have to stop dreaming of being sk1nny and BE

long as its alcohol cals

haha

its okay im losing

raw pls

rah rah rah

the medz aint doing it anymore me still crave dęath

miss being 108

legit 2 old for this shit man

oki the fear of being fat in swîmsuit has set in... nauseous

not hungry bc the supr t1ny pretty girls wanna hangout and im LARRGEEEE

am an effing rollie polli rn yuuuckck

having the same thing everyday is comforting

forcing myself to go slow when eatin̈g is so hard my default is vacuŭm

ok im so in now totally

how to stop failing at everything

im not failing this time i swear just give me a minute to fix this

got my motivation back

only 2lbz down so i may need the 🪢

funny how fast i can stop bs'ing when theres an event planned but no other time

yes cosmos i shut my mouf

bought myself a snack with his card and spilled it after taking a bite IS THIS A SIGN

going to omad til my bday since i cant fast.. i work 8 days straight :|

i do not wish to be perceived until summer

never got over my parents making me finish plates way past full btw

the concept of a new tatto0 being a wl reward omgomg i need to LOK TF INNN

the urge to be 103lbz with 3 more piercings and a tr@mp stamp or fing3r tatto0 aaaaaaa

what is it about binging that's like ah man that sucked. lemme do it again tho. but Worse.

H U N G E R

I hate this fucking country

gained consciousness at start of a bing3 that was a close one

gonna wait til late as possible to eat bc im not ruining today

jus had a yummy honeydew bob@ to break my fast but i think its fish for dinner later.. i feel like im lacking prot3in lately

bing3 day but not gonna turn that into a week 💀 i hopeee

hes always mad at me now

so hungnyng

chest pains coming back

back in gym and it feels good but i hate sweating sm

idk y but my paper fo0d journal feels so much more sham3ful like here i am again making another entry dam

I’m so hungryyy but I love being skinny even more

idc if its lies feed my delusion yes yes

being social too scary n hard

aaaaaaaaa i got invited to something but im too nice to decline and now im scareddd

failed btw 🥺🥺 want to ded

fighting the urge to eat my feelings rn so hard

need tutorial on how to be cute and coy stat

embarrassed looking @ myself rn

keeping it together and gonna work out hard af tonight. i feel motivated. i feel excited and hopeful !!