I wish people would read the instructions instead of snapping at me that nothing makes sense

May 💐 gaining control back a 🧵

Ok so there's - military diet (always do this one 👍) - egg diet (felt like shit and didn't finish it) - IU diet (never done it) I'm think of just picking meals from one of the three instead of picking only one diet and getting ultimately bored with it for the remaining of the month.

Enough cooking I'm going back to eating boiled sad stuff only because I clearly lost the plot

My cat getting compliments from the vet about how healthy he is for his age while a group of vet techs try to control him in the background 😭

Ok I'm locking in. Starting my fast rn

Why is the small batch of chicken feet almost 4 dollars let's be a little serious rn wth

I've been sleeping so late and im once again unable to take control

Finally made this and I had to put 1/2 cup of oil and I want to cry 7/10 it's a muffin ok First of all, oil 😑 Second, it taste just like having a normal recipe for pancake and u just put the protein powder so 😭 Third, I had to make the whole batch Things I like, they are airy and fluffy

I've been using that all this time 🥲

Might kill myself wtf

Strawberry jello yogurt 8/10 It will be perfect with some chunks of strawberries

TMI I've pooped 3 times today already. Ouch

Like I seriously need to kill myself if I don't achieve this

Honest time Usually I don't get triggered by drawings or fictional characters but I think Emma from Veil has achieved that. I don't even know why. I want to die bruh

Meow

So excited for tomorrow

Needing 3k but up to date with tech nails and lashes ok 🙄 This is the only time she has tried to call me mind you. I didn't answer. 4 jobs in that household where the fuck is the money going.

I know people are like just take one of the medications for weight loss but like I can't. My mind won't let me. It feel wrong for me to do it. Everyone can but I should starve and be ugly and nasty

In my gelatin era

I have an infection in my eye and it burns I'm going to cry

Everyone is losing weight so rapidly that they look so tired and gaunt that I'm fucking jealous I've been literally thinking about this since Sunday. Fuck this period bro. I need to die of starvation and I hate thinking like this but like wtf. It should be me

Important update I saw fireflies! I thought it was my eyes at first failing. Its been so long since I've seen them flying around 😭

Everyone and their grandma is losing weight wtf like I'm not even kidding. Everyone is getting super skinny guys

The red scare being a high possibility and now they're bringing back firing squads which will probably be used for everyone except the Epstein class like ok

I wonder if the destination is going to be the countries the States has deals with for human trafficking already like Congo

I think my cat just put me to bed

I don't know of I'm smelling gas or softener 💀

I should probably lock in and figure out digital art but it's so overwhelming. I could do some commissions and slowly build a moving fund.

My mom telling lies saying I don't help so I told her I only leave the dirty dishes my brother used and she rolled her eyes at me 😭 I need to get out of here

Ate a little bit more today bc I felt myself fading 💀 • Like 6 - 7? Tacos of vegan meat • One small cup of golden puff cereal with milk • The last of the corn with tuna • Crackers • Fig wheat bar

Apr 14 Tuna and corn Wheat crackers 12? Maria's Half lipton tea

I need to be skinny asap

2nd time I'm 💩 ok I won't eat anything solid.

Made half an hour of dancing so I don't know if I should eat. I don't want to pass 1500c

So far 8 galletas marías 120c Some chocolate... 300c? 2 hard boiled eggs 140c Mashed potato with cheese ???c Cup of cereal with milk 220 - 300c

Im sore so I'll rest today and just take some lax

Next time I'll save some calories for after workout I guess🙄

April 8 so far One banana muffin 200-300c 💀 Coffee with creamer 90cal 3 super skinny tamales bc the grandma who made them lowkey oomf Chips 200c ? 💀

All the advice to move back to the motherland always starts with "have connections" but that's my family and they will sell me for one corn chip

Apr 6 so far Scone 300(?) Black coffee

How do people do omad in the morning or even during brunch hours. I get so anxious throughout the evening and end up overeating :(

Hot my step goal :3

I've definitely eaten a lot. I might take a laxative bc I forgot my sister is not working rn. It's going to be a miracle if I reach my steps goal today.

Ok how am I supposed to pace around when my sister is here 😔

My mom is currently making red meat while listening to Catholic prayers 😭

19h fast and I feel like death is going to take me at any moment

My sister is going to be home until Monday kms

I want to eat :(

Day so far has been 500 estimate from beans with three tostadas 190 pure protein bar 163 chocolate mint ice cream