idk y but my paper fo0d journal feels so much more sham3ful like here i am again making another entry dam

I’m so hungryyy but I love being skinny even more

idc if its lies feed my delusion yes yes

being social too scary n hard

aaaaaaaaa i got invited to something but im too nice to decline and now im scareddd

failed btw 🥺🥺 want to ded

fighting the urge to eat my feelings rn so hard

need tutorial on how to be cute and coy stat

embarrassed looking @ myself rn

keeping it together and gonna work out hard af tonight. i feel motivated. i feel excited and hopeful !!

and itz helping cause now i really am forgetting

i cant take meds as prescribed they dont kno wat dose i need

fasting tonight since it was assumed i wasnt hungry even thou im ravenoussss 💀

disconnect i feel with my own body is numbing

yeaaa not having anything else tonite rly cant stand thinking where id be if igot a grip sooner

continually surprised that im doing it. im losing again

ive barely eaten today so wasnt much to come up, wat a waste

hmm it happened again, its not rly fun anymore

just frew up and idk y

wow im not failing howw

ok i didnt gorge today 😇

real

chamōmile ♡

hard to stay on track when my way of expressing love is baking sweets

solid count today. havent gone over and dont feel too weak

so i cant even say cro1ssant freely im so done

priv acc would solve all my problems rn

happy mlk day send a blk person $5

why are potat0s so miserable without olive oil

Dr Pepper cals can’t hurt me cause I’m kind and pure of heart

not me deciding to lockin halfway thru January lmao

no matter how good life is going i still want to be skinny more than anything i cant let go of wat i weighed in my teens and im EMBARRASSED and pathetic. wishing i were sicker and sadder knowing those were the lowest times in my life

need to hear "ur so tiny" again, need to be picked up

also im hungry n my family is coming tomorrow & im scared

me n my disordered community r INNOCENT pls go after the p3d0s n r@cists instead

oh shit are ppl getting b@nned again

ramen w egg

cant go one day without spazzing

them♡

literally day 3 into the year have to force myself not to binge when will i get tired

this year for sure ...

its fine its fine its fine

bad choices were made but back on track today kinda... most i can hope for is a maintenance day

crimith eve

breakfast was a very unsatisfying pb&j

sp4ghetti for dinner tomorrow (yippie!!) so ill have to fast all day or ig have a breakfast/lunch under 100c to keep on track.. ehmm

excited to weigh for once hehe

like shit maybe i do art again. maybe i try calisthenics. maybe learn new language !! i want to be creative and learn ..