being evil, I'm about to start my period and I'm so fucking exhausted. I'm honestly anxious about going to work because of how fucked up I'm going to look :(

I hate getting cystic acne!!!!! It's so painful and huge and it takes ages to go away please leave me beeee

WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME I finished the last of the vodka so no more drinking for me (for the best) but my mind is so empty and bored I want to do stupid and impulsive shit

The store I always go to had a bunch of monster zero flavors they usually don't have, and they were on sale!!! Yippeeeee

Caffeine save me from feeling soooo sleepy

A customer just told me I look like Shannen Doherty in 90210 and that is quite possibly the best compliment I've ever received

I am filled with rage and trying not to take it out on people but seriously

My cats' litter box is in a tiled closet but they keep tracking/kicking their litter right outside the door where it IS carpeted and the carpet near the door smells like cat urine :(

Okay the coworker I thought was hitting on me texted me today saying "hey buddy" so I'm thinking I was way wrong cause BUDDY???

just know that when i'm on here liking and replying to everything, that's me high af playing on my barbie phone

Ended up taking someone else's shift for tonight so maybe I won't want to kms

WHATS WRONG WITH MY BRAIN RAAAGAGAGAGAHAHAHHJJ

I'm going to start using weights consistently again and hope I look even slightly like I have curves. Time to go get really fucking high and sleep it all away 🖤🖤🖤

Sorry for crashing out I've been so caught up on my appearance lately. I am normally not a do my hair and makeup kind of person but I have been for my new job and people are so much kinder to me. When you realize how important your appearance is I just look at everyone else who puts in 50% less +

I hated my hair so I changed it, then I hated my skin so I've been fixing it, I hated how I dressed so I got new clothes, I hated my weight so I lost 60lbs and now I hate how flat and un-toned I am when will it end WHEN WILL IT END I JUST WANT TO BE PRETTY

I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself. I don't know why I thought anyone would ever want to be around me, want to be my friend, or be attracted to me. I was hoping if I was pretty enough people would look past my flaws but even at my best I'm still so fucking ugly I hate myself

I've been having the STRONG urge to drink every night lately, yikes. I know I'm getting more depressed and that the more I drink the more shit I'll feel but goddamn

Ordered binge food because I hate myself and the universe said no bitch and had the driver deliver it to a completely different (locked) building so not getting that I guess. For the best?

Also I feel like it's easier and more entertaining to strength train when I'm high but I'm worried my form is totally off and I'm fucking it up but am too high to realize

I'm not happy with my weight but at this point my bigger issue is with how I'm shaped :( I want to get toned but consistently working out requires so much more effort and discipline than just not eating as much

Brain rn

Deciding if I should go swimming, I'm hoping since it's cold out no one will be there? I just don't really wanna swim in dead silence lol

God I really hate not knowing what I look like

God y'all I swear I'll shut up about this but it's so fucked up that I experience genuine sexual attraction like once every 3 years and this time it's a COWORKER

i love getting new moots like hi :D welcome to the oversharing dome

Forgot my work energy drink my life is over

OH GOD CAN YOU JUST LIKE SEVERAL HOURS INTO A CONVO BE LIKE I HAVE A BOYFRIEND

Okay update I got drunk and didn't realize I was flirting with my coworker until it got OBVIOUS

Does anyone wanna see the perfumes I got?

I'm going to try to get back into working out daily and eating more protein

Should I get drunk??? I've been drinking more recently and I don't have any mixers but I wanna so there's that on the "pro" side

New month new Lidia!!!!!

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Liquid IV has 50 cals???? I know it's not a lot but I bought it thinking it was SF

I swear to God I took my meds this morning but I feel like I haven't? My pulse is also particularly low so wtf did I do? I hope I didn't accidentally leave a pill somewhere my cats could get to it