gained 10 pounds at the fucking hospital

thanksgiving is too overwhelming

i need everyone to stop talking 2 me or im going to lose my shit

anxiety is through the roof today

gobble gobble

ive been freeeeeeeed! i had to go back to inpatient lol

has anyone tried tms?

PANIC

had a breakdown yesterday

i just had to explain 67 to my coworkers teehee i gotta get offline

nody not tea so i resort to drinking it 10x a day

my arm feels like its falling off ouch

i bought the ano x badtz maru gashapon collection and i need usps to HURRY UP

my irls are not woke enough

its tomorrow yippeeeeee

i need them

i dont want to do therapy today

you guys ever talk to someone with similar interests to you and when you get exited about something you share the other person has a weird vibe shift almost like theyre upset that you can relate? maybe im just too excited and off putting

i dont know if im capable of fully loving someone instead of obsessing over them i feel like ive instantly fallen in love every time ive met someone but simultaneously never felt love for anyone

i am an idiot

i actually cant wait for irls to comment on my tattoos and being broke like firstly mind ya business but also these were FREE because my friends lov me

i feel like im gonna pass out

i love making progress just to ruin it in a fee days 🤪

also been eating like shit and so terrified to weigh in i got my shit together for the week and will weigh in when its over unless i utterly fuck it completely up

i JUST got here bro why are you already asking me stupid questions

if i could see my father right now, id punch him in the fuckin face

good morning lovely people in my phone! i hope everyone slept well! if youre on the other side of the planet sweet dreams 🛌🌙⋆ ˚｡𖦹 ⋆｡° its so cold!! be kind to yourself and have a cozy cup of tea or coffee:3

officially completed one arm! 😭 i feel like i got my wings back low key

tattoo time :-3

someone take a fat hit for me ill be there in spirit

i want to smoke but im out of weed

the distractions aren’t working anymore

whatthefuckever

pissing out the ass. great

oj i didn’t tell you guys someone called the cops on me during a freakout (i was at the park) and almost got taken away to the hospital 😀

stupid stupid stupid child brain

to love me is to suffer me

Kill me 𝐏 Kill me 𝐏 Kill me Kill me 𝐋 Kill me 𝐋 Kill me Kill me 𝐄 Kill me 𝐄 Kill me Kill me 𝐀 Kill me 𝐀 Kill me Kill me 𝐒 Kill me 𝐒 Kill me Kill me 𝐄 Kill me 𝐄 Kill me

i want to feel worthy of love

me

all i remember ever wanting since i was eight was to be happy. when will i be happy

CIGARETTE CIGARETTE WOO

i washed my hair with too hot water and now i want to scalp myself TOO ITCHY

i dont want to be here i dont want to be here i dont want to be here i dont want to be here i dont want to be here i dont want to be here i dont want to be here i dont want to be here i dont want to be here i dont want to be here i dont want to be here i dont want to be here i dont want to be here

I LOST MY KITTIES BABY TEETH

warm tea ^-^

i feel like shit wtf is wrong with me i need to stop binging every night and ruining the day’s progress maybe today will be different because im fed up with myself

SO MUCH GOOP

successfully avoided sh urges and now this tattoo feels like a huge weight off my shoulders

i hate having bpd every time i try reach out to someone i panic so much that i end up not reaching out thinking they didnt like me anyway each attempt i worry will come off too strong and i’ll inevitably chase everyone away for getting too attached